Lmao me
Any updates @fcukforcookies?
#839
I feel so lonely in the Shannii Writes Discord server. Everyone has their own friends and Iβm just there.
Oof feel free to tag me any time if you want a conversation I know how fast things move on there
#841
Someone in the comment section on YouTube commented about how they were being bullied, and I felt bad for them. Then I read the replies to that comment, bc I like to read the replies to most comments. One person replied βF*ck that b*tch...β (They were referring to the person bullying the person who made the comment about being bullied) and I laughed. Am I mean for laughing at that reply? I feel like that wasnβt very nice of me. Even if they were referring to a bully.
some major overthinking here
#842
This is very controversial so I apologize in advance.
I often find myself hating myself for my race and appearance. I am the only one of my friend group with my type of appearance, and my friends parents will often not allow me to hang out after school with them because of my race.
I know it is not a popular opinion but I often find myself upset as I am labelled a b*tch, dumb, a brat and racist, when in reality i am far from it. When I ask these people why they label me as this the only reason I am ever given is that Iβm a skinny, Caucasian, blonde.
I know many people would/will disagree with this, and possibly be offended, but due to how controversial this is, i figured the only way to get it off my chest was though an anonymous confession. (Disclaimer i have nothing against anyone, this is just my personal experience.)
I donβt see it as mean
#843
So, thereβs this popular kid at my school and whenever he passes by me with his group of friends, heβs like "Oh, look a sparrow". I get things like these a lot because of my short height. So, i tried to ignore it.
But it kept happening. One day when i was heading towards the canteen, he glanced at me and out of the blue he said "You Mother******" and walked away.
I just donβt get it, we never talked to each other, i donβt know this person, he doesnβt know me. I just have no idea why heβs behaving like that.
#845
My best friend and I arenβt friends anymore which hurts even worse because Iβm in love with him LMAO! Iβm dead inside ;)
What an odd person
#847
Iβm sick of always being blamed for when things go wrong itβs never the "plan" they came up with but my "execution" I donβt know how to tell any of my family because for all my life our relationships have been silly. A joke here and there, all smiles and laughter. I want to tell people around me about it but how can I When for so many years Iβve just made a joke and laughed about the situations, I pretend to forget but it still remains at the back of the mind. Random people on the internet have come to know me better than my own mom or dad, and I canβt find a way to do anything about it... I just get so annoyed with everything they say, maybe itβs hormones maybe itβs because I have no release, because we lived like quarantine before quarantine. My only release is a tiny electronic device that holds all my friends. I donβt want to tell them because they all have their own problems. Iβm sick of caring about their words and slowly I donβt even care about what they say. But there are moments when I canβt handle it anymore, because even if I say I hate them I know deep down there is no way for me to hate them. I just feel as if they canβt listen and itβs because we have no bond, I donβt know how to build a bond because they donβt know me, and I canβt let them know **me** because Iβve always been the positive happy go lucky. When I expressed myself once to my brother he snapped at me. In anger I said I hate my mother and my father but I didnβt really mean it like I HATE them. I hated them in that moment but I could never fully hate them, because as I put earlier their will always be a part of me that lives them and takes every word they say to heart. Sometimes I had wished them dead, but I knew I would never be able to fully mean that. My heart would break if anything of that nature happened, but I just feel when they get annoyed and say I messed it all up that it would be best for me to just die. Iβve often thought about snapping back with that remark just to shut them up but I have zero confidence. Rarely I wish I was dead just to spite them, to tell them off for everything. I know that I would never be able to though, as much as I would like to shut them up to make them feel awful. To take a dig when they canβt respond. To call them out about everything. However I would never be able to, because Iβm afraid. Far more afraid of physical pain than emotional, I wouldnβt be able to do that to the few people I cherish. I just put this hear so at least one person would listen :) just a few more years and I can leave!
#848
I feel so discouraged right now. An idea Iβve working on for so long got put down because without sudden warning I was told it wouldnβt work for the demographic it was geared to. I feel so sapped and unmotivated.
This is why I suggest doing research about the demographic before you do anything
Then change it
Everyone during quarantine be like
Iβll be your friend then anonymous person
Bag, I know a lot of people who would laugh at stuff like that
Shouldnβt you be at home/in quarantine right now?
Pm me then Iβm an awkward duckling so I tend to not pm people first
Thatβs a huge age gap I hope you were still happy in your relationship
Did you try writing them a letter if you canβt confront them directly about it?
Aw, that must feel terrible, Iβm sorry this happened to you