Flashback
Amelia had a soft smile on her lips as she roamed her basement - or rather, her dad’s music room. Alex often came over to mess around since her father had basically created an entire studio under the house and since Alex was basically his son as he often said, he was free to use it. She navigated towards the couch, bringing her legs to her chest as she hugged them, listening to him casually strum his guitar with no purpose. The two often did this - mess around in this room while just… talking. About everything… anything. After all, he was one of her closest friends. Honestly, she was never musically inclined in the sense that she could come up with her own songs like Alex, though she could hold a tune. She was fairly good at guitar and piano, thank you, dad. She at least picked that up as surfing was never in her cards.
When Alex told her he was working on a new song, she couldn’t help but grin. “So are you going to share or just be a butt and leave me in suspense?” Amie joked, throwing a pillow towards him which he dodged. And then she heard it, his song. Her heart immediately started racing… and she couldn’t help but wonder… if the song talking about the words “I love you”? And if it was… was he… was it about her? Maybe her mind was playing tricks on her but it almost seemed as if he was singing to her as he sang those first few lyrics so… she couldn’t… she reacted without thinking. Standing up, Amie walked up to him, and without saying anything, her lips were on his for a mere second before he pushed her away. Immediately, regret filled her being. What the hell had she just… done? “I- I’m so sorry. Just forget that happened. I thought… I’m so… god I’m such an idiot”*
Amelia started backing away, not letting him say anything else before racing upstairs, her father giving her a weird look before starting to ask “Ames are you oka…?” but Amie didn’t let her father finish as she rushed into her room and locked the door before falling to the floor. Great job Amelia, you just ruined a friendship.
End of Flashback
Her heart was racing once again. For the first time in months, they were alone… in a room again. After months of avoiding him… avoiding the conversation because it hurt… it just… hurt that he didn’t feel the same way she did. So could you blame her for wanting to avoid this situation? It was the last thing she wanted to deal with today of all days…
“You’re such a bad liar”
Amie looked down, attempting to avoid his gaze. She was a bad liar… she always had been. It wasn’t something she often did, and when she did, it usually turned into… well… this mess: Her rambling as she attempted to pull together a concise lie. She took a deep breath as he asked her to give him a moment, her eyes navigating towards the door in an attempt to escape. Yes… Amie was a runner. Running from her problems just… was easier. So when he asked for five minutes, she gave him a look of hesitancy. “I don’t… Alex I…” she started, unsure of what to say, but her anxiety increased as he closed her only escape.
Her heart ached as he mentioned pushing her away that night as he begin apologizing, telling her how she was a ‘kind,’ ‘sweet,’ girl - things people usually said about girls they didn’t like. And that’s exactly why she was embarrassed… why she avoided him. Because she ruined their friendship and he didn’t even like her.
" I like you Amie so much,"
What he wasn’t saying was as a friend. She knew it was there, implicit under the statement and part of her wasn’t even listening anymore she just… wanted to leave. God why was she so stupid… she ruined this…
"Just… please say something… and don’t leave… again”
Oh… god what was he saying… Amie being… well… Amie had begun overthinking during most of that. Though she did hear his first part… the part where he started practically saying he liked her as a friend… “It’s… it’s my fault Alex… I know I"m an idiot… I know you only like me as a friend I get it I just… I’m sorry I can’t… do this…” Amie muttered giving him a look before walking past him in a rush. She hated this… hated… ignoring him… avoiding him… but it just hurt… and she needed a moment to breathe.
@Megan