Would you believe you?
It was a good question, and the answer was a easy no. Anyone could tell her that… even he could tell her that but clearly, no one needed to say anything because she already knew. Fine, let’s be fcking honest, everyone on this fcking plane knew - and from the stares they were getting, it was obvious they were interested in how this seating situation was going to go down. Well to that, Ricky honestly didn’t fcking care. Mostly because he was near the person he hurt the most… and he truly could only pay attention to that.
It’s said that the eyes are the window to one’s soul, and right now, Annie’s eyes were screaming distrust towards his direction. Well… distrust… frustration… annoyance… pain… everything he had gone through time and time again in his past. He just… never thought it would hurt so much putting someone else through the pain he had experienced. He was supposed to be hardened to all feelings… and now he was here, going through a different kind of pain. The worst part was he couldn’t even blame her. Every other time he had felt this, he had someone to hate. Someone to blame. Someone to look at with the hatred that Annie was pointing towards him. Hell, if anything he recognized that look more than most because he saw it every fcking day when he looked in a mirror.
At the moment, he just felt like he was nothing and that idea only rang truer with her sentiment of it’s done now.
It’s done.
And, it will forever be his fault. So he listened. For the first time in his life, he had nothing to argue. Nothing to say. Nothing to push in her direction, so all he could do was put his sunglasses back on, turn his face towards the aisle, close his eyes, and pretend like there was music playing in his ears when in reality he was simply hoping to hear even a simple word from her lips.
Flashback/Dream (part 1)
Drunk; that was the only word that could describe Ricky’s state after essentially running away from the shtfall of everything that came out a few days ago. So what exactly happened? How did Ricky Montoya end up in Spain drinking everything he could get his hands on?
Well, Blue Royalty asked for an update video about how “using” Annie was going, and Ricky hadn’t responded in months. What? He didn’t want to do a fcking update video when he was actually starting to fall for the fcking girl. Anyways, it seemed like that wasn’t the best fcking idea since they decided to retaliate by releasing the fcking video of him with Paige at the beginning of the fcking year.
So yeah, another shot please? Actually, make it a double.
He ran. Maybe it seemed like the easiest thing to do after Annie made it clear she wanted nothing to do with him. Did that mean he didn’t try texting her? DMing her? Calling her? No, he tried and it always ended the same - so perhaps this was easier.
“Hey handsome, why don’t you take me back to your place?”
So maybe that’s how Ricky ended the night with a girl wrapped around his waist for the first time since Annie. Perhaps that’s how he found himself pushing her against the wall, lips on her lips, neck, breast… Perhaps that’s how…
Ricky’s eyes opened with a gasp, and he found sweat dripping down his skin. It took him a second to realize that he was in his lodge room - one they had arrived to only a few hours earlier after a excruciatingly long flight filled with silence. Ricky couldn’t sleep on the flight - his mind constantly thinking about what he did… and every time he did sleep he just kept thinking about Annie which didn’t help when she was right next to him and he couldn’t do a damn thing about it.
So here he was, passing out in his room the instant he arrived. Now, getting up off of his bed, the man took a quick shower - washing off the memory of what occurred a few weeks ago when he disappeared.
Uncaring of his disheveled appearance, Ricky finally made his way towards the main lounge where it seemed everyone was playing a drinking game of some sort - which, honestly, he didn’t argue much with as he immediately took a long drink of vodka and sat down. He honestly wasn’t even expecting to participate in the fcking game - he truly didn’t care, until someone nudged him mumbling something along the lines of it being his turn. And that’s when he got a text on his phone telling him to dare Lenora. Thank you blue royalty, and fck off please.
With a sigh, he took another drink from the bottle before looking over at Lenora with an uncaring expression. What could he dare her? I mean, he could dare her to do something that would embarrass her to all the people around them. Hell, he even knew her (or at least used to know her) well enough that he could dare her something that would truly hurt her. But honestly, he didn’t care enough.
"“Read out the text messages that you sent Elio while you were cheating on me,”
Maybe curiosity killed the cat, and while he didn’t care about her, he was slightly interested in the bullsht she pulled. Maybe it would help fuel some mental anger… not on himself anymore. Hey, if he could hate her a little more (and Elio), he could momentarily suppress some of that intense self hate he felt.
Though, that possibility quickly disappeared with her response - resulting in an eye roll from him. Did they practice that or something? Had to be - because he knew she cheated on him, she had told him that much herself and if it hadn’t been through text, it was probably through DMs or, gasp, in person. Her saying those words meant absolutely nothing… and honestly did nothing to lower his self hatred but realistically that was never going away.
So, instead of responding, Ricky simply took another drink of his bottle - and thankfully, he was starting to feel the lovely effects of being tipsy… soon on route to being black out drunk by the end of the night. He was hoping he was done for the night - that people would just leave him alone, despite sitting with the group of people he truly didn’t care about. Though, what did catch his attention was when Annie’s dare begin. And… well… let’s just say that was a punch to the fcking gut.
He ignored it, instead of looking at her, he looked down - taking swings of his bottle frequently. He honestly hadn’t even noticed when she walked over to him, and without even a second thought, he found her lips on his. Though only for a mere second, he found his heart skipping a beat at the feeling he missed so fcking much. Though that high he was on quickly fell with her next sentiment.
Kiss everyone he’s slept with, besides her that is.
Was that what she really wanted? To know who he slept with? Fine.
Her words from the plane repeated in his mind as he stood up, putting the bottle down before going down the circle of people. The person closest to him was Paige Pierce, and after a second of debating if he should even take the dare or “drink” - which he had already been doing - he simply sighed and did it, quickly pecking her on the lips. Realistically, he was far to drunk to actually think of the potential consequences of his actions - but he knew nothing he could do would fix what he had with Annie, so he might as well just give her the answer of what she wanted to know.
From Paige, he moved to Lenora. There was a frown on his lips as he approached her - a girl who had hurt him much like he had hurt Annie. There was irony in that, was there not? Though, after bending down, he cupped her cheek and placed his lips on her - kissing Lenora with more than he had given Paige… but perhaps that was simply his drunken self wanting to say fck you to Elio. From Lenora, he walked over to Sienna, kissing Elio’s sister before muttering “Come on, we all know she’s not fcking Mason, so someone had to actually make her cum”
At this point, all the swings of liquor Ricky had taken before were finally settling in. The next few kisses were a blur; he found his lips on VC, then Amanda, then Laurel… sorry Ralph, then Logan, a handful of cheerleaders that he honestly couldn’t remember the names of in his drunken state, and finally he was in front of Annie. Taking a seat in front of her, Ricky looked at her - a sadness in his eyes that he couldn’t truly describe. “None of them were when I was with you… truly with you but if you want to know anything else, just ask me Annie.” And with those words, Ricky walked back to his place in the circle, letting the idiotic game go on as he fell into his numbness.
@novella - Probably a lot of mistakes forgive me I haven’t written in months
@Madilfill - sienna and elio mentioned technically
And ppl he kissed @Littlefeets 's characters, @CerealKiller 's characters