Flashback - Post Proposal:
She said yes… how the hell did he get her to say yes? Jordan Williams had absolutely no idea… no clue on how he convinced Sadie Monroe to say yes to his proposal… but god he loved her. He loved the way she had the ability to make anyone smile, no matter how they were feeling. Rather, she thrived in bringing up everyone’s spirits… it was a talent that she didn’t even know she had. He loved how she could capture his attention from across the room, no matter how many people were surrounding them. In any room, she had his full attention - because Jordan was truly in love. She was a light in the darkness. She was his everything… and she would forever be his everything. He loved Sadie Monroe with his entire heart and she had said yes… till death due them part. He had found his person… something he falsely believed years earlier… but she was worth the wait… she was worth everything… every heartbreak he had dealt with, every single moment of pain.
Looking at her even now, as she laid her head against his chest - the night after his proposal - he felt the tingle of butterflies in his chest. It didn’t matter how long they had known each other, even to this day he found himself getting nervous as he looked into her eyes. She had that ability… to make him lose his train of thought mid-sentence but that’s simply another reason he loved her. He couldn’t help but smile as he found her shifting in her sleep - soon placing a soft kiss on her forehead. That’s what he had been doing for the past few hours - admiring his fiancé, a girl he had fallen helplessly for. Light had begun streaming into their bedroom window and he found her mumbling in her sleep, her eyes gently opening after a few moments allowing Jordan to kiss her lips with a soft moan. “I love you, future Mrs. Williams,” he whispered, letting his hand intertwine with her own - caressing the ring on her finger that would stay there for the rest of their lives if he had anything to say about it. God he loved her.
Flash Forward - Divorce:
Tears brimmed his eyes as he sat in the darkness of his hotel room… could he even call it a hotel room anymore? Over the past year, he was there more than he was in… Sadie’s home. Yes… he had to get used to calling it that. No longer was it theirs. In his hands, Jordan Williams held a stack of papers that were recently delivered at his doorstep… letters indicating that Sadie wanted a divorce. Maybe he should have known this was coming. Jordan Williams never deserved Sadie… rather, she deserved so much better than him. Sadie Williams… actually… Sadie Monroe deserved the world, and Jordan broke his promise of giving it to her. He never wanted to be this man… the person who broke promises… the one who broke this promise. He never wanted to be his father, and look where he was - in the exact same position that his father was. Next to the papers scattered on the floor, he found a note - Sadie’s handwriting on the paper with the simple words:
“I can’t keep you waiting. I’m sorry.”
Inside the envelope, there was one other item… her wedding ring. The one he cherished seeing on her finger… knowing that it represented that he would forever be hers… and she was his… that very item, however, would no longer be there. God he fcked up. Standing up from his corner, one that he had been stuck in for hours - his mind reminiscing over all the good memories - he found himself walking to the hotel bar in his suite. And for the first time in 15 years, Jordan Williams grabbed a bottle of scotch, and with no hesitation, closed his eyes and drank - allowing the burn to torment him as tears fell down his eyes. If he was his father, he may as well do what his father would. What was the point in anything else?
Jordan Williams had lost the best thing that had ever happened to him… and he would forever live with those consequences… with the regret that he had done this to himself. And right now… the only thing that was making him feel alive was the haze he found himself in as the alcohol coursed his veins - his mind going back to the feeling of Sadie’s body laying on his. Her smile… her touch… and how he had lost it… forever.
Present
There was a soft smile on Jordan’s lips - a smile that took years to return. It wasn’t easy being… normal around Sadie. It took time… practice… work… but what could one expect? He loved her… he would forever love Sadie Monroe. She was, at one point, his wife… his entire world… the mother of his children, and no matter what had happened between them, they were friends and would forever be. As he approached the woman, his mind set on telling her about… Jezebel:. A girl… well… that he had recently fallen back in love with - a hope that she would be happy for him since… well… Jordan Williams never get that chance with Sadie again and he had come to terms with that.
Though his smile faltered as she told him she needed to say something - a worry filling him that it had something to do with their children. “No…of course. Go ahead…” he responded, leaning against the door as he looked towards her. There was something going on in her mind… even over the years they had been apart, he knew how to read her… though Jordan couldn’t place his finger on it just yet. What she begin saying next, however, was something he would have never expected. Hell… Jordan didn’t even think there was a chance she even felt anything anymore and it was with her words that his heart… stopped.
“And I really can’t for another day - another second - pretend that I’m not completely in love with you"”
The casual smile that he had practiced over the years faltered at her words, and for a few moments of bliss, he felt his heart racing over words that he dreamed about hearing for years. Perhaps it was because he still loved her… because Jordan Williams could never forget everything that happened between the two of them. There was, and forever would be, history… and love between them. As she closed the distance between the two - her touch bringing back cherished memories - he found himself lost in the words that he dreamed about hearing over the years.
“I love you, and I never want to lose you again, I can’t, I love you"”
Jordan was no longer thinking - similar to how he reacted years prior when he kissed Jezebel - he found himself repeating history. Only this time, as she uttered something about him having something to say, he repeated history in the opposite order. He found his lips falling to hers, his arm grabbing her, pulling her towards him. The memories of the two of them, their wedding, his vows to her, the birth of their children… every single moment with her flashed in his mind and he needed her. It was a moment of bliss, one that intoxicated his entire being because part of him loved Sadie so much that it hurt. However, in a moment, realization hit as he found his phone rang which subsequently pulled him away from her as he realized what he had done. “I’m sorry… I shouldn’t have…” Jordan started, his mind racing - the love he felt for Jezebel weighing down on his mind. Looking down, he found a call from the studio - likely updates on what had happened while he was gone picking up Annie from the station. “It’s… sorry it’s the studio… they can… wait…” he whispered, looking back at the girl in front of him. That’s all it took really, one look at her and he couldn’t help the love he felt for her… or the words that left his lips next. “I’ve… never stopped loving you Sadie… I just… I need… a chance… to think about…everything” he whispered, not truly knowing what he was saying as his mind was far too frazzled to make sense of anything right now.