I’m in a reflective mood today and I wanted to share this.
All my life, I wanted to see my stories portrayed visually. I’ve always loved TV shows and the way they developed their characters. When I found Episode and found that I could visually see what was happening in my stories (potentially) I got extremely excited. I’ve been on there for years and read a lot of stories, and gotten pretty decent at directing. I only published two stories and they were both terrible so I hid them. I wrote them when I had more naive confidence… but it was the writing of a thirteen-year-old and eventually, I realized that and got tired of those stories myself.
Episode as a platform has its own flaws. But I think I’m sh!t at writing in this format. I’ve tried for years and had a lot of ideas, yet never got close to publishing or even close to having more than one episode. I’m good at writing, but I don’t think my writing will progress if I keep trying this medium.
In general I’ve been having a lot of writers block and uncertainty, but I think that if I continue with trying to write a novel or even finish another short story, I can get better in that area. Even though I won’t be able to see my ideas visually, they will take form when I write them instead of my saving them for an Episode story that will never be released.
Perhaps I could get better, but I think with just writing stuff out traditionally there is a lot more potential for me in terms of growth and success.
I was wondering if anyone else ever felt like this, even with another part of their lives. Like, as realizing you need to stop trying to do something a certain way and need to dedicate your time and powers to something else.
