Malachi Azure
Kai could have not meant a word that he said when it came to Jess, and it wouldn’t bring any different result. Just if he didn’t mean any of it, maybe he wouldn’t have the guilt that came along with meaning every word he said. Nothing he would be enough to make up for what he did. Staying out of Jess’s life probably meant more, and he had. He tried to keep out of her life, to keep from hurting her over and over again, he owed her that much at least, but the universe always seemed to force him and Jess to keep coming back to each other. “Don’t you think I know that sorry can’t fix all the ways I f^^ked up? Nothing can fix even half of the things I’ve done in my life to you, or to anyone I’ve ever f^^king cared about.” Kai didn’t want the fight, but he should have known that there was no avoiding it. Perhaps he shouldn’t have tried giving an apology for the present moment, to tell her that he truly had not intended on coming and being a presence in her life again. Then he was thankful for her letting Scarlet stay and have fun when Jess’s own daughter pulled her in to play. Jess easily could have stopped the girls and made Kai take Scarlet away and leave right then, but she let the little girl stay and have fun. That was something that wasn’t about Kai, that was about Scarlet, the single most important part of Kai’s life. After all this time of not actually seeing each other, there really couldn’t have been a way to avoid a fight.
“I didn’t know Jezebel was dealing with that. I just knew that if Val wasn’t home she might be here. I don’t know anything that goes on here. Akielah would’ve told me that you were here, that Jezebel was dealing with a lot, or that Val wasn’t even in Beryl right now, but its not like she’s even f^^king allowed to have anything to do with any of you since finding out what my f^^king father did. I only came because it wasn’t something that could be done over the phone. If that would’ve been enough I would’ve just called her, but it has to be in person.” He knew he could trust Val. She was someone he knew he could count on, especially when he needed it. She was the one who helped talk him through one of his lowest points, and he knew she would be able to get the clarity he needed on what to do now. It was more than a simple phone call could fix.
Jess continued, telling him to take Scarlet and leave, but then with her next words she suddenly stopped. Her eyes met his, as if there was more going on that he didn’t know, and then suddenly was trying to run from the conversation. “Hold on one f^^king second. I don’t even know who you’re talking about. What am I missing?” She couldn’t just run from the fight at that point. This fight was too many years, with too much pain, in the making for her to just run. It wasn’t over.
@benitz786 - Jess