”I do, yes, but that doesn’t mean I won’t love my own kid. It doesn’t mean I’d always think that way.”
”Is.”
”I wanted to marry her back then and you think I don’t know what that would mean and what she’d eventually want? Sure, maybe kids weren’t in my plans then but you can’t ask me that. I never wanted her to lose them and as much as I might’ve not been ready for that, I would’ve done anything to make her happy… To make sure it didn’t end the way it did.”
Jezebel:
There’s no reason why I shouldn’t help him, or be friends with him.
Jezebel:
It was cold, and he didn’t have a jacket. I have more at home, and I thought it would help him.
I know… she won’t like it… but I couldn’t not do something when I knew I could.
I feel like she would’ve internalized a lot more of her feelings and nobody would’ve known much at all of how her relationship is with her mother. Definitely would’ve been soooooo much worse on her self esteem, and she wouldn’t understand love, or that having someone care about her shouldn’t mean being treated badly…
A lot of depression she’d try to hide behind attempted perfection, followed by a lot of toxic (probably abusive) relationships as she’d get older…
I feel like if she didn’t have Jordan to show her how to love… she kinda would have been like laurel in a weird way. Like one of those girls who’s an angel at home but becomes worse when their parents aren’t watching?
Yeah I can kinda get that. And I see it either going that way, or the opposite. Seemingly perfect away from home, while home is a mess, because her attempts at perfection would never be enough.