Not necessarily ranting, more so reflecting. I have experienced and done so much lately, and when I think back on it all I see is how fast time is moving. For me seeing how quick an amazing day becomes a forgotten memory brings me emotional turmoil. Don’t know how to explain it, maybe im confused or just overthinking the passage of time, but whatever the case life feels so much shorter now.
Sometimes I’ll just look at photos I’m in, try to recall what exactly I did before that photo was taken. The emotions I felt, what my five senses felt like at that exact time, who I was when that photo was taken, but for the life of me I just can’t recall.
I need to learn patience and to relax
Like rn I’m so restless knowing I have to go in like 20 minutes
While I should learn to just relax and not overly stress about things before I even have to…
Why do I have the absolute worst luck
I was jumping off a 5 meter high platform
But I slipped
So I panicked a little bit and landed on my side
Massive bruise on my leg
And I think I have a bruised rib as well
I’m a bit scared honestly
I’m honestly so sad
I had a day planned with one of my friends (we live 3hrs away from each other, and she’s the type to have her whole month booked pretty much all th e time) and for once we were free on the same day and now I’m like, violently sick
I just found this out today٫ and I feel extremely stupid. Queen Victoria’s name was actually Alexandrina Victoria. I learned this from a true crime video. What the…? Also٫ why does my name seem to common for royals?! Queen Elisabeth was Elisabeth Alexandra Mary.
I’m not okay right now, mentally, emotionally and physically
And it feels good to admit that for a change
Even if I know I will be okay again soon hopefully
One of my absolute worst flaws is how freaking competitive I can get
With like board games or even these guessing forum games
I take that stuff way too seriously
