𝕁𝕠𝕣𝕕𝕒𝕟 𝕎𝕚𝕝𝕝𝕚𝕒𝕞𝕤:
There was always something about being in front of an audience that Jordan loved with all of his heart. While there were many people in the world… or even in this room that would state the exact opposite, Jordan actually found himself excited at the prospect of being in a room full of people and seeing the immediate excitement on their faces. In all honesty, Jordan never truly felt nervous when it came to being in front of a large crowd. No… his nerves always stemmed more from personal milestones. The time he ran away from home when he was 6 and then again when he was 15. The first time he told Jezebel Sloane that he loved her. Maybe… maybe even the day he had to tell all of his friends he was leaving. These were the moments of his life riddled with nervous outbreaks.
But right now… Jordan wasn’t sure. The moment he found Jezebel Sloane smiling back at him from the audience - butterflies filled his stomach and he almost lost himself in her eyes. He did feel nervous… for the first time in a long time. So as he sang his music, he did so with her in mind - which wasn’t necessarily difficult as many of his songs were stemmed in one way or another because of her.
Though, as Jordan moved to his third song - he couldn’t help but notice Jezebel leaving the audience… and the nerves only grew. Was it him? Maybe… he just… needed to talk to her. Though… at the moment, he couldn’t.
And then… the moment he felt his world falling apart was likely at the end of the fourth song. As the song came to an end, Jordan was about to say something to transition onto the next one when he felt someone tap on his shoulder. No…not someone. Rather, a man that Jordan held bad relations with since before he had left. Mikel Lucas. Jordan nodded in confusion as the man asked for the mic and stood to the side - though it was really the words that he had said leading to his smile faltering.
“… I just thought I would publicly let everyone know that the beautiful Jezebel Sloane is my girlfriend and I couldn’t be happier in my life,”
Yes… falling apart would be the right words. Though, this wasn’t the first time Jordan felt his world falling apart inside though clearly hid it on the outside. So despite the momentary falter - a smile met his lips once again… though ever so slightly forced. Grabbing the mic as the man quite literally thrusted it back on him, Jordan took a deep breath before smiling to the audience.
“Aww, don’t we all love young love… I know I do.” Jordan laughed - though those closest to him probably knew he was hurting inside, Jordan still knew how to play to a crowd. “You all have been an amazing crowd. I have a few more songs coming up in a bit but my band and I are going to take a littleeee break. I hope you all forgive me but I promise I’ll be back for more.” Jordan smiled, turning towards the DJ. “Hit us up with something good?” Jordan asked the man who nodded playing the next song.
With that, Jordan walked towards the back followed by a confused band as they were supposed to be playing a full set without breaks. “I’m sorry everyone… I just… I need a breather,” Jordan stated with a sad smile as he walked out the back exit of the venue, leaning against the wall with his eyes closed. His mind racing with thoughts he couldn’t control. Of course she was taken… how could he expect any different…
Mentioned:
@Littlefeets - Jezebel
@Madilfill - Mikel
@novella - The song was for you