Logan had honestly been relieved when it seemed that Kaspian didn’t remember her. Sure, she knew the odds were not in her favor, that he’d eventually connect the dots, but she could hope that maybe there was truly a chance that he wouldn’t. But now, face to face with him, the past was finally coming back to bite. All Logan could do was roll her eyes. She knew that to Kaspian every door may as well be unlocked. Regardless of how securely locked something was before he showed up. Five years certainly didn’t change that, or how he only thinks about himself.
“Nice to see you too, Cass”
Cass… she hadn’t heard that name since… no. She’d heard it once since, at prom, when he saw her. She thought it was over, but then nobody came, and everything happened. She thought everything would be fine, but then she found Kaspian in her home.
There were only two other people who knew anything. The man who had helped her, and the man she’d been at a stalemate with for years. That is, until Kaspian showed up. He knew too much. She was young and told him far too much when they first knew each other. “Everything was normal until you showed up, Kaspian.” Her life was normal. Well, at least as normal as it gets in Beryl, but now Kaspian’s presence posed a risk to that normal, to the life she’d made for herself there, so for the time being, all she could do was listen.
“Tell me, Cassandra,”
Truthfully it was strange to hear her full first name after so long. It was a mistake to use it when she first met him, but she had just left home, or what was home, and she hardly knew what she was doing. It was only after they parted ways that she started going by her middle name. It was easy for her to remember, and she’d always liked it, so it was only natural for her to make the switch, to be just Logan. It wasn’t the name her family always used, it was hers. Her name, her identity, her life.
“Blood money? That was the last f^^king thing I wanted. I just wanted my own life. But people do crazy things when they’re desperate. After all, I didn’t do anything you weren’t about to do to me. It was me or you, and you had already f^^king picked yourself, so I didn’t have much of a choice. Let you f^^king sell me out and run away with everything, or protect myself. I only did what I had to Kaspian, but you. You only cared about yourself and what you could gain.”
She truly never had wanted to do what she did all those years ago, but there was no real choice. He was her friend, she admired him back then, and he was the one person in her life she thought she could trust without a doubt. Then he made it clear that none of it was mutual. She was just something he thought he could use for his own benefit. He betrayed her first. Could it even be a betrayal if he clearly must not have had the trust in her she’d had in him. She trusted him, and he broke that trust completely which forced her hand, even when she hadn’t wanted it to