Shadow Creek: Before the Blacklist

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by @novella and @Kristi

The beginning of everything.

Fernwood Heights: an elite public school nestled in a quiet, historic town of Shadow Creek, whose picturesque streets hide dark secrets. Everything changed on September 22nd 2006, when Charlotte Blackwell was murdered in the middle of the school day. The town’s queen bee, social manipulator, that everyone loved. Or pretended to.

But before that came fourteen teenagers; wide-eyed about their future, and innocent from any crime. Though shifting loyalties, tension, rumours - that was something that always lingered and no one could escape from. Because at Fernwood Heights, no one stays innocent for long. Not really.

And long before a body was found, the foundations were already beginning to fracture.

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So this is the chance to work on your characters, and their storylines and relationships before the RP starts, which will be mid-August. Please this for past events, and make sure to put a date at the top of posts to keep track of everything!

@ShadowCreek

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⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊ 1st January, 2005 New Years Party ₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹

“3, 2, 1… Happy New Year!” Lizzy screamed with the rest of her sophomore class. She collided her soda into a sea of red cups in the air, laughter echoing over the music as it faded back in and the new feeling of 2005 settled over the room. Then she did the rounds of hugging, and wishing everyone well for the new year.

Elizabeth Albright was leaving the year on a high note. She had joined the cheerleading squad, something she thought would only remain in her distant fantasy in freshman year. But after months of watching from the bleachers, and practicing the routines she had observed in the comfort of her own bedroom, Lizzy was finally granted a space on the team and the notorious red vixen cheerleading uniform that she cherished as a token of her achievements. Suddenly, the girl who slipped under the cracks despite her best efforts had become someone noticed, her name even remembered on occasion.

Suddenly Lizzy felt a pair of arms swing over her shoulders from behind, “Time to take on 2005, Lizzy!!” Lottie’s voice exclaimed into her ear. Charlotte Blackwell. Now that was a girl who never had to work to acquire attention. Head cheerleader, queen of all social circles, and her best friend. They had grown closer during freshman year, and so by the time sophomore had came around, they were practically inseparable. She turned Lizzy around to face her, pulling her in for an embrace. “Happy New Year, Lottie,” Lizzy beamed, holding her close. Tonight, they had the whole year ahead of them, and she had the best person alongside her to face it with. “I can’t wait to spend this year together. And the next year. And every year after that.”

And her visions for the future did stretch that far. Lizzy was a meticulous planner when it came to what was coming ahead for her in life. She was determined to make each moment of high school count, expanding her social circle, joining more extracurriculars, and even the Fernwood events committee. Lizzy loved the idea of bringing people together, that feeling only strengthened by the buzz of the New Year’s party surrounding her.

“This is why I love you. For your unshakeable certainty of the perfect future,” Charlotte smiled, meeting Lizzy’s eyes as their drinks clinked. “To every year after this one.” Then she turned to the celebrating room, and raised her glass, stepping up and standing on the table. “To every year after this one!!” She repeated, but in a way that singled her out amongst the noise, and had the masses cheering and hollering after her. Lizzy included, happy to help place Charlotte on that shining pedestal.

Jumping off the table, Charlotte’s arm draped around Lizzy’s shoulder. “Lemme catch up with you later, Liz,” She told her, before drifting away in a direction that unmistakably aimed towards Jesse Vaughn. She smiled, though harboured a quiet ache, as she watched them fall into each other’s arms, sharing a New Year’s kiss. A view that would perfectly fit a scene in any of her favourite movies. The kind of moment that Lizzy could only dream about. Another thing she dared to vision for her future ahead.

But it wasn’t something Lizzy could dwell on for longer than a moment. She was not alone right now. Instead she faced the bustling crowd of her classmates head on, weaving her way through and exchanging smiles and words with as many people as possible. “I love your jacket, Beck!” She told a fellow cheerleader, “Happy New Year!” She repeatedly exclaimed to various faces. After a while of small talking, Lizzy noticed a girl backed into the corner by herself. “Hey, I- Are you okay?” She said as she faced the concerningly dazed expression from a girl she vaguely recognised, Katie Newman. Instinctively, Lizzy put a secure hand on her shoulder, at just the right time to prevent her falling forward in her drunken state. “It’s okay, I’ve got you,” She told her lightly.

“I’m gonna get you water,” Lizzy decided out loud, looking around the unfamiliar house with determination. But her hunt was interrupted, by Katie gripping her hand over her mouth, muttering something about how she was about to throw— “No, no, bathroom it is!” She declared, steering the girl in the direction of the hallway. She weaved them back the way she came, a walk significantly harder with Katie’s uncontrolled limbs and staggered footsteps. Lizzy couldn’t help the sigh of relief when she saw someone walking out of a room that resembled a bathroom.

At the perfect time too, the instant Katie had the toilet in sight, everything she’d drank that night escaped her. She was hunched forward, heaving into the bowl with urgency before Lizzy even had a chance to shut the door. Once she had, she knelt beside her without hesitation, pulling back the strands of Katie’s hair. “You know, I’m sure this will make a funny story for you,” Lizzy told her, trying to make light of the situation. “Maybe not tomorrow, this might not feel fun at all tomorrow, but definitely someday hopefully soon. It’s okay though because everyone has their moments. And there’s always something about New Years that seems to bring it out too.”

Though Lizzy’s words couldn’t seem to help, as Katie continued. Clearly she’d gone quite hard this night. The minutes, maybe even an hour, passed slowly, as Lizzy stayed beside her. Lizzy rubbed gentle circles on her back, her voice shifting to a softer tone as she told her - “You’re okay,” and “Just breathe,” continuously. Lizzy remained patient even when it seemed like Katie’s retching had come to an end, waiting for her to be ready to stand by herself. Eventually, she asked her, “Do you want to try and get up?” to which a weak nod came in response.

Thankfully, Katie was marginally more autonomous when they got up, her footsteps slightly more controlled. Though the opportunity for them both to rejoin the party had long passed, as when they left the bathroom, the crowd had practically disappeared, the music had dulled, and most lights had been switched back on. How long had they been in there? Now Lizzy’s next task was to find their way home, and her mind went straight to Charlotte, who she had arrived with. Lizzy found Katie a place on the sofa to sit before trying to get the attention of anyone left at the party.

“Has anyone seen Charlotte?” Lizzy asked, her head jolting around trying to catch anyone that might look in her direction. “Excuse me have you—” “She left with Jesse a while ago,” A murmured voice told her. Lizzy turned to who had responded, a guy she didn’t recognise - maybe junior or senior. “She did?” Lizzy raised her eyebrows slightly. “Yeah, I saw her take off,” He explained. Lizzy didn’t say anything, so he took his chances - “Do you know if things are serious with her and Jesse? Or, like, is she still available?” At this point Lizzy was distracted, her eyes on Katie in case of any sudden movements. “Um, I think that’s a question for Lottie to answer, not me,” She vaguely said, before smiling then making a beeline for the girl in her unofficial care.

Lizzy took Katie’s hand, pulling her onto her feet. “Come on, I can walk you home,” She told her, heading towards the door. “Do you remember where you live?” She asked hopefully as they made it to the front porch. Lizzy looked expectantly at the girl’s blank face. This wasn’t how she imagined the night going. But it was okay, if someone needed her, Lizzy would always show up.

⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊୨୧₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹

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Rudy

{ ny party / 1st January, 2005 / meeting Lizzy }
she’s a friday night


By the end of 2004 Rudy had stopped being “the boy who lost his mom” or “the one who walked away from the crash with nothing but a bruised collarbone and a week in the hospital.” Somewhere along the way people went back to calling him Rudy, the golden retriever in sneakers, the boy who could make a substitute teacher laugh and carry three trays at once in the cafeteria. So when New Year’s Eve rolled around no one questioned why he was still in town. His little sister Nala had gone to spend the weekend with relatives just a couple of towns over, with their aunt who made hot cocoa with mini marshmallows and didn’t talk about ghosts. She had offered to take Rudy too but he said no. He simply didn’t want to bring down the mood. Nala had been doing better lately and he didn’t want her to see how hard the holidays still hit him… So he stayed home.

Rudy hadn’t exactly planned on going to the party but that never really stopped him before.
He never really planned on any of them, honestly. They just kind of… happened to him. Someone mentioned something in the locker room, someone else offered him a ride, someone promised good pizza… and next thing he knew he was on his way. This day, however, his evening started in his garage, half sitting on the hood of his beat up truck, playing half a song on his electric guitar before giving up because two of the strings were out of tune and he was “too pretty to tune things manually.” His words, not anyone else’s… In all honesty he was still struggling with tuning it manually but he would never confess to that.

Thankfully, he was saved by a friend who had texted him “u coming?” and Rudy had replied “if ur buying me a slushie first”… which he did not do… But Rudy showed up anyway, because he was 85% extrovert and 15% nosy and parties were like mystery movie with a really bad lighting. Which… might be his top choice if you ask him “what do you want to watch tonight?”. The next thing he knew he was in the passenger seat of a friend’s car, hoodie sleeves pushed up to his elbows, staring out the window like the suburbs might suddenly offer something more even tho they never do anymore. By the time they rolled up to the house with paint peeling on the porch, music already shaking the walls, Rudy had already convinced himself he’d leave in twenty minutes. Tops. Twenty-five maybe, but that’s pushing it. He always leaves early and ever since the accident he started leaving even earlier. He wouldn’t even wait for midnight.
On the way to the door he already noticed someone throwing beer cans into the bushes, someone crying to their friend on the curb. It was cold, chaotic and very much a small town New Year’s party. The kind where everyone’s trying to forget something and pretend next year will be better. Rudy Maddox smiled anyway because that’s what Rudy Maddox does.

Inside it was the usual: too many bodies, too much heat and waaaay too many people yelling over songs no one could actually hear. He moved like he always did, with a kind of chaotic friendliness, bumping fists with people he only kind of knew and dramatically asking “Who let me in?? Who approved this??” Someone handed him a warm soda and he made a dramatic face and declared it “illegal.” Someone else asked him to play pong and he said, ”Only if I get the blue cup. That one’s lucky, now don’t ask why.“ He lost the game immediately… Same old same old. Same old Rudy fashion. “Yo, Rudy! Heard you skipped football practice to go hang out with the choir kids,” someone called across the room, causing Rudy to grin. ”They had better snacks.“ The laughter that followed was familiar. He knew how to make himself liked, how to float. He belonged everywhere and nowhere all at once. Somewhere around 11:50, Rudy realized he was still there. He was standing in a kitchen that smelled like pizza rolls and spilled root beer, using a plastic fork to fish an ice cube out of his drink while someone next to him was complaining about their parents. There were streamers tangled in the ceiling fan and someone yelling about New Year’s resolutions…. And yet, Rudy hadn’t left. Not even once. Not even for a “real quick walk around the block.” It surprised even him, how fast the hours had slipped. How, despite the noise and the mess and someone stepping on his foot twice, he’d stayed. He wasn’t even looking at the time anymore. He was laughing. He was making awful puns and cheering people on during kitchen dance offs and claiming the title of Uno King even though he cheated once or twice (yes, there was a group of shy kids he wanted to join and help relax a little bit so he dug out those cards somewhere).

And when the countdown started, Rudy was there, shoulder to shoulder with a bunch of people he liked just enough and knew just enough to yell over the music with. Ten… nine… eight… His voice joined the rest. Three… two… one… Midnight.
Cheers exploded. People who hadn’t talked all night were hugging, someone popped a confetti cannon way too close to the ceiling and got glitter in the chips. A new year had started and for one dumb second it felt okay. The party had soon clearly peaked. People had started slipping out with their coats half on, couples disappeared into the backyard and most of the crowd had thinned or migrated toward places to crash. It was that messy, strange energy where the floor was sticky and the music quieter. He had just finished complimenting someone’s completely unremarkable hat (”broooo that’s a staaaatement piece") when he glanced toward the front door or more specifically, just outside it.

There was movement just not the chaotic kind you usually saw at these things. Rudy tilted his head to get a better look and spotted two girls just past the porch. One of them, the wobbly on her feet one with her head hanging a little too far to one side clearly wasn’t doing great. The other, steady and focused, had her arm wrapped around the girl’s waist and was practically carrying her down the steps. It took him a second to recognize her.
Lizzy.
Rudy knew her face… Not well. Just in that “we’ve passed each other in a hundred hallways” kind of way, but also in the “oh, she’s one of those new cheerleaders whose also really close with Charlotte” way. She was the kind of girl people either started whispering about or staring at and he couldn’t remember which. Tonight though, she didn’t look like the version of herself he’d seen on school hallways or heard stories about. She looked… exhausted. Like she hadn’t planned to spend her New Year’s Eve playing babysitter. And she shouldn’t, so Rudy’s smile faltered just slightly.
Just earlier he also caught a glimpse of Charlotte slipping away with someone laughing like it didn’t matter that her best friend was out there dealing with a half conscious party casualty. Rudy watched them disappear into the backyard, sparklers lighting up behind them while Lizzy didn’t follow. She didn’t call after her either.

Now Charlotte was someone Rudy didn’t know that well but he knew of her. Or… Okay, let’s put it this way - he knew Charlotte because of his new best friends, Sam, who was also Charlotte’s brother. You follow? But back to Lizzy - She just adjusted her grip on the girl and kept going. Without thinking much of it, Rudy handed off his half finished drink to someone nearby, ”Hold this for me, I’ll be back in like… five to ten years,“ and ducked out the front door into the night. The cold hit him instantly, crisp and biting, a reminder that the year was dying. He jogged down the steps with a quiet ”Hey…“ toward Lizzy, already slipping into that easy kind of helpfulness that made people trust him. He stayed a few steps back at first, not wanting to startle either of them but close enough that they could hear him. He tilted his head, half grinning in a way that made it hard to tell whether he was being serious or joking… usually both. ”You look like you just realized this party doesn’t have an exit strategy. I mean…“ He waited a beat, then added, eyes flicking down to the cracked sidewalk beneath their feet. ”If I had to pick a dramatic place to emotionally spiral, I’d pick this exact patch of concrete too. Solid cracks! Greeeeat ambiance.“ He knocked his sneaker against the curb lightly, like he was judging it, then gave her a quick shrug, the kind that said I’m just messing around, but also I’m here if you need it. ”You look like you’re doing great but… if you stop doing great, I can assist.“


@novella

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Rudy

{ beginning of junior year / T-Rex and Jesse }
but you were just a kid when they told ya you’d been born to bleed, endless soldier


It wasn’t that easy getting Jesse out of the house. He didn’t speak much these days and it was the kind of silence Rudy remembered well, the kind that soaked into your clothes and lived in your bones. When Rudy lost his mom, Jesse had shown up without asking but Rudy pushed him away. Pushed everyone away, really… It was not his proudest moment but he was dealing with a lot. That caused one of his strongest friendships, since childhood, to break…Well, until now because when Jesse’s mom (who at times felt like Rudy’s second mom) disappeared, Rudy didn’t wait for an invitation. He just knocked once, then twice more when no one answered and let himself in. And now they were here, out in the middle of nowhere, in a field Rudy used to come to as a kid.

The grass was still wet from yesterday’s rain and Rudy’s sneakers were soaked by the time they reached the clearing. It wasn’t much, just a patch of field someone probably meant to mow but never did, rust colored trees and wildflowers that looked a little tired this late in the season. Perfect… really. Rudy dropped down onto the damp earth with the same enthusiasm he approached everything. He flopped back with a dramatic sigh, arms spread, hoodie hood halfway over one eye. Above them: stars. The sky open and impossible and endless”You’re not sitting? What, you got a date with misery standing up?“ Rudy teased, glancing up at Jesse who was still hovering a few steps away, like he wasn’t sure if this was a trap or just a terrible idea. He didn’t answer so Rudy patted the ground beside him. ”Come on, man. I brought you to the official sad boy lookout point. Premium view… No adults. And I only charge in cuddles.“ Eventually Jesse sat down. His hands were folded tightly on his chest, shoulders tense even in rest. Eyes fixed upward like maybe the answers were up there, scattered between constellations and clouds. Like maybe if he looked long enough, he’d see something. His face was so still, a version of Jesse Rudy had only seen once before, on his porch, after his mom died. And maybe it was selfish, but a part of Rudy was scared. Not just for Jesse, but for what this moment meant. For the silence between them that hadn’t always been there. For the version of Jesse that he stopped texting back to. For the friendship Rudy had let rot.

”I missed this.“ Rudy finally said, voice barely above a breath. ”Us. Like this.“ Jesse didn’t answer, but he didn’t flinch either. That felt like a win. Rudy tilted his head toward the stars, chewing the inside of his cheek for a moment before nudging Jesse with his elbow. ”Okay, real talk,“ he said, more confident than he felt, ”Find the T-Rex.“
“What?” Jesse blinked.
”In the sky.“ Rudy pointed up, finger tracing some invisible path. ”The T-Rex constellation. I named it myself. Very exclusive.“ Jesse gave him a look, part exhausted, part are you actually serious right now and Rudy just grinned. ”I’m serious! You gotta find it. It’s got tiny arms and everything, classic pose. Right near that bright one… that’s the eye. Or the nose. Depends on your interpretation.“ Jesse squinted. “Rudy-” Jesse started, but Rudy cut him off with a dramatic gasp. ” Oh my god. Are you telling me you can’t find the T-Rex? Bro. Are your constellation skills this weak? What have you even been doing with your life?“ Jesse sighed, but he was smiling. Just a little. Just enough to show he hadn’t forgotten how. “I hate you.”

”No you don’t, you’re in love with me. And you’re gonna find that dino.“ A long pause. Then Jesse gave in, head tipping back again, eyes scanning the stars. Rudy stayed quiet, watching him from the corner of his eye. Watching his friend breathe a little easier. Shoulders drop just a bit. Hands loosen. After a while Jesse huffed, “I don’t see anything.” Rudy smirked, victorious. ” That’s because there’s no f**king T-Rex, dude. What do you think this is, Jurassic Sky?“ Jesse stared at him for a long beat… “You’re a menace.” ”Correct,“ Rudy said, resting his arms behind his head again. "But now you’re mad about fake dinosaurs instead of… everything else. See how that works?“ Jesse didn’t answer right away. He just looked back up at the sky, this time without squinting. Rudy continued, more gentle now, ”It’s good to find small things like that. Stupid things. Just so we can… Just so your brain can… stop chewing on itself for five seconds. Doesn’t have to make sense.“

Jesse didn’t say anything right away, but he nodded. Slow. Then: “Thanks,” he whispered and the word felt heavy in the best way. And for the first time in months Rudy let himself believe they might actually come back from this. Friendship wasn’t a straight line. Not when you messed it up. Not when you tried to fix it. But maybe it could be a constellation. Not always clear, not always perfect… but still connected, somewhere up there.
They stayed like that, side by side in the middle of nowhere, listening to the quiet and for once, not filling it.
Just breathing.
Just floating.
Just finding small, stupid, necessary ways to keep going.


@CerealKiller

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Rudy

{ beginning of junior year / talking to Beck for the first time }


It was their tenth time sitting in the same quiet room. Double digits. A milestone he would’ve joked about under different circumstances, maybe brought a cupcake with a candle, lit it dramatically, said something dumb, but he didn’t. He hadn’t earned that kind of casual with her yet. They were sitting in the same quiet room but not exactly together, they never talked much in there. Rudy had his way of staring at the floor like it held all the answers and Beck always brought a pen to twist between her fingers. Still, ten times. He’d been counting. This time, they left at the same moment, not planned. Not even really noticed until the door clicked shut behind them and it was just the two of them, stepping into a late afternoon, not quite evening, not quite warm. The air was strange, overcast in a way that made colors feel faded like the world had been through the wash too many times.

Rudy shoved his hands into his jacket pockets and glanced sideways. ”You always leave so fast. It’s like you’ve got a race to win out there.“ He softly spoke up, trying to start a conversation with a joke like he usually does. “Maybe I do.” Her words came quick, a little defensive, but not mean. Just… guarded. Still, she didn’t speed up or leave. Rudy smiled and even tho she didn’t mirror it, her expression cracked a little. Walking silently for a beat, he played with the gum he always had on him. ”You know,“ he started, half smiling to himself. ”My mom taught a girl like you once. About ten years old. Ridiculous balance. Pink leotard.. Kind of okay pirouettes.“ Beck blinked, then laughed. “That was me.”
”I know,“ he quickly added, nodding in that proud way with a muggish smile on his face. She paused. “You watched?” ”Yeah. Sat in the back like a disaffected critic. Pretended I was above it all. Secretly gave everyone scores out of ten and if I had any say in it not one of you should ever see a stage again.“
“Rude.” ”I’m Rudy actually.“ He gave her that cheeky smile again. They walked a little more, feet moving in rhythm. He had the urge to say something stupid again, just to keep her from drifting away inside herself. But then she spoke. “I remember when she died,” Beck said quietly. “Your mom. My mom told me. I didn’t know what to say…” Rudy’s breath hitched, not enough to be audible but enough that he felt it. That hurt. That thing that never really left. ”Most people said the wrong thing,“ he said eventually. ”Or nothing at all.“ She looked at him, really looked, like she wanted to ask something but wasn’t sure if she had the right. “What helped?” He thought about lying. About saying “time” and leaving it there… But he didn’t. ”People who didn’t expect me to talk about it.“ There was silence, but it was different now. It had softened, made room for them both. Rudy tugged a stick of gum from his pocket and held it out. ”Peppermint,“ he said and she took it. They didn’t talk after that, they were just chewing in sync like some kind of a weird ritual and just walking. Two kids in the fading light, side by side like they’d been doing it for years.


@Caticorn

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] ‎‧₊˚✧[The summer before junior year/meeting Tabitha for the first time]✧˚₊‧

Paintings of Jesus and saints hung on the walls like witnesses. Bleeding, golden-eyed, merciful. Or maybe judging. She could not tell anymore. Their faces had once soothed her, pulled her closer to something soft and holy. Now they only looked back at her, eyes fixed and unmoving, as if to ask what she had done.

The air inside the church was too warm. The incense had a bitter edge to it, sharp and sweet like overripe fruit. The choir’s voices rose and fell in slow, trembling waves, the kind of song meant to sound like healing. The kind that used to bring tears to her eyes when she was younger, when she still believed that if she sang loud enough, God would hear her better.

Keir sat in the third pew, still and stiff. The dress her mother picked clung to her back. Its sleeves were tight around her shoulders, and she imagined that the fabric was trying to trap her, to fold her neatly back into who she used to be. Her hands rested in her lap, fingers interlocked, palms sweating.

Her mother was seated just beside her, close but not touching. Her father on the other end. Neither of them had spoken to her since that morning. Her mother’s Bible was open and rigid in her lap, pages uncreased, unbent, untouched. Her mouth did not move with the prayers, but her jaw was tight. She looked ahead like someone determined not to flinch.

She hates this place, Keir thought. No, really. She does.

It had been two months since Isaac died, and the church had not changed. The pews were still smooth and cold. The fans still clicked when they turned. The altar cloth was still the same faded red. But something inside Keir had shifted, bent at a strange angle. And now, when the priest spoke about grace, she wanted to laugh. Now, when people said they were praying for her family, she wanted to spit.

The priest was talking about suffering. About how grief brought people closer to the Lord. About how pain was part of the divine plan. He said it with a voice that tried to sound gentle but echoed too loudly.

Keir could not stay. The dress was too tight. The light was too bright. Her mother’s silence was too loud.

So she stood. Not abruptly, not with any real force. She just stood, gently, like something loosening from its knot. Her mother’s head turned slightly, her eyes narrow and sharp, but she said nothing. Neither did her father. They wouldn’t dare make a scene in church, and Keir knew that, thus she had felt nothing walking away from them. Even when she saw her father’s jaw harden, and her mom looked at her like she was stupid. Aaah, another lecture was about to be had when they get home or more like if they see her at home at all today. She was getting tired of all the lectures, it was all She was getting tired of all the lectures, it was all beginning to sound the same. Like static. Like when you turn the radio dial and all you hear is fuzz and fragments of voices that don’t belong to you.

You’re not the only one who lost him.– Correct, ding ding!
This isn’t how a girl should behave.—Keir couldn’t care less anymore
You need to stop embarrassing this family.—Her mom’s favorite line
What would Isaac think of you now?—Says the one’s who never truly knew Isaac

As if she hadn’t thought of him every single day since the accident. As if she didn’t wake up with his name dry on her tongue, didn’t still hear his laugh in places it had no business being, parking lots, stairwells, dreams. As if their grief made them holy and hers made her wicked. They had not realize, that though they had lost a child, Keir had lost her only sibling. The only one in the house who ever truly loved her, her elder brother. Keir had always known her family’s love for her came with conditions. And Isaac—he was the golden boy. The one the sun seemed to follow. The one with the easy grin and the straight A’s, the charm that made aunties beam in church and teachers linger a little too long with compliments. He could make mistakes, and they would be brushed off like lint from a blazer. But Keir? Keir had to be perfect just to be tolerated.

And now that he was gone, all their disappointment had nowhere else to go but her.

She walked fast. Past the rusted gate and the gravel lot where the elders parked their Cadillacs. Past the bakery on the corner where Mrs. Pearson always asked why she didn’t smile anymore. Past the mailbox that still bore her family name in peeling black letters. Mercer. As if that meant something clean. As if people didn’t flinch when they heard it now.

She didn’t know exactly where she was going. Just that she couldn’t go home. Not yet. Maybe not ever.

It was the bass she heard first, deep and slow, pulsing like a second heartbeat. It came from a house a few blocks down, one of those worn-out rentals where someone’s cousin was always throwing parties. She’d never been inside, but she’d heard of them. Seen the pictures passed around on flip phones. The porch light flickered. There was a boy smoking out of a Sprite can on the steps. Someone else throwing up in the bushes. Girls with lip gloss smiles and boys in crooked caps, laughing at nothing. She hesitated only for a second.

Still in her church dress. Still smelling faintly of incense and sweat and something old, something heavy. Her shoes caught in the grass as she stepped up to the porch. No one stopped her.

Inside, the air was dense and warm. The music louder now, vibrating in her ribs. A Prince song was playing–If I Was Your Girlfriend—too slow and too sexy for the sun to still be up, but no one seemed to care. Red cups. Low light. A haze of cheap perfume and weed. Bodies moving like they didn’t know they’d ever stop.

Everyone else was so casually dressed. Tank tops and jeans. Sneakers and cutoff shorts. And here she was, standing in the doorway like some kind of lost pilgrim, all buttoned-up and proper in navy blue church dress and patent leather shoes. She felt eyes on her immediately—quick glances that lingered too long, whispers that stopped mid-sentence when she passed. Her cheeks went hot, burning with the realization of how utterly out of place she looked.

It would be a lie to say she’d never been to parties like this. She was a cheerleader—or had been, before Isaac died, before everything fell apart. She’d gotten invited to plenty of them, especially the ones at Malik Johnson’s house. But those parties had been different. She’d belonged there, surrounded by her squad, wearing the right clothes, knowing the right people. She’d had a role to play, a place to stand.

Now she had nothing.

“Shxt” Keir cursed, “I’m dressed like the fcking characters from the crucible right now.” She whispered to herself, or at least intended to whisper. She could tell nor remember if she had said it out loud, in her head or had whispered it so low that only her ears could hear…probably all three, if that was possible. She wondered what Isaac would say, if he was with her, then again, she probably wouldn’t have skipped church to come to a party if Isaac was still here. So the hypotheticals were as useless as the letter ‘g’ in lasagna

She scanned the room, searching for a familiar face, someone who might anchor her to this world she’d stumbled into. But the faces were all strangers, all moving in rhythms she didn’t recognize. The music shifted to something harder, more urgent, and the crowd pressed closer together. She was about to turn around, to flee back to the safety of empty streets and silent houses, when her eyes landed on a girl across the room.

Dark hair falling in waves past her shoulders. Tanned skin that caught the dim light. She was laughing at something someone had said, her head thrown back, teeth white and perfect. Tabitha. Keir wouldn’t say she knew her, exactly, but she’d seen her in the hallways plenty of times. Always surrounded by her own crowd, always moving like she owned whatever space she occupied. They’d never spoken, but there was something about her that had always caught Keir’s attention. Something magnetic and slightly dangerous.

She didn’t know whether she should approach her, they were not friends, after all and thus it would probably be awkward as fck. So, Keir thought against it but just as she turned to leave, just as the weight of her sleeves and her sweat-slicked dress and the eyes in the room became too much—someone stepped into her path.

A guy. Red-rimmed eyes, slack grin, stoned out of his damn mind. His shirt was open, hanging off one shoulder like even his clothes had given up on him. He held a half-spilled cup and reeked of weed and some kind of cheap cologne that made her gag a little.

“Yo,” he slurred, blinking like the light bothered him. He cocked his head at her, eyes dragging down the length of her dress. “You got lost at church school or som? I didn’t know nuns could get down like this too, then again, dudes dig nun look.” He continued, “Like is it some kind of secret sltty outfit?”

A few nearby kids snorted. Laughed. Keir’s jaw tightened. She wanted to say something. She really did. She wanted to tell him off, maybe even make him cry a little—say something cruel and clever, something that would make his friends wince and whisper afterward that they didn’t know she had it in her. Something Isaac might’ve said, if he were here. Something fast and sharp, like:

You gonna make fun of my clothes when your own damn teeth are fighting to stay in your mouth
Better that, than looked like I pissed myself at on someone’s futon

But nothing came out. Her throat closed up like a fist. Her mouth opened, dry and useless. The words were there—somewhere behind her teeth—but they couldn’t find their way forward. Her face flushed with something worse than embarrassment. Shame. The kind that dug into your bones. She felt like she was thirteen again, getting laughed at for saying the wrong thing at the wrong time in front of the right people.

The guy chuckled at her silence, took a long sip from his cup. “Thought so,” he muttered, turning back toward the crowd.

Keir’s fists clenched at her sides. Her fingernails bit into her palms, and she stared after him, furious,not at him, not even really—but at herself. For freezing. For folding. For still not knowing how to exist in a place like this anymore.

And then—

Keir turned her head just slightly, and there she was. Tabitha. Walking through the room like smoke with legs. Barefoot, holding her red cup loosely, eyeliner smudged just right.


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6 months ago:


Shit’s stupid like a rapper tryna rap about struggles he never had. That was how Malik felt about all this, the situation he was in, and that situation being visiting a fortune teller. He was with Charlotte, as usual, who had bugged him to come here, said she wanted to see how her future would be like everyone did not already know where Charlotte would end up in–in a penthouse married to the love of her life, billions in her bank account.

But he still went with her, and he paid, as he always did. He stood outside, bored as fuck, as he waited for Charlotte to be done. 30 minutues later, she was out. “How did it go?” He asked, knowing he really didn’t care.

At his question, Charlotte had pursed her lips and had thatCharlotte Blackwell look—the one where her chin tilted just slightly and her eyes gleamed like she knew something you didn’t. Like she always knew something you didn’t. "“You should try it too.” She told him, her voice strange.

It was quick, Malik’s response, there was no thought to it nor was there a hint of hesitation, as he said, “Nah.” What a fun simple word that is, truthfully, Malik thinks, the world should use it more. Imagine how far society would improve, if people used that beautiful word, ‘nah’.

“Malik!” She huffed.

“Charlotte!” He responded, “You my homegirl and all but that’s shit gay as f*ck.” She narrowed her eyes at him in that way she always did when she was pretending to be pissed, though the corner of her lip twitched like it wanted to smile. “Seriously. Just go in. She already said she’d do you next.” “She said she’d do me?” Malik raised an eyebrow, flashing a grin.

“Grow up,” Charlotte muttered, rolling her eyes. “Just… go in. I think it’ll help.”

“With what?”

“I don’t know,” she said, and for a moment, her tone shifted. It wasn’t sarcastic, or teasing. It was quiet. Honest. “You’ve been off lately.”

He didn’t respond right away. Just stared at her. She met his gaze, and there was something in her eyes that made him feel—exposed. Like she could see right through him.

After a beat, he shoved his hands in his pockets and walked inside.

The fortune teller’s shop smelled like incense and old wood. The air was heavy, like it had a weight to it. Curtains separated the front from the back, and behind them sat a woman dressed in layered shawls, her hands adorned with rings that clinked when she gestured for him to sit.

He dropped down into the chair across from her, slouching like he always did when he felt uncomfortable but didn’t want to show it.

She didn’t say anything at first. Just looked at him. Eyes sharp. Quiet. Calculating.

“You don’t believe in any of this,” she finally said.

“Nope.” He said, popping the p.

“Then why are you here?”

He shrugged. “Bored.”

She smiled like she knew he was lying. Like she knew something he didn’t.

Then she picked up a deck of tarot cards.

“Fine,” he said, sighing. “Let’s get this over with.”

“Give me your palm.” Malik gave the fortune teller a weird look. “I need to read your palm to see your future.”

“So those weird crystal ball right there for naught?” He arched his brow.

“Crystal balls are for show,” she said. “Palms are for truth.”

Malik rolled his eyes but let her do her thing. Her fingers were cold. Her grip, firm.

She traced the lines slowly, muttering things he couldn’t quite catch. Then—she stopped.

Her eyes locked on his.

“Alright,” she said, voice low. “You’ll be powerful. Feared. A name people whisper more than they say.”

His lip twitched. “Cool.”

“You’ll get everything you want. Money. Status. Influence.”

“Even better,” he said,

“Your dad will be proud, you’re good athlete, you know that right?”

Malik smirked, “Practice makes perfect.”

“Practice.” She pursed her lips, “Right.” He frowned at that. She continued, “But it won’t be enough. Your life will be filled with regrets, mistakes that can never be undone and you’ll realize all that you did was for naught."

Silence.

Then—

“Damn,” he muttered, dusting off his pants. “Guess I better enjoy the money, huh?”

He walked out.

Charlotte was waiting outside, leaning against the wall. When she saw his face, she raised an eyebrow.

“How was it?”

He gave her a lazy smile. “Well… at least I’ll be rich.”

“Aren’t you already rich?”

“Guess, I’ll be richer.”

They both laughed at that. Then she paused, looked at him, and grinned, “Hanging out with you, it’s so fun, I don’t why I even bother with anyone else.”

“Careful, Char. Might start thinking the rumors of you trying to get me to bed is true.” Charlotte wrinkled her nose in disgust at that.

“Ewww. Besides, getting you to bed would be easy, I wouldn’t have to even sweet talk you, you’re easy, anyone can get in bed with you.”

“Not you.”" He pointed out, “You’re not my type.”

She huffed, “Please, you don’t have a type, you fucked Mrs.Winter”

He arched a brow, “Fair point. I think her husband hates me.”

Charlotte let out a snort. “Think? Malik, he chased you out the country club with a golf club. How your dad didn’t find out, amuses me.”

"It’s cause you keep all my secrets well, right? That’s why we even friends, you know stuff. Also, it’s not my fault Caleb was bad at keeping his wife entertained.”

“You’re a pig, I don’t see how girls still like you.”

“I would show you the reason, but I’m sure that’s what you’re waiting for.” He joked and Charlotte made puking sounds. He rolled his eyes, as he unlocked his car, “Get in. I’m driving you home.”

Charlotte climbed in, still fake gagging under her breath as she slammed the door shut behind her.

“God, you’re foul,” she muttered, adjusting the seatbelt. “Like genuinely, you make me sick.”

“Thank God.” He rolled his eyes as he started the car. They pulled onto the street, the soft hum of the engine filling the silence between them. The night stretched out ahead—quiet, scattered lights from passing cars, distant sirens, the occasional flash of neon from late-night diners and corner stores. Familiar streets. Familiar silence.

Malik tapped his fingers against the steering wheel absently, jaw flexing once, like he was chewing on a thought. He didn’t say anything. Didn’t bring up the fortune teller. Didn’t mention the weird weight still sitting in his chest.

Charlotte glanced at him. “You’re quieter than usual. She scare you or something?”

He snorted. “Please. What’s she gonna do? Curse me?”

“She might’ve,” she said with a smirk. “Probably cursed you to finally feel things.”

“That’d be cruel,” he said, voice low.

Charlotte looked out the window again, sensing the shift in his tone but choosing not to push it. Not now. Not yet.

“You hungry?” he asked suddenly.

She blinked. “What?”

“I said you hungry. I’m thinking of stopping by Dino’s. I want fries.”

Charlotte squinted at him. “Didn’t you say you were cutting carbs?”

“I lie,” he replied.

She sighed. “You’re buying.”

“Obviously you never pay for shyt with your broke @ss,” he said, turning the wheel.

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Practice had finished early, much to the glee of the rest of his teammates. The sun was still high but starting to dip, casting long gold shadows across the empty field. Most of the guys had already jogged off toward the locker rooms, shouting plans for the weekend, smacking helmets together, laughing too loud. Malik had stayed behind.

He tended to do that often.

He adjusted the grip on the ball, dropped back, and threw it toward the corner of the end zone where no one stood. A perfect spiral. It hit the grass and bounced, landing just shy of the pylon.

Not good enough.

Not to him.
Not to his father.

“Don’t let your arm get lazy.”
“Reset your feet before you throw.”
“Again.”
“Again.”
“Again.”

His dad wasn’t even here, but Malik could still hear him, like the voice had taken up permanent residence in the back of his skull. He jogged across the field, picked up the ball, and reset. Snap. Drop. Read. Throw.

Bullseye. He was about to go again, to do more, when he heard his phone go off and he walked towards his bag to see her had received a text from Isaac. Malik wiped the sweat from his brow as he reached into his duffel, tugged out his flip phone. The screen was slightly scratched, the back held on with a fading sticker of Iverson mid-crossover. One new message.

[Isaac]: Are you home? I’ll bring drinks. Keir and Cam coming too, is that okay?

Malik cracked a half-smile and thumbed his reply, still breathing heavy.

Malik: Yeah, pull up at like 5 though.

Perfect timing. His folks would be on the road by then, along with Jordan having a sleepover with her favorite duo. Thus, in other words, the house was his. He let out a low whistle, grabbed his ball again and spun it in his palm. That familiar weight. The kind of control he could count on. Unlike the rest of his life, the ball always did what he wanted, when he wanted. Before going to the locker rooms and showering, then driving to his house.

20 minutes later, while Malik was in the pool, they had arrived. “Who are you all and why you breaking into my house?” He teased.

Keir was the first to roll her eyes. She was standing by the sliding glass door, still in the process of kicking off her sandals, one hand gripping her diet coke, the other hanging loosely by her side. . Isaac brought up the rear, arms full, Sprite, a couple bottles of something dark in a brown paper bag, and a plastic bag full of snacks that had clearly been picked last minute at the gas station.

“Your spare key’s still under the fake rock,” Keir said, settling into one of the patio chairs. “Which, by the way, is the most obvious hiding spot in the history of hiding spots.”

“Worked for you, didn’t it?” Malik pushed off from the pool wall, water cascading down his shoulders. The chlorine stung his eyes just enough to make him squint, but it felt good to be weightless for a while. No pressure from his cleats against turf, no phantom voice echoing in his ears.

“I brought options,” Isaac said, stepping onto the patio. “But you got more, right?”

Malik’s lips tugged into a grin so wide it nearly split his face. He crossed his arms over his chest and tilted his head, mock-offended.

“Who do you think I am, bro?” he asked, before hoisting himself out of the pool, water dripping down his chest as he walked barefoot across the hot pavement, disappearing into the house. Moments later, he returned with a small crate-like tray full of clinking bottles—rum, tequila, some dark liquor he didn’t even know the name of—and a dusty old can of mango nectar.

“My father’s secret stash,” Malik said proudly, setting it down on the patio table. “Are we going to play the game we did at Rider’s?” Then, as if, remembering that the girls were still there, Malik had turned to them. “You guys cool with it? You don’t have to play if you don’t, I’m sure you can find something else to entertain the two of you.”


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⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊ 1st January, 2005 New Years Party ₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹

I wanna find you in a crowd just to hide from you

Long moments passed where Lizzy waited to no end for Katie to recall her address. Or any vague direction. And unfortunately, try as she might, she couldn’t manage to just read her mind and get an answer for herself. The cold sank in to her exposed skin, due to an outfit not planned for hopelessly standing around. “It’s okay we can just..” Lizzy started, though not knowing where she was going with the solution. She looked around as they edged further away from the house. “Keep walking until you recognise something?” She thought out loud, immediately wondering why she was leaving it open as a question - Katie was non-responsive.

While looking around, Lizzy caught a glimpse into the window at what was left of the party she had been pulled away from. The hum of laughter she could hear from the front garden, the glow of string lights that were still on, her new fellow cheerleaders sharing what looked like shocking news to each other. Lizzy wondered what it was they were talking about, what had happened while she was gone - what she was missing. The all-too familiar feeling of being an outsider as a freshman sank in, the camaraderie she was used to watching from a distance.

The sudden feeling of lightness surprised Lizzy, and before she had the chance Katie had fallen forward. “Are you okay? Are you hurt?” She asked, trying to scan around for signs of injury. Whatever existential thoughts Lizzy was having were immediately replaced, and she was taking Katie by the shoulders, gently but firmly trying to pull her up. “It’s okay, you’re alright,” She told her gently, as she eventually had her on her feet. Remembering she had it, Lizzy scanned her bag and located the bottle of water she had picked up she’d first arrived. “Here, drink some of this, it will help you,” She told Katie, placing it in her hand.

A voice that wasn’t her own surprised Lizzy, catching her off guard after the hours of doing all the talking with Katie. She turned to see Rudy Maddox slowly approaching. She froze in place at surprise of him. Rudy was always the type of person you see from a distance, effortless charm with the kind of over-approachability that somehow made him seem unapproachable, out of reach for people like her. Yet here he was, and beneath the light-heartedness and jokes there seemed to be an offer of assistance for her. He must have been on his way out.

“I-” Lizzy started, but it came out more stuttered. She cleared her throat, a flustered smile crossing her face. “Welllll if I’m gonna spiral at least it’s somewhere scenic,” Lizzy finally responded, somehow something comprehensible. Then she shook her head, retracting her last statement. “Not that we’re spiralling. Are you spiralling? We’re fine. Like the opposite of spiralling. So steady and unspiralled,” She told him, with a light laugh, the occasional glance Katie’s way to make sure she wasn’t doing anything reckless in her drunken haze.

Lizzy took a few steps back, away from Rudy, and closer to the road they were about to venture out onto. “It’s okay,” She instinctively said to his offer for help. “I appreciate it, a lot. But we totally have things under control, right Katie?” Lizzy continued, almost losing her own balance to keep Katie on her feet. “For real, you should head back to the party,” She nodded her head in the correct direction for him to go in. “We’ll be fine to head back to… where is it again Katie?” She continued, hoping the natural conversation will help jog Katie’s memory. Silence. Worth a shot. “Somewhere around. But thank you for the offer,” She eventually said. With an awkward wave, Lizzy started trying to turn Katie in the direction away from him. “Have a good night, sir,” She told him, before furrowing her brows and cringing to herself at her choice of words when her back was turned from him.

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{ ny party / 1st January, 2005 / with Lizzy }
Now I don’t know where I am, I don’t know where I’ve been but I know where I want to go


Rudy didn’t say anything at first.
He just stood there with his hands in jacket pockets while Katie was slumped sideways in Lizzy’s grip and Lizzy… looked like she’d rather be anywhere else than standing across from him right now. And that was kind of hilarious. Not in a cruel way, of course. Rudy didn’t think she had anything against him…hell, he couldn’t even remember if they’d ever properly spoken before. It was just… the way she kept repeating how fine everything was. They were fine, she didn’t need help, she had it under control. The more she insisted, the less convincing it sounded. And honestly, he didn’t take it personally, he just found it kind of funny, in that way things are when someone’s trying so hard to keep it together that it almost becomes endearing.

So Rudy just watched the whole scene unfold with the patience of someone who didn’t entirely belong to the moment but didn’t mind being tethered to it either. Just listened to the way she spoke like everything was fine while her eyes flickered with low level panic and that sort of determination people had when they were just trying to get through something. We’re fine. Like the opposite of spiraling. That one made him smile, to himself more, like he didn’t want her to see it and think he was making fun of her because he wasn’t. He could just see it. How hard she was trying and how not fine this situation actually was. So he tilted his head slightly, one eyebrow raised in a lazy sort of amusement. His tongue pressed against the inside of his cheek, not exactly a smirk, not quite a laugh, just enough to keep him from interrupting because there was something oddly charming about how determined the girl was.

He was just about to say something, maybe offer a joke, a hand, anything to make her ease u but she beat him to it. She stepped back, gave him the most painfully polite and awkward wave he’d ever seen, followed by the words that made him physically blink: Have a good night, sir.

A beat.
Two.
Then…
Rudy laughed. Not a big, dramatic laugh, but a real one, deep in his chest, low and full and almost grateful because this night just kept getting better. She was turning away already, trying to steer the situation and the girl anywhere but toward him. But he didn’t let her leave with that, no way.” Okay, I would love to argue with you about the fact that you’re ‘totally fine’,“ he said, that same easy humor in his voice, ” but… did you just call me sir?“ Rudy caught up to her in a few slow steps. Not in a rushing, saving kind of way but like it was just the most natural thing for him to do. He didn’t reach for Katie right away just kind of appeared on the other side of her and gently, wordlessly slipped his arm under her shoulder without needing permission. ”I’m not letting you drag your jellyfish friend across the town all alone,“ he said, almost conversational, ”But… sir? Do I look like I pay my own truck insurance? Do- Okay, you know what, we’re gonna circle back to the ‘sir’ thing. Just not now, not here. But just know that I’ve clocked it. It’s on the record.“

That’s when Katie mumbled something that sounded like grape soda and swayed against both of them. Rudy didn’t flinch, just steadied her instinctively but glanced at her with confusion and amusement. ”Right… Okay… Well, grapes have never been known for their navigational skills so that’s not helpful.“ He looked at Lizzy again then. Her hair was falling into her face now, cheeks flushed from effort or embarrassment… or both. His voice, when he spoke next, softened just a little. Not so much that it broke the tone, but enough to signal that this part wasn’t a joke. ”Are you okay, really? And… do you really don’t know where she lives?“ On that last part he kept his voice low, like they were sharing a secret, like if he said it gently enough, maybe it wouldn’t rattle the drunk girl between them.


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⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊ 1st January, 2005 New Years Party ₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹

Lizzy’s pacing sped up the more she went on, trying to get out and away from the situation as soon as possible. Though frustratingly, Katie’s stumbling footsteps continuously restricted her escape. It wasn’t anything personal to Rudy. In fact, had she been thinking of attempting a conversation with him at some point? Yeah, maybe she had considered it. More than a few times. But Lizzy had been caught off guard in this particular moment, unprepared and lacking composure - stumbling over her words and exchanging way-too formal salutations. It was best to leave it here, and maybe circle back in a year or so when he’d probably hopefully forgotten this.

But then, for some reason, that third pair of footsteps started catching up to them. She closed her eyes as she could hear his voice, in denial of that fact for a moment. But when she opened them, Rudy materialised before her, stood the other side of Katie. Admittedly, his being there made it significantly easier to walk at a normal pace. Practically-wise, fine, maybe Lizzy could use that help.

“Sir? Whaaat…?” Lizzy started, her voice raising an octave while internally dying at the fact that he had heard that. As if her voice hadn’t practically echoed down the road when she shouted over at him. “I don’t know who said that,” She attempted, turning behind her to see no one to blame for those words. “Must have been a midnight jogger… or something… someone on some cruel mission to age you by 10 years. I would have never. Not me.., dude.” Lizzy continued, hoping the new, carefully chosen word will somehow cancel out the accidental sir. While she was thankful he was happy to drop it for now, but it seemed she hadn’t exactly nailed the recovery - given the fact that it was now ‘on the record’ whatever that meant.

Lizzy’s laugh came naturally, with a mixture of surprise and exhaustion, when Katie’s first coherent words were about grape soda. While Rudy commented on its lack of use in getting her home, Lizzy straightened up in consideration. “No, no, you know, this could be good,” She started with her usual hopeful optimism. She wasn’t sure how this could be good yet. But it just sounded right to say. “You have grape soda at home? Yeah? Okay, well that’s easy. Which of these houses look like they would have grape soda? I feel like it takes a specific type of house… to, you know, have that at home? Maybe a porch swing orrr a wind chime? They are pretty similar vibe to grape soda?” Lizzy looked to the others hopefully, finding blank faces. At least one was less by choice than the other. “Okay, yeah I didn’t think so either,” She shrugged.

That’s when Rudy looked to her to ask if she was really okay. In a way that wasn’t just the usual Hey, you okay? that was fleeting and didn’t mean anything. “Yeah,” Lizzy said, almost instantly. Then her brows softened and she tried to actually look across Katie at him. “I’m okay, really. Thank you,” She told him, breathlessly but something nearly convincing. “I’m still working on it. Where she lives, I mean,” Lizzy clarified quickly, as the focus returned to Katie, as she hoped. “Look, I still see something in the whole grape soda of it all, we should really work with what we’ve got,” She considered out loud, despite it probably being a dead end. Before waiting a response, Lizzy started working it out- “Grape soda… grape soda… gray soda? Graystone?”

She looked to Katie with excited anticipation, as something of acknowledgement crossed the drunken face. “Graystone Avenue? That’s where you live?” Katie gave a lazy nod, holding up four fingers to provide the final details: “4 Graystone Avenue!” Lizzy exclaimed, getting a rush from this new revelation. Then she leaned over to Rudy, “See? Of course I knew where she lives,” She told him with confidence, clearly built on nothing considering how long it took to get there. “And it’s right around the corner too, that’s perfect,” Lizzy said, with also the relief that this wouldn’t take up too much of Rudy’s time. “Think we can make it without any detours?”

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{ ny party / 1st January, 2005 / with Lizzy }


Rudy blinked a few times, like he needed to physically recalibrate to keep up with the rapid fire string of words coming out of Lizzy’s mouth. If she was trying to downplay the sir situation, she was doing a spectacular job of making it even funnier. And Rudy? Well… He did say he was going to let it go for now but if he didn’t he’d probably say something along the lines of: ”Midnight jogger… huh? Yeah, they’re everywhere this time of night. Real formal types, those joggers. Biiig on manners.“ It was just not the time or place to lightly roast her, even if the temptation was right there. He didn’t know her well enough, not yet, and the last thing he wanted was to scare her off or make her feel stupid for trying. So he kept quiet. For now.

When she started theorizing about the kind of house that might feel like grape soda, Rudy looked back at her with an expression that could either be read as I have no idea what you just said or that might actually be the solution. So while she was thinking and continued rambling, Rudy looked up at the rows of dark, sleeping homes and tilted his head thoughtfully. ”You know, I’m not sure what a grape soda house looks like,“ he murmured, half to himself, low and quiet… ”But I’m gonna be disappointed if it’s not what I’m imagining it to be… Gotta admit you might be onto something here, brilliant.“ And as brilliant as it was, which he could’ve admitted a bit louder, that didn’t help them much. They kept going, retracing steps, zigzagging past garden gnomes and fences and empty driveways while Lizzy repeated the words fast, way too many times only to realize what Katie was trying to say. And just like that the ysolved the mystery. Well… Lizzy did, but that did not stop Rudy from snapping his fingers, already pivoting like a detective who’d just cracked the case. ”Graystone Avenue, duh“ he repeated, all exhale and swagger, as if that had been his guess all along, when it absolutely hadn’t. ”And of course it’s 4!“

And Rudy would’ve kept joking if he hadn’t caught the way Lizzy lit up, that genuine relief, so he let the act drop with a lazy smile tugging at the corner of his mouth. ”Yeah, no doubt,“ Rudy said, nodding as if it was common knowledge the whole time. ”Knew it the whole time, didn’t you? Was just trying to see how long it would take for me to figure it out? Okay…I see you, I see you.“

And from there, it didn’t take long to spot the right place.
”You were right… The place kind of does look like a grape soda factory,“ he said as he moved ahead first, taking Katie’s hand to better help her up the stairs to her front door. ”You got a key, champ?“ Rudy asked but instead of looking at her, his eyes flicked to Lizzy because she was obviously the one holding all the answers now. The look was half a question, half surrender: Can you decode this? Is she speaking in riddles or Morse? You’re fluent now, right?


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⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊ 1st January, 2005 New Years Party ₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹

Lizzy’s suggestions had been far fetched, she knew that, of course. Though he had initially shown confusion, Rudy seemed to trustingly follow along, keeping a look out for a house that matched her description. In fact, despite her very vague conditions she gave, Rudy would often point out houses that perfectly fit what she had been visualising. Each time he declared a house as definitely storing grape soda in the fridge or cucumber water energy, right there, Lizzy looked at him with surprise - and a hidden rush of excitement - as somehow he had the ability to decipher and visualise her scattered out-loud thoughts. It didn’t even matter to her that technically they were getting nowhere with finding the actual correct house, as they seemed to walk past the same houses several times, and make the occasional stop to check Katie was okay.

When they - well she - eventually worked out the correct address, Lizzy let out a laugh at him pretending it had been obvious. “Yeah, you totally passed the problem-solving test there,” She told him, nodding in his direction. “Wouldn’t have gotten it without you, Detective,” Lizzy joked as they headed to their new destination, which they arrived at sooner than expected as the house had practically been right in front of them the whole time.

“Aha, a porch swing!” Lizzy pointed enthusiastically when they reached the front door, justifying her random logic. “Classic grape soda move, just as I suspected,” She continued, giving it a gentle push as she spoke. Rudy then addressed the next, and hopefully final, step of getting Katie safely home, right after Lizzy’s failed attempt at opening the front door herself. Finding her keys. “I’m sure we could solve that in no time,” Lizzy said, her voice carrying the same hopeful conviction it always did.

Lizzy gently lowered Katie onto the porch swing so that she could begin a scan for her keys. She patted down Katie’s coat pockets, checked the side pocket of her jeans, before retrieving her bag. “Do you think it would be okay to check her…-?” Lizzy started to ask cautiously, though stopped as Rudy had already started wildly nodding as if this had been obvious. “Hey, I don’t know, people’s bags are, like, private,” She explained, though she started vaguely sifting through the bag. Good thing, too, as she soon found their target, and Lizzy bounced back up at the discovery. “We are really on a roll here,” Lizzy exclaimed as she took the key to the door.

The key turned with a soft click, and she let out a sigh of relief. The door opened, and Lizzy helped Katie back on her feet to get through the doorway. As they entered, a voice called Katie’s name, and a figure with a similar build and face to her emerged, presumably her sister. She turned to Lizzy and Rudy, thanking them for getting her home, before saying; “I can take it from here now!” and officially relieving them of duty, the door closing and leaving the pair alone.

Suddenly Lizzy felt extremely conscious of who she was with again, without the distraction of Katie and the need to help her. As they retraced their footsteps to return to the sidewalk, Lizzy tensed slightly. “Well, I really appreciate your help,” She told him with a smile, then she gestured in the general direction they had just come from. “We’re not far from where the party is, you could probably return without anyone even noticing you’d left,” Lizzy continued, before quickly going back on herself - “Not that people wouldn’t notice you leaving, I’m sure you’ve been missed.” She folded her arms across her chest, feeling exposed without someone in between them, and suddenly more aware of the cold now she wasn’t so preoccupied. “I guess I’ll see you around?” Lizzy concluded, taking small backwards steps in the opposite direction, with no plans to return to the party. “Thank you again, for your help,” She repeated, before starting to turn away.

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Rudy

{ ny party / 1st January, 2005 / with Lizzy }


Rudy, standing just behind Lizzy as she turned the key with a soft click, gave a dramatic little cheer, trying his best not to be as loud and possibly wake up whoever Katie was living with. Lizzy helped Katie back up to her feet, steadying her gently while Rudy instinctively moved to her other side, taking her arm with the kind of care he usually reserved for cradling puppies at the shelter. ”Don’t miss us too much,“ he muttered to Katie, trying to make her laugh even though she was barely conscious. As they crossed the threshold, the light from the hallway clicked on and a voice called Katie’s name. A young woman appeared the, her expression shifting from panic to relief. Possibly Katie’s sister?

All Rudy could do was smile at the girl as she took over and… well, he couldn’t just do that. Before she could close the door, Rudy offered a joking salute. ”Alright then! Sleep well, stranger family! Hydrate her, feed her carbs, tell her she was kind of the life of the party!“ And only then, just like that, the door behind Lizzy and Rudy clicked shut and the sound of it echoed softly into the cold, cold night.

Rudy stood still for a second, the smile slipping just a little from his face. There was a brief moment where his expression settled into something quieter… the soft melancholy that always slipped in once the chaos died down. He exhaled slowly, shoving his hands deep into his jacket pockets. As they turned and walked back to the sidewalk, he felt the change in Lizzy. The way her shoulders tightened, the way she folded her arms… it wasn’t like earlier when they’d been connected by chaos. That chaos being Katie. This was quiet and quiet felt louder somehow.
He listened to her thank him, once, then again… and nodded softly, offering a small smile. But when she gestured toward the party and mentioned he could go back, something twisted inside him. And then she said it, “I guess I’ll see you around?” She started to walk off, backing away while he just stood there for a second, watching her with a half smile.

Under a sleepy sky, the world unusually still for the first time in hours. Katie’s house had a kind of peaceful stillness now, like something had concluded and the chapter closed. The mission completed… He could go now, no one really needed anything from him here anymore. But he didn’t move… Because he knew exactly what waited for him if he went home: Nothing. Just the familiar sound of that one stupid floorboard that creaked no matter how carefully he stepped on it and hum of the fridge. His empty room and the sounds of his own breathing and maybe, if he was lucky, the soft snore of the neighbor’s dog through the window.

So Rudy jogged forward a few steps, quick enough to catch up Lizzy. Did she really think he’d let her walk home alone? And worse, go back to the party? He couldn’t wait to leave and go… just somewhere else. Without saying a word he swung his jacket off his shoulders - worn in, warm and smelling faintly of pine cologne and party air - and draped it around hers. ”No arguments, you’ve earned this,“ He said before he he shoved his hands into the front pocket of his hoodie and gave a half smile, half sigh like he already knew he was about to keep talking. ”Now you suddenly trust the streets at night after you were the one who warned me about midnight joggers? Absolutely not. It’s like a horror movie opening,“ He glanced sideways at her, like he was making sure she heard him but also kind of hoping she didn’t take it too seriously. ”Girl leaves a party after being a goddamn hero, walks home alone, is never seen again… I’d never forgive myself and I don’t do well with guilt. I’d have to grow a sad little beard, start writing poetry about how I let the grape soda prophet slip away into the night…“ As much as he wanted to joke about it, it was the truth. Not a single part of him could just let a girl, any girl, walk home alone while he is there and had absolutely nothing else to do. So his grin cracked a little wider, boyish and bright under the porch lights, but even with the jokes, there was something honest sitting just underneath the words… about how maybe he was buying just a little more time before facing the stillness he knew was waiting at home. ”I can only hope this time you know where we need to go,“ he quickly added, throwing a hoodie hood over his head as he once again glanced at her with a grin.


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Summer before junior year

Tabitha loved the summer. Not in a soft, poolside, “hot girl with her iced coffee” kind of way. More like the way the heat hit you when you stepped outside, sudden, close, pressing. The way it wrapped around her skin like something that belonged only to her. It left pink on her cheeks, made her collarbones glow, bronzed her until she looked a little wild, like a girl the sun had claimed. The change wasn’t delicate. It was feral in its own quiet way, like something shedding softness for heat. Her hair lightened, her eyes sparked sharper, and she looked less like someone you could mold and more like someone you’d try and fail to hold onto. kind of sun that made you sweat before noon and feel alive by nightfall. It was freedom, plain and simple.

And today? Today was humid. Thick enough to feel in her lungs. The kind of weather that warned you something was coming. Maybe rain. Maybe something else. The sky had been that weird almost green earlier, storm light creeping behind the clouds like it had a secret. She hoped it didn’t break open until later. She’d planned to ride her bike to the diner later for her shift, and if it rained, she was screwed. No backup plan. No parent to call. Not tonight.

She was supposed to be at her dad’s this weekend, but he had other plans, a “grown up night,” he said, which meant another with the faceless date her had been seeing but Tabitha had yet to meet. And her mom was on a good streak. Three months sober and stringing together pizza delivery shifts like she was trying to build a life that meant something. She had the delivery car but they tracked the millage and Tabitha didn’t want to be the reason anything changed for her mom.

So, she filled in the space in between. Late shifts at the diner, long rides with no destination, gas station snacks, red icees with too much syrup, and parties. Tonight’s house belonged to some girl from English class last year, blonde, soft spoken, generally nice. It didn’t matter. The boyfriend was the reason people came. Tabitha had met his type before. Guys who threw parties not for fun but to be known.

The air inside was hotter than it had any right to be. Thick with perfume and cologne, sugar sweet drinks, and whatever beer was spilling on the floors. The music thumped through the drywall, loud enough to feel in her ribs.

Tabitha moved through the house like someone who wasn’t looking to be noticed but wouldn’t flinch if you did. She was wearing a thin gray tank top, and jean shorts that hung low on her hips, the top button undone. Her high tops were scuffed to hell, one lace tied in a knot she couldn’t undo. A flannel, red and black was wrapped around her waist, swinging as she walked. Her hair was still damp from a quick shower but her waves were starting to now curl from the heat and humidity, she had lip liner on and a dark shade of gloss, a winged eyelienr that was most likely smudged now, and her mouth had the faint taste of whatever someone poured her earlier. Sweet. Too sweet. She liked it anyway.

She danced for a while, shoulders loose, smile lazy, the red plastic cup swinging from her fingers like a charm. The music pulsed through the floor, up her legs, into her chest, until her heartbeat synced with the bass. Around her, the air shimmered with sweat and perfume and too much body heat. The girls beside her moved like they practiced in mirrors, flirty, polished, glossy with effort. Summer had kissed them in all the right ways: hair curled or flat-ironed to perfection, tank tops cropped at just the right spot, lip gloss catching the light when they laughed.

Tabitha could float among them when she wanted. And tonight, she let herself. She nodded along to conversations, tossed her head back when they made her laugh, swayed to the rhythm like someone who belonged. She got along with most people. Always had. She had a way of saying just enough, honest but not cruel, funny without trying too hard. People liked her. They just didn’t always know what to make of her.

Because Tabitha wasn’t pretty in the way people were used to. Not in the curated, magazine cover waay that made girls enviable and boys dumb. She was something else entirely.

Her eyes had a weight to them, a gravity that pulled people in before they even realized they’d stepped too close. TYou noticed her in flashes: the cut of her jaw when she was annoyed, the way her lashes caught the light, the wildness in her smile when she let herself stop pretending she didn’t care.

She was the kind of girl you noticed twice.

Once for the sharp edges, sun tanned skin, scabbed knees from wiping out on her bike, shower damp hair curling sllightly at the ends, and a kind of supple defiance in her lips that made everything she said sound like a dare. And again for the softness underneath, the quiet in her voice when she asked if you were okay, the way her laughter spilled out like she wasn’t used to it, the flicker of something tender in her expression when she thought no one was paying attention.

She didn’t move to be seen. She moved like she had something to outrun. And when she laughed, really laughed, you felt like you were in on something rare. Most people didn’t know what to call that kind of beauty. So they called it intense. Or intimidating. Or cool.

But mostly, they just kept looking.

Then it happened. A step. A sound. A sensation. Jesus, she hissed, looking down. Something warm and wet squelched under her sneaker. She froze. Pulled her foot back. Her stomach turned.

She crouched, sighing like someone who knew the universe had a sense of humor, and started unlacing her shoe. It peeled off with a sticky sound she hated. She didn’t look too closely. She didn’t want to know. Someone else’s combination of beer and regret, probably.

Shoes dangling from her fingers, she stood barefoot on the tacky wood floor, resisting the urge to gag. Her other hand still clutched the red cup, though it was almost empty now.

She needed a bathroom. Or at least a sink. Somewhere to rinse the shoes off before her shift at the diner. She’d brought her uniform, folded in her backpack on the handlebars of her bike, just outside. Her boss, Rhonda, wouldn’t care how she looked as long as she made her shift. But Tabitha did. She had a thing about showing up clean, even if everything else in her life wasn’t. Plus, if she looked presentable, her tips were higher.

She turned a corner into a quieter hallway, still stickyfooted and annoyed, when she saw her. The girl was standing stiffly, back against the wall near the kitchen entrance. She looked out of place, like someone had dropped her into the middle of the scene and she hadn’t quite figured out what part to play. Her dress was too sweet, too girly. Her posture was all tension, like she was holding herself in. And her eyes followed a guy walking away, he was laughing at something he said that probably wasn’t funny.

Tabitha didn’t think. She rarely did when it came to moments like this. What an asshat,” she muttered, just loud enough. Tabitha smiled. Crooked. Lopsided. The kind of smile that made people nervous and curious at the same time.

Don’t take this the wrong way,” she said, stepping closer, “you definitely look like your mom dropped you off and said, ‘Be home by eight.’”

There was a beat. She let out a breathy laugh. Take a wrong turn?” Tabitha asked, her tone casual but edged with mischief. She lifted the shoes still dangling from her hand. I did.”

I’ll make you a deal,” Tabitha said, stepping into the low kitchen light. Help me find a bathroom so I can clean this crime scene off my shoes, and I’ll save you from this party. I’ve got extra clothes in my bag, ones that don’t look like you’re about to host a baby shower.”

She gave a lazy salute with her cup, drained the last of it like a dare, then crouched to set it down gently on the floor, like it was something worth saying goodbye to. Tabitha,” she said, sticking out her hand, a half-smirk tugging at her mouth.
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Tabitha stood in the driveway with a cardboard box in her arms, the bottom slightly caving from the weight of her pets things. She got told to leave the pet at her mom’s house for now and bring over at another time. When Rebecca, the new step sister, was ready. Her fingers tapped against the taped seam, the rhythm fast, sharp, impatient.

The sun was already too hot for this early in the morning, baking the blacktop and making everything feel sticky. Her shirt clung to the small of her back, and the box was leaving a faint sweat ring against her chest, but she wasn’t going inside yet. Not yet.

The house was too new. Too beige. Big enough to be impressive, small enough to feel like they’d all be bumping into each other no matter where they went. It had crown molding and a double vanity and one of those kitchen islands people on HGTV got excited about. Her dad kept saying how lucky they were to find it, how “this is a fresh start, Tabs.” As if he knew anything about fresh starts.

He barely knew this woman.

They’d met at some neighborhood clean up thing last summer, bonded over coffee and the fact they had both attended the same college, and now here they were. A house. A family. Just like that.

She hadn’t even told her mom. Not really. Not about this. Her mom wasn’t in a place to hear it, still untangling herself from the fallout of the last episode, still trying to string together more than a week of stability. And if Tabitha dropped this into her lap? That her dad had traded in their old life for a new wife and a Pinterest kitchen? It’d crush her. So, she didn’t.

Now she had siblings. Not real ones. Just… extras. Add-ons. Rebecca and her brother, Devin. They weren’t her brother and sister. They weren’t anything. But they moved like a team, some inside joke always between them, giving her sideways looks when she didn’t laugh at their constant back and forth. It grated. Devin especially, with his too cool indifference and lopsided smile like he knew more than you wanted him to. Rebecca smiling like the cheerleader she is. Too happy, too peepy, too much for Tabs.

She already hated the way her laugh echoed in the kitchen to everyone of her dads jokes like she belonged there. Like she’d always belonged there.

This wasn’t a family. This was a science experiment. Toss all the broken pieces into a mixing bowl and hope it didn’t explode.

She shifted the box in her arms and stepped toward the house, her jaw set. She already knew which room she wanted the one with the big window facing the backyard and the biggest closet. She’d seen it at the walk through and claimed it silently in her mind. If anyone tried to argue, they’d lose. That was her room. She needed a door she could close. A space that felt like hers.

She passed Beck on the front porch. She was sitting on the step, looking through what looked like a make up pouch of only lip smackers.

“You planning to sit there all day?” She asked, squinting down at her.

She rolled her eyes and stepped past her into the house. The AC hit her skin like a slap, but she didn’t stop moving. If she paused, she might scream.

No one had explained how to blend two lives into one hallway. No one had asked her if she wanted to.

Game nights? Family dinners? Matching Christmas pajamas?

Hell. No.

She just wanted her room, her snake, and a door that locked.

That was all she needed.

Tabitha felt the tension coil the second Rebecca pointed up the house and said something about that room to Devin, the one at the end of the hall with the big window and the walk in closet. The one Tabitha had picked out weeks ago in her head. It was hers. She hadn’t said it out loud. She didn’t think she’d need to. But now?

Now Rebecca was eyeing it like she had a claim.

Tabitha shot a look at her dad. He stood there in the driveway with his hands on his hips like he was admiring the siding, pretending not to notice the fuse about to blow.

“Seriously?” she asked him, brows raised. “You’re just gonna—”

He didn’t even flinch. Just gave her a tight little nod, one that said figure it out, like this was some team building activity and not her actual life being bargained over.

Her soon to be step mother was inside somewhere, unpacking pots and pans like they were actually staying. Like this wasn’t temporary. Like this was home.

Fine. If no one was going to fight for her, she’d fight for herself.

She bolted. No warning, no words, just took off, her sneakers slapping against the hardwood as she charged through the front door and down the hallway, a blur of stubborn teenage adrenaline. The box she’d been holding slammed against her hip as she ran, the corners jabbing into her ribs, but she didn’t stop. Her room. Her choice. Her claim.

She skidded to the doorway, already reaching for the light switch with her elbow when, bam.

She didn’t even see Rebecca, but suddenly they were shoulder to shoulder in the narrow frame, wedged awkwardly, neither willing to give an inch. Rebecca must’ve sprinted after her, silent and determined, like it was a race and she’d trained for it.

Tabitha’s breath caught, fury surging before she could stop it. Of course this was happening. Of course this girl thought she could just slip in and split the difference.

But Tabitha wasn’t raised to share scraps. Not space. Not comfort. Not peace.

She pressed her body forward an inch more, stubborn and sharp, her jaw clenched so tight it ached. She wasn’t moving. Not for anything.

This wasn’t just about square footage. It was about everything else she’d been asked to give up. And she wasn’t giving up this too.

Not without a fight.

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Keir blinked. Once, twice, like she was trying to focus a camera that had gone soft around the edges. The girl—Tabitha—was standing there with dirty sneakers dangling from her fingers and a smile that looked like it knew secrets. Keir’s mouth opened, then closed, then opened again like she was a fish gasping for air that wasn’t there.

“I—” she started, then stopped. Her throat felt thick, like she’d swallowed cotton. Or shame. Probably shame. The guy’s words were still ringing in her ears, nun look, sltty outfit, and here was this girl—this barefoot, wild-haired girl—calling him an asshat like it was the most natural thing in the world.

Tabitha’s hand hung in the air between them, waiting. Keir stared at it for a moment too long, like she’d forgotten how handshakes worked. Like she’d forgotten how to be a person who talked to other people without everything feeling like sandpaper against her skin.

“Keir,” she said finally, reaching out. Her palm was still damp with sweat from sitting in that pew, from walking too fast, from standing in this room full of people who all seemed to know something she didn’t. Tabitha’s hand was warm, rough in places, like she spent time outside doing things that mattered. Keir wondered if the girl could tell that Keir’s had ran to this place, practically sprinted . Did her hands feel sweaty? Did the wind mess up her hair too much?

Hopefully not, probably not. But either ways, Keir shouldn’t care, but she did. It just felt too strange. Even when she walked out of church mid prayer, she still could not believe she had done that, same as freshmen year when she had cheated and slept with Emerson, that was not her, this was not her. But wasn’t it? Her mother was right in some way, Keir did have the eyes of the devil, she never thought before putting herself in shxt.

Still, The offer hung between them—bathroom, clean shoes, different clothes. Escape. It sounded too good, too easy. One would think keir Mercer was in a movie. If so, she couldn’t tell if this was a very depressing movie or one of those coming-of-age ones where the girl unravels in slow motion, but it’s lit really pretty, so no one minds watching her fall apart

“You don’t have to—” Keir started, then caught herself. Stop it. Isaac’s voice, clear as anything, cutting through the static in her head. You gotta enjoy being a teen Keir, you’re only young one.

She straightened her shoulders, tried to perform some sort of bravery, the same way she tended to do during cheer bonding practice. “Actually,” she said, and her voice came out steadier than she expected, “yes. Please. This dress is—” She looked down at the navy blue fabric, at the sleeves that felt like they were trying to squeeze the life out of her. “I feel like I’m wearing my own funeral clothes.”

The words surprised her. She hadn’t meant to say that. Hadn’t meant to let anything that honest slip out. But there it was, hanging in the air between them like incense smoke. Heavy and sweet and impossible to take back.

She could hear Isaac laughing somewhere in the back of her mind. Not at her, never at her. Just that warm, golden sound he made when she said something that caught him off guard. When she was brave enough to say what she really meant instead of what she thought people wanted to hear.

There she is, he would have said. There’s my sister.

“So…bathroom?” Keir asked as she turned slowly, scanning the hallway like it might suddenly rearrange itself. The music felt quieter here, muffled by drywall and the thump of too many feet. She walked a few steps ahead, careful not to brush against the couples pressed into doorframes like half-forgotten prayers.

“I think it’s this way,” she murmured, voice barely louder than the house’s heartbeat. She had seen a group of girls walking towards there, and that could only mean one thing, right.


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Rudy

{ Diner / Sophmore Year / with Tabitha }


Rudy pushed the door open with his shoulder, same way he always did, the jingle above barely audible over the low murmur of the guests and the clink of silverware. The diner wasn’t much, really, but it had a certain kind of charm. Fluorescent lights buzzed faintly overhead and the leather booths had that lived in stick to them, especially on humid days. But Rudy liked that, thought it felt honest, like the world wasn’t trying too hard in here. Like the diner didn’t care what you looked like when you walked in. He gave a little chin nod to the guy behind the counter - didn’t know his name, just that he smoked menthols out back and always had the same country station on low. He also didn’t bother to wait for a host. Just made his way to the same booth, second from the end, near the window, with a view of the parking lot that always had one lonely car in it. His booth. Unspoken claim! Only his, okay? Don’t come for it. He slid into the seat with the kind of comfort that only came from repetition. Familiar cracks in the table laminate, a salt shaker that always wobbled. And another familiarity - Tabitha.

She’d been working here long before Rudy started showing up regularly. He didn’t know her, not really. He didn’t know her last name, not where she went after her shift, not even if she liked her job. But he knew her patterns and how she worked around here. He’d seen her dozens of times across the room, floating between booths, laughing with regulars and now she was making his way toward him. He opened his mouth to recite the usual order - eggs, toast, hash browns, coffee with two sugars, no cream, but she beat him to it. ”You’re early,“ she said, already setting the plate down, a knowing smirk playing at the corners of her mouth. Rudy blinked. A slow grin crawled across his face as he leaned an elbow against the table. ”Damn. Am I that predictable?“ ”You’re a wednesday regular now. That’s almost a personality trait.“ He laughed under his breath, rubbing a hand across his jaw. ”Gotta be known for something.“ She placed the plate down, poured his coffee in one smooth motion. He was about to throw out some dumb line just to keep her standing there a little longer, something playful maybe, harmless, but she was already gone, pulled away by the chaos of someone else’s booth. So he ate.

Well… sort of. More like picked at the food in a rhythm, not really tasting it. It wasn’t about the eggs, it wasn’t even about the coffee though it really was bad. No, this place was more about not being anywhere else. Time passed like it always did in places like this… slow. A group of teenagers shuffled in at one point all noisy, knocking over a napkin holder and laughing like the world couldn’t touch them. Rudy kept his head down and just let the warm mug rest between his palms and watched the wind play across the parking lot through the window.

Then he heard it - a sharp voice from a few booths over. Some guy in a suit who thought volume made him important. Rudy didn’t turn to look, but his ears caught every word. Something about the burger. Something about incompetence. Like Tabitha had personally offended him by showing up in his field of vision… Can people just not be polite? What happened to kindness? Eventually she stepped away, heading down the aisle with her expression tight like she was holding something back. She didn’t look at him when she collapsed into the opposite side of the booth with a long exhale. She closed her eyes for a second while Rudy just watched, hands still curled around his mug… waited, wondering if she’d forgotten he was still here. Then she opened them, ”Sht, you’re still here. My bad-“ ”No, no, you’re good!“ Rudy sat up straighter, smiling a little too fast, a little too much. Like he was trying to make up for how shtty the guy before him had been. ”Guy thinks he’s Gordon Ramsay?“ And before he could let her properly respond, he leaned in a bit, lowering his voice just enough to feel like a secret. ”Hey, ever noticed how absolute sht coffee here is?“ He grinned, wide and boyish and a little too proud of himself and took a sip like it proved his point. ” Like… it hurts. But in a comforting way.“


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Tabitha’s feet ached with every step, not the dull kind of tired, but the sharp, needling soreness that shot through her arches each time she shifted her weight. The soles of her shoes were paperthin by now, cracked at the edges, worn soft from too many miles walked between the diner floor and the rest of her life. She needed new ones, knew it every time she limped home at the end of the night but she wasn’t about to touch her car savings. Not for shoes.

She could ask her dad. He’d probably say yes. But that was the problem. Every time he helped, she felt like she owed him something in return, and she knew that that wasn’t how it was supposed to work for most kids. She wasn’t most kids, though. And her mom? Forget it. She was doing better lately, holding down the pizza delivery job, trying, really trying. Actually paying her rent and not spending the money on distractions. Tabitha wouldn’t risk throwing off that balance by asking for anything.

So for now, she leaned against the counter, ankles crossed, scribbling math problems onto her homework with a borrowed pen. In between refills and wipedowns, she worked through equations, her handwriting small and hurried, like she could outrun exhaustion with enough formulas.

The day had been slow. The kind of quiet that made the air in the diner feel still and heavy. She passed the kitchen and swiped a fry from the warming tray, popping it into her mouth before grabbing the half full pot of coffee. It was lukewarm and salty but it kept her moving.

Regulars dotted the booths like usual. The trucker who came in once a week was nursing a bowl of soup and a slice of cherry pie, his cap pulled low over his eyes. He’d park out back, sleep in his cab, and be gone before sunrise. A rhythm she liked , dependable.

Then the door chimed, a soft metallic ding above the frame, and she glanced up.

There he was again. Rudy Maddox. Tall, a little rumpled in that way that looked intentional. He moved through the diner like he belonged nowhere and didn’t mind. Tabitha didn’t know why he came here. Kids their age usually didn’t. But he was starting to become a fixture a Wednesday regular. That had to mean something.

She stopped by his table, her voice laced with a tired kind of humor. “You’re early.”

He leaned back in his seat, eyebrows raised, easy smirk in place. She could already tell he was the kind of guy who noticed things. She didn’t know how she felt about that yet.

“Damn. Am I that predictable?”

“You’re a Wednesday regular now. That’s almost a personality trait.”

“Gotta be known for something.”

She rolled her eyes and pushed off his table, fighting a smile she didn’t have the energy to commit to.

But then table six started in again, some middle aged guy she’d never seen before, arms crossed, tone clipped. His burger was “too pink,” or maybe “not pink enough.” Either way, he looked at her like it was a personal offense. Like she was responsible for his failed Michelin star experience.

She bit the inside of her cheek, tasting blood, and nodded through gritted teeth. She’d get no tip out of this guy, just wasted time and rising blood pressure.

When she finally peeled herself away, she beelined to the back corner of the diner, her booth. It faced the big window overlooking the parking lot and highway, and during the day, the sun poured through like syrup. No one else liked sitting there. But she did. It was warm, and quiet, and felt like hers.

Her fingers curled over the worn leather of the seat, head dipped for just a second, a breath, a reset,before she noticed the sneakers already kicked up under the table.

“Sht,” she muttered, already pulling back. “You’re still here. My bad—”

“No, no, you’re good.” Rudy straightened a little, his smile crooked, soft around the edges. He didn’t look annoyed at all. More like… amused.

She slid into the seat across from him without asking, her body heavy with exhaustion. Tabs snorted. “Yeah. Clearly we’re a five sstar restaurant.”

She smirked, eyes flicking down to the old menu wedged behind the napkin holder. The plastic cover was peeling and smelled vaguely like syrup. Five stars, her *ss. She made a mental note to grab a rag and get to cleaning those when there was a slow time in her shift next time.

Then his voice lowered, conspiratorial. “Hey, ever notice how absolute shit the coffee here is? Like… it hurts. But in a comforting way.”

She let out a laugh, surprised by it. Not big, but real. “That’s because it’s not coffee. It’s just the same pot, reincarnated every shift. Like it’s been boiled down to its darkest trauma.”

She grabbed his mug without asking and took a sip anyway. He wasn’t wrong. It was awful. Burnt and bitter, like someone had scorched dirt and filtered it through a paper towel. But there was something about it. Something that made your shoulders drop a little. Like muscle memory.

For just a second, barely even a breath, she was pulled back.

Back to when she was maybe six, legs swinging under the booth because they couldn’t quite reach the floor, crayons scattered across this same sticky table. Her dad sat across from her, coffee black, paper unfolded in front of him. Her mom across from him, stirring in so much sugar and cream her cup looked like melted ice cream. They never fought loud,not in here, not where people could hear but Tabitha had learned how to read mood in the tightness of voices, the clipped laughs, the space between words. She’d watch the cars scream past on the highway outside and pretend it was the world that was moving, not them.

Now, somehow, she was older than they’d ever seemed.

She looked back at Rudy still there, still leaning back like he had nowhere better to be. Like the cracked vinyl seat didn’t bother him. Like this place didn’t itch under his skin the way it did under hers sometimes.

“Why do you come here?” she asked. Her voice had softened, lost its edge. It wasn’t suspicious or defensive. Just curious.

Because she was starting to think maybe they came here for the same reason, not for the food, definitely not for the coffee but because something about this place let you breathe when the rest of the world felt too loud, too heavy, too much.

She knew she should get back to work. Knew she probably already had tables waiting. But when she looked up, she saw Steph, her coworker with the glittery nails and alwayschewed gum, handling the situation at table six. Looked like she comped the guy a slice of pie to go, too. Smart. Tabitha was glad she’d walked away before she said something that couldn’t be unsaid. That kind of self control didn’t always come easy, but she was working on it.

Besides, Roy and Rhonda wouldn’t have given her hell over it. They owned the place. Had since the ‘80s, when they were young and it was shiny and new. Not much had changed since. Still the same pastel walls and laminated menus. Same counter stools that creaked when you turned too fast. They treated Tabitha like one of their own called her “kid” and trusted her to lock up some nights. She even babysat their grandkids when they were in town. But still.

She glanced down at herself and felt the low thrum of embarrassment rise in her chest.

The uniform was a nightmare, bright pink with a starchy collar, itchy fabric, and a hem she’d had to pin up herself. Her name tag was crooked. It read “Tabitha” in fading script, and underneath, “Happy to meet you!” as if a slogan could make the whole thing less sad.

Her hair was up in a messy bun that had started cute this morning and wilted into chaos by mid afternoon. She was pretty sure her makeup had melted off by hour five. And here she was, sitting across from a boy she barely knew but couldn’t stop thinking about, suddenly aware of every inch of herself.

Still, she didn’t move.

Because the coffee was bad. But the company wasn’t.
@astxrism

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Lizzy

⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊ 1st January, 2005 New Years Party ₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹

Things haven’t been quite the same,
There’s a haze on the horizon, babe,

Just as Lizzy started walking, and began wondering the state she will arrive to her mom in - how reminiscent it will be of the girl they had helped - she felt the unexpected, but comforting weight of a jacket on her shoulders. Rudy reappeared at her side, “You don’t—” She started, but he had already stepped away and insisted no arguments, preventing Lizzy from doing exactly that. And after a moment she felt grateful she wasn’t given the chance to, as the shivering that had crept into Lizzy began to settle. How had she been doing this before without a jacket?? “Thank you,” She said quietly as she slipped her arms into the sleeves.

“Oh, I see,” Lizzy started, nodding as her hands instinctively landed in the oversized jacket pockets. She pulled out the slightly crumpled pack of gum that her fingers had brushed, other hand covering her mouth. “Was this your way of trying to tell me something?” She queried, mostly joking… but with a partial panic of her breath actually needing intervention, suddenly recounting the party snacks that were probably days old, and the hours spent hovering around a retching Katie. “Actually maybe don’t answer that, I don’t think I want to know,” She said, a small laugh escaping as she looked away from him.

Before Lizzy could say otherwise, Rudy began justifying his walking her home, and a smile crept on her face as he began using her own suggestion of midnight joggers against her. “Well, yeah, if they can go around exchanging formal words, there’s no telling what they’re capable of,” Lizzy responded, her voice lowering to a whisper as if to prevent the supposed night prowlers from overhearing. Then she shrugged in consideration of this vision he was sharing - “I don’t know, though, this town’s never really been the setting for a murder mystery,” She said, using air quotes on the last phrase. Regardless, she nodded along as he recounted the sequence of horrible events that could occur if he was to leave her to walk alone. “Well I wouldn’t want to be a burden on your conscience,” Lizzy said softly, in acceptance of him helping her get home. She finally met his gaze as she said that, and for a moment she didn’t know what to say, caught between gratitude and… something else.

“But I think you’re underestimating the abilities of this grape soda prophet,” Lizzy eventually blurted out, before flexing her non-existent arm muscles in front of her. “I totally could have, you know, taken on those joggers,” She explained, almost convincingly. “Really, I don’t think you had anything to worry about,” Lizzy told him through a small laugh, dropping her arms at her sides again.

⊹₊ ˚‧︵‿₊୨୧₊‿︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹

@astxrism

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always the same story.

He climbed through the window like he always did.

Second story. Shitty old trellis, with vines that pricked him. Two cracked slats and a chipped brick where he always put his foot. He knew which parts of the gutter creaked, which branches of the tree gave him just enough leverage to haul himself up without waking the neighbors. She used to tease him for it. Said one day he’d fall and break his neck and she’d have to lie to the cops about it.

He used to laugh.

Tonight, he didn’t.

The window was already cracked open. A silent invitation. Or maybe a trap. With her, it was always both.

Emerson landed with a soft thud on her bedroom floor, crouching for a second to catch his breath. His hoodie was damp from the late October rain. His palms were scratched. His left knee hurt.

She was on the bed, back to him, legs pulled to her chest, fingers twisting the frayed hem of a sweatshirt he was pretty sure used to be his. The room smelled like cheap vanilla candles and weed and whatever body spray was popular. The fan was humming. Her Dell laptop was open but dim, the MySpace music player blasting mid-song.

He didn’t say anything at first.

Just watched her.

Watched her breathing. Watched the way her shoulders rose and fell, tense and sharp like she was pretending not to wait for him. Her phone - a scratched-up pink Motorola Razr - was lit up on the nightstand with his last text still glowing on the screen:

E.
“Coming. Don’t lock the window.”

“Your mom home?” he asked finally, voice low, cracking in places he didn’t mean it to.

She didn’t turn. Just said, “Gone until tomorrow. Conference in god knows where.”

“Cool.”

He kicked off his shoes, peeled off his hoodie, and dropped onto the mattress beside her. She still didn’t look at him. Just passed him the half-smoked blunt resting in the ashtray on the windowsill. He took it without a word. Lit it. Inhaled like it might quiet whatever was clawing in his head.

“You’re late,” she murmured.

“You’re mad.”

“I’m not.”

“You are.”

Silence.

Then: “You kissed her.”

Ah.

There it was.

Emerson exhaled, the smoke catching in his throat. “It wasn’t-”

“Don’t.” She turned finally, eyes glassy, lips tight. “Don’t f*cking lie.”

He didn’t.

Because he couldn’t.

She sat up, knees brushing his. Her mascara was smudged. Her hair was a mess. Her hands were shaking in that way they always did when she was holding something in.

“I waited,” she said quietly. “I waited all night, Em. While you were off- god, I don’t even know where - with that girl who looks like she shops at Claire’s and thinks eyeliner counts as a personality.”

“She kissed me.”

“Bullshit.”

“I didn’t kiss back.”

“Double bullshit.”

He flinched. It wasn’t the words. It was the way she said them… like she was choking on the truth and spitting it at him anyway.

“I left,” he snapped. “I left the party. I came here.”

“Yeah? After three hours of ignoring my calls.”

“I had like one bar.”

Emerson.

His name was a knife in her mouth.

They stared at each other, breathless and stupid and seventeen. Every inch of space between them vibrating with things they’d never say the right way.

Then she was kissing him.

Hard.

Punishing.

Like she wanted to eat the lie off his tongue.

He kissed back like it might erase the last four hours.

Hands tangled in each other’s shirts. Knees digging into the mattress. Teeth clashing. Fingernails raking down arms and necks and whatever else they could reach. It wasn’t sweet. It wasn’t soft. It never was with them.

They collapsed in a tangle of limbs and breath and barely muffled moans, the music player kicking back in at the worst possible time… something dark and drugged…

Emerson pulled back just enough to whisper, “You ruin me.”

She stared at him like he was a ghost.

“You were already ruined.”

And she wasn’t wrong.

Later, they’d be wrapped around each other under her bedsheets… sweaty, spent, too tired to argue, too scared to sleep. Emerson would watch the smoke curl toward the ceiling and wonder if this was what drowning felt like.

The flip phone buzzed once on the floor, out of reach.

Neither of them checked it.

Neither of them moved.

@Kristi

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