take your time hun, I made you wait for a long time xd
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I know but i want to just forgot it was my reply
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haha I know that feeling very well xd
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Archer
I take another deep breath as I pull my knees to my chest. The whole story was a lot but I knew he deserved to know and I wanted to tell him. I watched him flip through the photos and wiped my eyes. “Her name was Elizabeth, Eli is what I called her though. Honestly best sister I ever could have asked for. She was always there for me, honestly cant remember a time when she wasn’t. Especially because she didn’t have to be since she is…was five years older than me.” I say as I hold my cup tight trying to ground myself. “It was a long time ago but she was all I had and it is all my fault I lost her.” I mumble into my cup as I try to hold back tears so I could get though this without being absolutely hysteric. “You know how I told you she taught me to skate? Well It was this lake at our foster house where she taught me.” I say as I flip through a few pages to a picture of both of us on the ice but her holding my arms as I tried to keep my feet under me. “Thats where she died too.” I mumble. “I killed her. It was cold but apparently not cold enough for the ice to be solid…” I say as I take another deep breath as I feel the stream of tears rolling down my face now. “I wanted her to go skating with me and she said she would. I got on the ice before her but it started to crack and break. I was so scared and tried telling her not to come get me but she didn’t stop she came running to get me. The ice couldn’t hold us both though and she fell through. I couldn’t get her and I tried to help but I didn’t know how. I got our foster parents but by the time they got there it was too late.” I say as I try to wipe my eyes but I was nearly sobbing now. “It was my fault and they made sure I knew that. Made it clear that they wanted nothing to do with me because her blood was on my hands.” I say as I feel ragged breaths rip through me. I melt into Gen as I let myself cry. “They brought me back because they told me they couldn’t keep a killer around. That was the closest I ever came to having a family and it’s my fault I lost everything.”
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I listen carefully to Archer’s story. From the moment he got tears in his eyes, I took his hand in mine and started caressing it as a sign that I was there for him. It was nice to see his young side, a glimpse into his youth…but the story that came with it was anything but nice.
The moment he’s done I pull him into a deep hug. The most painful part of the story for me was the fact that the blame was placed on him to the point that he believed it himself. “None of this is your fault, you didn’t know” I call softly to him as I hold him close to me. “You were a child, you didn’t know any better and you tried to save her” I add desperately, hoping my words reach him. “As a child you can’t know what to do, you tried everything that came to your mind at the time. It’s wrong that they blame you and that’s why they sent you back. A good parent had you helped with processing a trauma don’t contribute to more” I explain.
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I cuddled into Gen as he held my hand as soon as I started to cry he knew exactly what I needed and I appreciated it so much. It was hard to talk about all of this I hadn’t really talked about it since it had happened and especially had tried not to even think about it since I left the Orphanage.
I was glad Gen wrapped his arms around me as soon as I was done because I needed every ounce of comfort that he gave me and I wanted to be able to give it all right back if the roles were reversed. I Let myself cry and sniffle as I tried to melt into him. His words surprise me a little though. “She wouldnt have even been there if I wouldn’t have begged her to go with me and if we wouldn’t have been there she wouldn’t have had to save me and I would still have here with me.” I say as I try to wipe my eye. “How is that not my fault. Especially because I didn’t know what I was suppose to do to help her.” I lay my head on his chest. “I was a child but so was she and I just feel like I could have and should have done more.” I say as I cry and try to calm myself down. “Why is it wrong if I was the one who caused the accident it means it is my fault and they couldn’t even stand to look at me after how were the expected to keep me?” I ask as I look up at him. “Process the trauma?” I ask as I try to figure out what he meant by that.
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subconsciously a frustrated sigh escaped before I grab his shoulders and make him look at me. “It’s not that you pressed her with the idea that the ice is too thin. It’s not that you stood there doing nothing when you had the knowledge to help her. You were a child Arch, you can’t expect a child to know how to do things!” I explain in a sharp tone before holding him against me again. I slowly try to calm down while stroking his hair. “Listen, life is… messy… It’s unfair in ways that are sometimes unheard of. It takes loved ones for no reason and there’s nothing we can do about it no matter how much we want to. It’s easier to to blame someone than a formless force. We can find countless reasons how we could have prevented the situation…but in the end we can’t go back and put it right. But as a child you are unable to recognize dangers and you react very differently during a crisis situation. It is the parent’s job to prepare children for this. They teach you when you can stand on the ice, what to do if something happens and are nearby to intervene. And if something does happen, a parent should teach you how to deal with these emotions. They blamed you, but as parents they were responsible for your safety and the moment they failed, they give up instead of doing everything they can to make it right” I explain as I bit my lip to not get angry again and keep my voice calm. “You’re not to blame, you’re a victim” I reassure him. “I’m sure your sister knows you never wanted this to happen, and she was just glad you didn’t fall in the water with her,” I add.
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I took a deep breath as Gen held my shoulders so I would look at him. I tried to take in what he was telling me. It wasn’t like anything else that had been told to me by anyone other than him that knew about what happened to my sister. “You are right, I was a child and I tried. I really did but I didn’t know.” I say as I take deep breaths but cuddle back into his tight hold again. His fingers in my hair were helping ground me and calm me down as I just let him hold me and I tried to take in anything he had to say. I nod as I listen to him. He was right. I felt like a weight had been taken off my shoulders as I listened to him. Everything he said wasn’t wrong but it was so different from everything I had heard from everyone else in regards to this situation. It felt relieving to finally have someone not tell me her bold was on my hands and say something to help me at all. This guilt had been eating me alive for so long. I lace my fingers with his and give his hand a squeeze. “Everyone eventually gives up on me so it’s not surprising to hear you say they did too.” I mumble as I wipe my eyes with the back of my hand. I could tell he was upset that I thought I was to blame at all and honestly I had never had someone even frame the whole thing the way he just had for me. It really changed my view. He was right. I wasn’t responsible they were. it was on them and they should have helped me but instead they just blamed me and threw me out. “I hope she does know that I never wanted that and would have done anything to stop it.” I say as I sit in his lap cuddled in tight. “Thanks. I’ve never had someone tell me it wasn’t my fault or even try and talk me out of believing that it was even just a little bit. You aren’t wrong it wasn’t my fault I see that because what you said is true but it’s going to take me a while to actually believe it.” I say as I kiss his cheek. “I love you.” I say as I finally gain most of my composure back. “Now that I’ve told you that, you should tell me what you need to.” I say as I rub the back of his hand still taking deep breaths.
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I smiled at the fact that I could offer him a new perspective, but it also annoyed me that I’m the first to think that way. “take all the time you need because I will tell you as often as you need it” I say while continuing to caress and give a soft kiss on his hair.
I appreciated the offer Arch gave, and I knew I had to tell him someday… But I wasn’t sure if I was ready. I took a deep sigh and looked at the ceiling as I held it. At least I didn’t have to tell him anything while he looked at me… One day she got sick and… Passed soon after…“, I started and for a second I had to stop to collect my thoughts. “For a few years my dad and I lived together, but dad was so consumed with the grief of my mother that I barely saw him in those years…then one day dad met another woman and a few months later, she became my stepmom and I gained a stepsister” I continued and had to keep myself from grinding my teeth as I spoke about that woman. “When my father was there, she was as kind as my real mother, but when he was away on a business trip, I was her personal butler and punching bag” I explained and then bit my lip and squeezed Arch tigher as it became more difficult to talk the further I came. “one day my stepmom found out that if my dad came to pass, I would inharit almost everything and she wouldn’t. She knew I would be next in line and her daughter would not get anything… And… So… She got rid of me…” I said and started to choke on my words.” it’s how I got my ability to change into a crow and I left soon after…I haven’t seen them since" I explained but left out the most horrid and gruesome part of it… Knowing right now, Arch shouldn’t be hearing it. “I skipped some details but when I talk about ‘get rid of me’ I mean it in it most horrifying way” I whispered.
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Archer
I sit beside him and pull him into my lap as I smile at him and nod. "Thank you for being here and for telling me as often as I need. I say as I pepper him with kisses and hold him. “I love you Genosta.” I say softly as I ket him settle in to tell me what he needed.
“If you aren’t ready it’s ok.” I say as I rub his back. I could tell this was hard. I saw him look up at the ceiling and just kept him close so that he knew he was safe and I was here for him even if he had to look away from me. I nodded as I listened to him and rubbed his back it was easy to see just how hard this was for him. The she he talked about must have been his mom he had Sid before that she had died. I rubbed my thumb over the back of his hand while he collected his thoughts. “If it’s too hard you don’t have to continue.” I say softly. I nodded listening as he continued. I knew what it was like to be alone so I could easily sympathize with how Gen felt when his father was so lost in grief. I just kept him close as he continued I could see how hard this was for him and I wanted him to know he was safe but didn’t owe me anything and could stop whenever he needed to. I listened to him as what seemed to have been an ok story with his stepmother took a turn that I would never wish on even my worst enemy. As he squeezed me tighter I held him and rubbed his back. “Hey it’s ok Im here you are safe.” I reassure him. “You dont have to say anything else if it’s too hard.” I say as I kiss his head and keep him close to my chest. I heard him choke on his words and instinctively pulled him even closer as I rubbed his back and ran my fingers through his hair hoping I could sooth him some. I wanted to yell at his stepmother for ever hurting him, even so much as touching him. I wanted him to feel safe now though. “She killed you?” I ask softly hoping I was misunderstanding Gen. I mean if that was the situation and whatever kind of magic brought him back I didn’t care but thinking that she would do that to him just for monetary gain made my blood boil. “Hey you are safe here I love you.” I whisper as I hold him. I knew it seemed there was more but I wasn’t going to push it he would tell me in time and even if he never did that was ok too.
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I shut my head every time Arch suggests I don’t have to say it if it’s too heavy. “I’ve been hiding it for so long, it’s not good if I never talk about it…even though it’s hard” the sentence starts hard but the last one is almost a mumble.
It was the sentence Arch asked next that was hard to answer, but he finally nods in the affirmative when asked if his stepmother killed him. “And it wasn’t an attempt…she finished it” he whispers in horror. “The worst part isn’t even that, it’s that I remember the whole moment in deep detail, from the pain to being able to feel…” I swallow down a sick feeling and take a deep breath. “the feeling of my head detaching from my body…” the words were barely out of my mouth when I hastily but quickly push Arch away and run to the bathroom where I can no longer contain it.
When I come back I sit back next to him but my body is shivering uncontrollably and I feel cold. “Over the years I’ve managed to close the images and memories away…but it’s something I’ve never been able to handle well” I explain and snuggle close to him. in most cases I always manage to be strong and brave, but I knew that right now I was nothing but a fragile heap made of trauma and pain.
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Archer
I hold him and try my best to reassure him I am here and he is safe as the words get harder and harder for him to share. “Hey it’s ok take it slow Gen its ok baby.” I say as I hold him tighter he was shaking.
I see him nod and my heart breaks for him. I hold him tighter if that is even possible. Every word he says makes my breath catch in my chest. How someone could ever do that to him I would never be able to understand. He didnt deserve that kind of pain especially the pain of remembering it all in such vivid details. I could tell he was going to be sick before I even felt him get up let alone rush to the bathroom. I wanted to make sure he was ok so I followed him and sat in the doorway keeping a watchful eye on him until he got up. “What can I do to help?” I ask as I take a deep breath and try to figure out what he needed from me. This didn’t change how I felt about him but it did make me worry about him more.
I headed back to the couch and hold his hand as we walk there. I grab the soft blanket and wrap it around him as I hold him tight. His whole body was shaking and I could only imagine how hard this all was on him. “This doesn’t change anything between you and me. Im glad you told me and I won’t ever let anyone hurt you again. I am your safety.” I say as I kiss his he’d and gently rock him as I try and help calm him down. “Im glad you felt safe enough to tell me this love.”
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Words couldn’t describe how nice it was that Arch was there for me now. It took a while but slowly the nausea subsided and all that was left was an exhausted emptiness and fatigue. "Thank you Arch, you have no idea how good I am to have you here, even though it may not look like it.
i knew i couldn’t kiss him as my mouth was very unhygienic at the moment. so instead I kept him with me and put my head in the hollow of his neck.
yet I thought it was important to tell him how I was alive again, even though I wasn’t completely sure myself how it worked and happened.
“I don’t know how long after I died I was reincarnated but I knew I was no longer in my own body. I flew to my parents house and that was a big mistake…they did something to my body that I…I…don’t want to go into too much detail but it was inhumane. I managed to give my dad a warning as a bird and then I got out of there. I know my dad soon after my warning has committed suicide and that my stepmother has been arrested. My inheritance is for me to claim when I want…but how do you prove that you are dead but not dead” I explain and sigh. “but if needed, I will find a way to claim it and get us a better house” I added determant.
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Archer
I hold him and rock him. I could tell just telling me this had worn him out and I just want him to know I had him. “I will always be here for you and I just want you to know that.” I say as I kiss his head and keep him close as we sit and I let him regain himself a little. I played with his hair gently as he kept his head tucked in the hollow of my neck. I rubbed his back and made sure that he knew that I was 100% there for him and would do anything he needed me to.
“Im glad you are here baby and Im glad I got to meet you and have you in my life.” I tell him as he seemed stressed and like he had more he wanted to say.
“Hey hey it’s ok you do not have to talk about it at all Gen.” I tell him as I see how worked up he got thinking about whatever horrible thing they had done to his body. I didn’t even want to think about what they had done it made me sick to think that anyone would be able to hurt this sweet man that was trembling in my lap. “We dont need it. All I need is you beyond that noting matters to me. I wont make you go through what you would have to in order to get your inheritance.” I say as I kiss his cheek. “I love you and honestly you are all I need. We can leave this place and go somewhere better if you want as long as I am with you I will be happy.”
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As he holds me I slowly start to calm down. without realizing it, I’ve come to feel very familiar with Arch. it felt safe and comfortable. I trusted him and I wasn’t afraid to tell him about my past as far as I was able to say it out loud.
“Arch…thank you” I said genuinely and hugged him before pressing my lips in his neck. When did he become so dear to me? I wondered as I had shut off al hopes in ever trusting people again.
“I love you too, which is why I am willing to do what I never felt the need to do, if it means I can give you a comfortable life” I explained and started to stroke his chin and neck in a nonchalant matter. “How about this,if we ever end up in trouble again like yesterday, we move away, away from this toxic city and away from all the toxic people. We find a place where it’s just going to be us and no one can harm us” I suggested.
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Archer
I hold him and rub his back as I let him calm down and just stay cuddled up in my lap. “I love you and it’s ok.” I whisper softly to him as I continue to hold him and just let his emotions happen. I was glad he felt comfortable enough with me to tell me everything he could and let me comfort him afterwords.
I smile when I hear him. “Im always here its no problem Gen.” I say as I run my hingers gently through his hair and kiss his knuckles. I was glad he let me into his life. When I first met him he tried to keep me at as distance but with every passing second his walls crumbled and he let me in just a little bit more.
“Hey hey baby look at me.” I say as I gently nudge his chin with my fingers so he would look up. “You never have to do anything like that for me we can make things work without it.” I say as I kiss his head. “Im sold. You and me we just pack up what little is here and go.” I say as I lean into his touch. “Anywhere with you will be perfect because you are my world Gen.” I say as I smile at him. “But yes if anything happens I’ll leave this place with you in a heart beat.”
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excuse me, please don’t sell my unstable boy
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not what I meant sorry its late let me go fix that. All fixed punctuation is key.
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