Summary
I’ve been looking at these aesthetics that seem to fit me. So I will be focusing my polls on it.
The ones I will be on.
retro futurism
Dream core
Darkroyals
&
strangley familiar places
“I think you are being to dramatic” Your friend pats your back trying to reassure you.
That wasn’t your friend anymore you thought.
His eyes were lifeless and his smile was fake. ever since those doctors injected that ‘medication’ into him he was never the same.
“You will be ok” He says, his grin growing disturbingly longer.
“Dreams can become reality, a positive mind-”
Just as he was talking, the doctor walked in.
“Good young man, I see you know our moto”
“Dreams are reality, a positive mind equal a positive life”
I felt very…
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Scared
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Happy to see the do
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Normal
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Sad, for my friend.
“Hello you must be ____ it’s so nice to meet you I’m Dr. Madison”
You shook his hand as your friend smiles blankly behind you.
“I should be going, it was nice to meet you doctor”
You wanted to reach out for his hand, ask him to stay. But you knew it was to late for him.
“Nice seeing you young man, the exit is near the next 4 doors down”
Your friend nods, he walks to the door. You sigh but realize he was still standing there.
He looks back at you, sighs and leaves.
That was strange, but there was nothing you could do about it. He left you, alone.
With this creepy doctor…
I…
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I miss my friend.
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I’m scared of both
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I’m ok with the doctor. I’m strong
“So, ___ we will be injecting some Propofol”
I nod.
“This will make you fall asleep, you will then enter your dreams peacefully understood?”
I nod again, but my hands were shaking.
This treatment was so dangerous.
They put you asleep and inject your body with more medication… it’s suppose to make you “forever happy”
A positive mind is a positive life…
That’s why they place you in your mind, it’s to distract you as they inject you.
They want you to be a mindless stock photo image.
Always smiling, always happy always positive
I wait as I feel my eyes start to drop.
“N-not ready”
I say, the doctors smile frying in my head, my eyes shut completely as I see total darkness.
I then wake up to a buzzing noise, my body feels so light and free.
I open my eyes to see a familiar room.
It was…
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Cute, it reminds me of my childhood.
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Scared, I am lost for crying out loud.
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I don’t care tbh
“W-what?”
I stood up and walk around the room, it was a loop at first, same playful hallways each turn.
Every corner was the same.
It was almost as if I were in a loop.
“f#ck this” I say, I open the door in the hallway to the left and see a different room.
It was different from the atmosphere.
“N-no not again, please not again”
I walk to the ends of the hall, only to see the same pattern again.
I was…
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Tired
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Sad
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Angry
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playful
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Scared
I was starting to loose hope. Until I lifted my head from panting from running the halls.
A figure lurked in the shadows. As soon as it saw I noticed it, it disappered.
As much as I didn’t want to I shouted out for it.
If they didn’t hurt me before they must be good right…?
My mind was saying…
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NO RUN AWAY
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I’m curious
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I am growing more annoyed
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I’m getting lonely.
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Whatever
I follow the figure, it gets littler and littler.
I hear a slam and their footsteps stop.
I run in the hallway they were in to see a door. “Strange”
I look behind me to see another figure. It spoke in broken english.
I̴̧̳̖̭̜̹͉͈͌͌̀̈́̒̕͠ ̷̲͉̓̓̅͗͠a̵̬͈̟̘̅̄̅̒̇͂̒̅̀́m̴̛̺̹̿̃ ̶̢̛̟̳́̔́̀̈́͂̈́͛̔ẃ̸̛͍̬̝͖̩͈̯̜̏̄̊͐̽͘̕͘h̶̬̤͎̰̩̱̳̟͐̓͝å̶̦͖͙̲̃ͅt̶̺͕̦͎̣͙̂ ̴̯̈̔͒y̸͙͙͊͑͑͘̚ò̵͖̫̥̦̳̭͍͂́̃̓͊̚ư̶̢̡̤̪̲̓̾̇́̇̔̕͜͝ ̸̛̳̞̜͖̉͌͑́̿̔̆̏f̴̯̳̎͜e̵̢̡̨͖͖̗͚̙͑̌̇ͅa̸̦̺̖̦̝̓͑͒̈́̐̏͝͠r̸̝͒,̸͓̘̰̹̒̈͆̃͋̉͑͗͒͠ ̸̥͍̦̠̫͔̞͗̌̌̓̿̆͗̕Ỉ̴͙̯͖͋̂̋͑ ̷̧̳̣͈͕̙͇̾̈́͋͑͑̇a̶̡̩͖̖̫̦̞̹͓̟̍m̸̟͆̇ ̴͈̼̟̭̫̬̎̒̓̿ͅͅẃ̶͕̓̀͗̐̚h̶̲̺͍̐͊̃͊̇̚a̵̻̮̖͍̜̘̘̞̙̅̍t̴̥̯͖̪̜̹̑̍̄ ̵̜̻̥͆́͋̈̀̅͒͠͝s̵̡͖̱̗̖̣̟̱͛̂̅͂̌̾̿̍͘͝c̸̺͐̏̿͒͋̒̿ͅà̷̯̳̦̫͕̭̜͕̪̀̃̈̓r̸̝̠͆ȩ̴̫̫̦̝͖̣͆̇̍š̷͔̠͔̞̹̅̓̒̏̂͗̚ ̵͖̖̃̓͒͛̑̋̉͗̋͆͜ỵ̴͔̮̠͎̑̈́̀̇̈̿̿͘ͅo̶͇̤̙͈̫̲̪̲͔͗͌̋̽̑͝ù̸̞̮͕̺̞͙̓͋̄,̴̤̦̩̤͈̓ ̸̙̼͚̺̳͙͓̯̠͆͊̂͐͒̾̈̆̇Ï̶̢̢̲̪̳͉͉̬̳ͅ ̷̛͈̲̖͍͈̽͜͝ͅá̷̡͇̺̰̼̱̣͖̠̗̇̈́͝m̷̗̣̖̗͈͊͐ ̴̫̭̟̗̻̻͙̗̀͊̒͊w̸̧̤̝̮͍͛̓͊̉͝ͅḧ̴̺̦́̆̃́̓́͂͠ą̶̧̗̫̎̀̌͒͌̂̑͌̚̚t̶̛͔̦͖͎͍̜̦̫͉͈̀̈́́̏̀͆̍̒ ̴̖͇̦̪̳͕̕y̴͈̘̋͛͛͑̀̓̒͋͌͌ǫ̴̡̮̲͎̲̽̏̀̆̔͗̑ͅu̶̢̗̼͓̯̎̄̀͑́̈́͘͘͠ ̶͚̤̝̹͎̄̇͆͂s̵̢͕̈́̅̃͆̍̉̒̀̿͠ȩ̵̞̖̭̍̆̑̈́̌̈́̉̚ę̸̱̤̻͈̝̮̯͚̠͐͂̉̕͝ ̷̨̬̤̦͉͓̘̀̿͒̇̈́͛ͅi̸̘̣̺̞̼̥̒͒̉̑̿̅̾̅̕̕ṋ̵̠̅̊͛̈́ ̸̧̜̽͆y̸̨̜̘̣͎͍͙͐͑͜ỏ̷͔̲̲͗̾̋͒̈̿̀u̴͙͕͙̭̤̝̳͉̤̩͑̉͑̋͐͐̄͘͘͠r̷̜̱̭̺̻̯̟̥͙̾̿͋̏͗̅̇ ̶̛̣̝̜̠͍́̽͋͂̔͗͗̕n̴̡̢̦̱̭̰͕̰̦̜͐̏͝į̶̧̛̦̰̠̩̳͎̗͓̈́̅̄̍̽͛͂̅g̸̡̦̪̲̰̗̬̅̈͠͝͠h̸͍̳̞̦͕͘t̶͉̞̬͉͘m̷̨͙͖̉͛̾͝à̶̦̺̺̜͔͈̀̍͑͋͋͂͊ṛ̸̩̩̞̆̓͋͋͑͋̑̚̚e̵͍̜̒́͐͐͑̄s̶̢͈̆̒̍̃̃͛̚͠͝.̶̛̜͈͍̖̱̩̽͂͠
I run, opening the door shutting it.
I hear scratching on the other side I shed a tear as I felt the door becoming looser and looser as it tried to bust it open.
To calm myself down I…
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CALM??? THERE’S NO TIME TO BE CALM!!!!!!!!!!
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I burst out crying.
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I think of something that makes me happy.
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I’m ok.
I close my eyes and take a breath, the banging stops as I reopen my eyes.
“Wh-what”
It was the place me and my friend would go after school.
I felt…
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So what?
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I cry at the memories we use to share
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I’m scared, how am I here? Where is everyone.
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This is fun! I use to love this place.
I stand still, taking in the atmosphere, it was quiet.
To quiet.
I turn around and almost all to my knees from the fright.
It was a woman washing the dishes in the back.
She noticed me and started to walk over to the counter separating us.
I was terrified, the atmosphere has been lonely this whole time…
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maybe she’s nice.
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she looks basic, i can take her if she tried something.
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This is getting annoying.
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Finally someone I can talk to.
“May I take your order?”
she said, she looked very happy to see me. I squint my eyes and realize her face.
She was the worker who took me and my friends order as kids.
I remember being devastated when I heard she was thrown in jail, not wanting to take the medication I was on. She passed away only a few days later.
I felt…
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happy to see her.
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are they done injecting me yet?
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Sad, all these memories are coming back.
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Scared.
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I felt nothing, this is a dream
“U-uh”
The lady smiled, she took out her notepad and pen but I raise my hand to stop her.
“Nothing please”
She tilted her head but then smiled again.
“Oh, you’re here for the party right?”
I tilted my head in confusion, “party? what party”
“The party back there”
She pointed behind me, now there’s a door that wasn’t there.
“uhhhh” She waits for my awnser.
“Uhhhh, yes I should be going now thank you for the hospotaliy”
I walk to the door and look back and smile. I open the door and the girl speaks in that broken english that monster did…
“Oh, and ____”
I freeze.
Dₒₙ’ₜ fₒᵣgₑₜ wₕₒ yₒᵤ ₐᵣₑ, dₒₙ’ₜ ₗₑₜ ₜₕₑ ₘₑdᵢcₐₜᵢₒₙ gₑₜ ₜₒ yₒᵤ"
I was about to answer but I felt a hand grab me from behind, dragging me through the door.
I now see myself in a ball room. But it wasn’t light and vivid as the ones you see in movies.
I look down to see myself in…
“What kind of ball is attached to a diner-”
I feel someone grab me, their arms sneaking around my arm.
I was about to scream but I see it’s my friend from childhood.
They smile at me, I smile back as they twirl me around.
Then dip!
They lift me back up as we both smile and giggle at our attempt of dancing.
“It’s nice to see you again ___ I was worried you let yourself go.”
“What do you mean I let myself go?”
They frown. “You can’t let yourself go”
“What can’t I let go-”
They look away from me, sadden at first then with fear. A figure walks tward us as they push my friend out the way.“HEY WATCH WHERE YOU ARE GOING WHO DO YOU THINK YOU AR-”
My face is now shocked as I feel my cheeks heat up.
It was my crush ( I’m sorry if you don’t have a crush if not think of it as someone you lookup to 
)
“___ it’s nice to see you” they say, they wore all back and had a cane near their side.
The ballroom went silent as people stared back at you to gossip.
You heard faint gossip as you grew nervous and fiddled with your thumbs.
“They saw each other…”
“I heard their families have been enemies for decades!”
“I can’t believe they are forced to marry”
“Shh- don’t let them hear you gossip”
They reached out their hand, and gave you a firm hand shake as they looked into your eyes.
I felt very…
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Calm
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Uncomfortable
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When will this be over?
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I feel scared and confused.
I laugh as they grab my hands, they snap their fingers and look at the orchestra with daggers in their eyes.
The music begins to play and everyone slowly starts to join dancing after a couple of mumbles.
“I see you haven’t let yourself go ____”
I look at them confused, they smile. But it feels fake, I gulp as I chuckle nervously.
“Uh, everyone keeps saying that, what do you mean?”
They roll their eyes. “The medication, they’re having trouble regaining happy thoughts from your dreams”
I tilt my head “How do you know this?”
"A positive mind, your mind has been the least from positive " They laugh as I shift uncomtorably.
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My mind has been an adventure...
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My mind has been scary....
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My mind has been pretty annoying
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My mind has been normal.
“My mind has been _________”
I say, They laugh.
“Well, you seem pretty positive now” they say.
“Yeah” I say smiling as we dance.
Their gaze goes from a friendly smile to a evil grin.
“You’re letting yourself go” They say.
“What?” I say smiling.
"It’s almost complete.
“What is?” I say as I tilt my head in confusion.
Realization soons fills my mind.
“No…no please no I won’t end up like my friend NO”
I back away as they reach out for me I run away as a vase is knocked down, they scream.
“AFTER THEM”
The whole ballroom faces my direction, there was about 100 people their. They face me and charge in mydirection.
“NO” I shout running the halls.
I run out of the ballroom into the hall, seeing a door “PLEASE BE GOOD PLEASE”
I run out, feeling a hand justt miss my waist as it flopped to my sides and to the floor.
I open the door and black out.
I awake the next few seconds.
It felt like I was in a car…
Feeling comfortable I open my eyes.
I look at the sight in front of me, I sigh in relif.
Until I realize someone was driving this car… and it’s NOT ME-
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I don’t care.
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I’m scared..who is it.
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If they didn’t hurt me before I’m safe right?
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Not again...
I hesitate, but turn my head…
I freeze as I see my friend (the one who visited us at the doctors lol)
He turns to me.
“So I guess you didn’t let yourself go huh?”
I sigh holding the sides of the car seat.
"I-i guess not.
“You know they throw people in jail because it didn’t work right?”
I nod.
“I know the consequence’s”
“I just don’t want to let myself go, be someone I don’t want to be”
He laughs “A stock image right?”
“Yeah” I laugh but then my face saddens.
“Hey” I say, he looks back at me “Back their in the doctors, why did you look back at me, I thought you were on medication”
He hesitates.
“I guess I just didn’t let myself go all the way…”
I was about to say something until I felt my body jerk, my eyes suddenly open as I see I’m in the doctors.
“Welcome back ____, how do you feel?”
(Ok I was going to write multiple endings but I got sleepy, so write your own ending, did you let yourself go? did you give in and become a mindless walking zombie or are you still yourself? Either way what happens after Idk sorry for any mistakes btw I started writing in my pov or diffrent pov due to me being sleepy 
)
I’m just going to peace out.
