Jezebel:
I never knew all of the details, but yes I did know.
Jezebel:
He always tried keeping me out of it.
Jezebel:
When I didn’t tell him about being pregnant back then, at first it was because I was scared and needed to figure out how I felt, but then I never got the chance to tell him. After losing the baby, I was trying to protect him by not telling him. I was in so much pain, and I didn’t want him hurting like that too.
Jezebel:
He’s not the Jordan I love… he’s not the person I can look to and feel better, who makes me smile when I’m upset, who treats me like I’m worth the world.
I look at him and feel worse. I feel like I’m worthless and thought of as a malicious monster.
Since he woke up not remembering the past 10 years, he hasn’t treated me like I’m worth even a second glance. I’m just the person who was apparently out to hurt him, and he hasn’t even tried to believe me. The first time he’s willingly speaking to me, is to give me divorce papers and calling it a sham. He didn’t even want to believe the babies are his, when I wouldn’t have a reason to lie about it. He clearly doesn’t trust me, so how am I supposed to trust him?
What do you think about how you’ve been treating Jez lately?
Do you think it’s reasonable that she doesn’t feel comfortable around you right now?
Do you wonder if you still have a subconscious resentment towards Jez? I’m sure she’s going to be thinking you do.
What are you going to do to show her that you’re the same person she married, that you do want to spend the rest of your life with her?
Those divorce papers should just go in the trash, right?
Why wouldn’t you confront her and ask her why she did everything you assumed she had? She would’ve explained if you had given her the chance, but you didn’t want the answers.
You know you broke her heart, right? Things can’t just continue on as if the past couple months didn’t happen. Is she supposed to just forgive and forget? Do you think you can fix what you messed up?
Jezebel:
I’d need time I guess… I don’t know where things are anymore…
Jezebel:
I’ve been trying to be. I’ve been doing the best I can.
Jezebel:
Don’t say that. I wasn’t much more that a complete screw up and I know I’ve never been good enough, but do not say I’m like her. I’m failing, I know I am, but at least I love my daughter. I’ve loved her since I was pregnant with her, and I’m going to love her until the day I die. No matter what. That’s more than my mother ever did.
