I smiled at her. “yes I am. I mean I’ve never been…” I pause for a minute as I think of the right words. “I’ve never been out of Texas before now, and being in a new place where you don’t know anyone and don’t really like talking to people first is kinda hard.” I admit to her a little self conscious. “are your parents hard on you?” I ask actually curious. I mean my mom didn’t really care too much for my brother and I since she had Diego. I mean like she was happy we got these scholarships and shipped off to school.
I listened as she talked. My mind started racing. What is she talking about I “can step into the photo and see how unsuitable I am” That is so rude. Why would you even say that to someone. I just decide to keep a smile on my face and not let her know how that hurt my feelings. I didn’t even get a chance to respond before she said “shall we.” I followed her into the doors. “Thanks.” I said as we walked through the doors. “care to sit with me? I mean we can talk still then till she speaks.” I look at her for her response. Truth be told… I’ve always thought she was beautiful. However I always felt out of her league. “You do know I stay behind the camera for a reason right? Like I take the pictures because I don’t like to be in them.” I said as I wait for her to talk.
I smiled at him as we reached the doors. “Yeah dude, but at least we are stuck here together, and hey we will get to Cali together.” I chuckle as I think about the first thing he said. “and of course you’ll get me some hot girl followers. They will just love your face dude.”
I listened as she talked. I smiled and nodded at her. I waited for her to finish before responding. “Well, to be honest, it was a crazy twist for sure. However my sister knew they were kinda dating so I wasn’t sure why she was so upset.” I let out a giggle. I mean her friend was hot. If I wasn’t so much younger I would try to get with her. “yes family can be trying, and difficult. However in the end family is all you got right?” I look over and smile at her. Now the last part was gonna be a little tougher for me but I thought for a moment before touching that part. “it is interesting and crazy how everyone navigates their relationships. I mean there are reasoning behind me being a lesbian. I just never talk about them to be honest. I mean I’m an out and proud lesbian, but I honestly don’t think that anyone knows what caused me to be that way or why I am. Some say it’s just the way you’re born, but honestly… for some it is that, and for others things happen that push them into a sexuality. Or at least that’s what happened to me.” I say as I shrug and try not to think about what happened. I hadn’t found anyone I could trust to tell them the story yet. However maybe. Just maybe I could trust Aria.
@Jass -Aria
As I listened to him talk I started to feel a little relaxed. I actually even think that I cracked a little smile for him. I never felt that way around a guy to be honest. I’ve always been scared and frightened to talk to or even be around a guy. Owen was definitely different though. I wasn’t sure what it was about him, but I almost felt safe when I was with him. I’ve never felt that before a day in my life. Especially not back home in Michigan. I zoned out thinking about Michigan and the things that happened. I didn’t even have friends there. I wasn’t allowed to talk to anyone unless my dad said I could. I wasn’t even allowed out the house except to go places he wanted me to go. That house. That place. It felt like… it felt like a death sentence. As I stood in front of Owen thinking all of this; I just hoped the fear wasn’t showing in my eyes. Usually when I think about it all people could see the fear in my eyes. My dad would get so mad at me about that. That he would hit me. I then got very cautious of where I was and stuff and snapped out of it. I shook my head to get the thoughts out. I then began to speak “it is a unique part of the sport. I mean you tackle people in football though.” I let out a little giggle. Then quickly stopped myself. I wasn’t allowed to laugh back home. “the talking later thing. It sounds wonderful to be honest. It’s just that…” I sigh… Why did I feel the need to tell him. Like how could I possible be safe enough to tell anyone about my life back home. How could I even consider telling someone. Why did I feel safe with him. Could he really protect me? Could he help me in anyway? “Well do you have to go now? I mean… She isn’t starting her speech just yet is she?” I asked as I didn’t want this conversation to end yet. I honestly wanted to sneak off and have some alone, one on one time with Owen. It’s the same speech we hear every year. It’s not like she was gonna say anything different. I couldn’t ask him to ditch it. Could I? I mean would he? No, he wouldn’t want to be alone with someone like me. I thought as I said what I said. Then I decided to just say it. “can’t we just ditch it? I mean it’s the same speech every year.” I looked down at the ground but smiled slightly.
@Jass -Owen