Eryx seemed to really want to know what had happened between Hera and Ari. Nosy much? They didn’t expect him to care, but then again he probably would have left already if the two had the choice. So would they, but they supposed they should probably make the best of the situation like he said. As much as they didn’t want to admit it, he was kind of right. “Well, let me just go through the whole thing for the sake of killing time.”
“When Ari and I met, my favorite thing about her was her whole vibe to be honest. She’s a huge bitch, but I always thought it was hot. To be honest, I still did even when we broke up. I started to find her demeanor immature only when she fought my sister. Because I don’t really care if you want to pick on freshmen or some shit, but if you try to do any of that with my family, that’s where I draw the line. Then I will genuinely dislike you. But after she pushed my sister who is also pregnant? I lost my respect for her.”
“Then there’s also the fact that I was still kind of talking to my ex. It feels so typical of me, but we were still a bit of a thing to be honest. You know Daiane Meyer? She was my first love, and I was honestly really attached to her because I had never had a good relationship before her. I mean, it was toxic at times, and I dated other people before her, but those were just middle school things, and then the lady who groomed me but that’s a whole seminar in itself. I was just a whole other person before her, you know? I was in foster care with no real close people in my circle, and then I got adopted and dated her for a year and suddenly everything felt fine.”
“When I lost her, I felt like I lost myself. Everything I had built for myself, she was a part of it. And then she was gone, and I felt like I had lost all of my success. I was just Hera again. I was alone, but this time without the ‘cool’ facade, which I had lost to docility and so called love. I mean I still look like this rugged person, but I’m not the same. I think I wanted her back yes because I cared about her, but I also wanted to mean something. I dated Ari to feel good about myself, and I cheated on her because that also felt good I guess, but it didn’t fix it like I thought it would. The truth is that as infuriating as she is, she was sweet. Maybe it would have worked out if things were different, but they weren’t. So what’s there to do now?” They asked rhetorically.
Hera also began to realize they hadn’t really admitted that to anyone. When you took a really good look at their actions, the person didn’t really embody that energy they projected anymore. I mean, look at them, they just let ERYX top them like bffr. It humbled them to think they weren’t who they thought they were. But I mean, they were already so immersed into their new identity, so who could they be now? Hopefully not this, it was embarrassing. Like an apple, peeled and chewed at until you can only see its rotten core. It was smooth, and fascinating to take a good look at, but it was weak. It needed its polish back, to shine enough to stand out in the market.
“Sorry about the rant.” Hera said, not used to talking so much in any setting that wasn’t therapy. He continued to brag about his slvttiness. It was kind of an ick in general, but Hera also found it pretty funny. It was totally something they would say. “Okay, I wouldn’t say all that.” They chuckled, “But you’re up there for sure.” Their sexuality was… a debatable subject. They mostly liked women, yes, but to say they didn’t also do things with men sometimes would be a lie. Shoutout AJ, shoutout Ricky, and the list is embarrassingly a little longer so it’s probably best to just stop there. It didn’t compare to their attraction to women at all, but it was still a mystery that they had to resolve.
“You were fun too. And if I’m ever in a drunk, pansexual state again, feel free to take advantage of that.” They smirked a little. Yes, they were still mostly gay, but honestly he was good enough to be an exception. “And when the scratches look decent enough, you’re a guy, so you can say they’re a part of your stretch marks. Try to keep your shirt on before that, though. If you need to cover up hickeys I can help you with my makeup.” They shrugged, assuming they would have to do that on themselves anyway.
The door clicked and swung open. If it wasn’t the devil herself. Ari F^cking Lee. That was great, huh. Hera looked to Eryx, waiting for him to speak so she wouldn’t have to but he didn’t say a word, seeming to collect his stuff to leave. Okay, whatever, they supposed they could be the first to speak. “Is this your room?” They asked casually, not really feeling guilt in case it was. They still didn’t like her for hurting their sister.
. “Is it really that bad?” They asked, slightly annoyed with themself.
