What If? - Jezebel never dated Mikel
Part 1
Senior prom, a night of fun, dancing, romance, and for Cerulean high the presence of the race to win Blue Royalty. Though for Jezebel, prom would become nothing she would have expected going into the night, even further beyond what she would have imagined prom to be even a couple of months prior. She was standing all alone at prom, not even sure how well she was going to do with completing her tasks. After all, she had other things on her mind, as well as continually reminding herself not to drink the punch that someone had probably spiked. However Jezebel, feeling increasingly more alone amongst the senior class, saw something that took her focus away from everything on her mind. No, not something, someone. First just a glimpse of him among the crowd, but then he was on stage to perform. Jordan Williams. Seeing him in person, all she felt was butterflies. Even after two whole years, just his smile was enough to make her melt. Though that moment was soon interrupted by Daniel coming over to her and not just revealing that Jordan would be staying, but also threatening her to stay out of things with Jordan. Coming face to face with Daniel was a lot. Jezebel needed some space, some fresh air, so she made her way outside, and soon enough a friendly face met her eyes, and she couldn’t avoid a slight smile. “Hey Tinkerbell.” The sound of Jordan’s voice, her smile only grew. She could still barely believe that he was there, not just a dream. It had been so long since she had actually seen him face to face. Two years, not since they had broken up, not since before everything had happened. After a few moments, he stood in front of her, telling her that he hadn’t stopped thinking about her, and asking to know if she felt the same. The breakup had broken her heart, before it broke even further, but standing there looking at the man she had been so hopelessly in love with so long ago, it felt as though not even a moment had passed. There Jezebel was, two years later, still head over heels in love with Jordan Williams. In that moment, there was no doubt. None of the doubt Jezebel had in herself mattered, nothing outside of that moment mattered as she closed the distance and for the first time in a long time kissed Jordan.
Daniel Parker, someone who had been Jezebel’s best friend for so many years, but now… now he was someone who hurt her more than most. She knew she had hurt him by keeping the truth about who her father was from him. She knew she should’ve never kept it from him like she did, and she should have never trusted her mother or tried to make her mother care about her, but she couldn’t change the past. She screwed up, and she felt like she no longer had any family left in the world. When she left the Parker residence after the ambush Daniel had planned, she didn’t know what she would do, or where she would even go, but then someone came to her rescue. The one person who could comfort her with just a smile, Jordan. It had been just a couple days since she had seen him at prom, but there had been so much to happen in that time. A funeral for a friend, everything with Daniel, and… everything with her mom… With all that had gone on, the pair hadn’t really had much of a chance to really talk. To talk about everything since they had been together, or even for her to tell him what was going on.
Jezebel looked to Jordan, still crying with the box of stuff from Daniel in her hands and a bag over her shoulder. She wasn’t alright in any way, but Jordan took the box from her hands to pull her into a hug, and she just wanted to stay there forever. For a second, it was a distraction from the world that seemed to be falling apart around her. It was at that point that Jordan put his jacket around her and led her to get in the passenger side of his car before having grabbed the box from Daniel’s. Jordan didn’t even have to ask to know that she wouldn’t want to go home, if she even could, and brought her to his place for some hot chocolate and ice cream to help her feel better. With some sugar in her system and Jordan there comforting her, she told him what had happened earlier that night with Daniel, though it wasn’t all that was troubling her.
Jezebel was exhausted in every way, but that didn’t make her sleep any less restless. She had no idea how long it had been, or even that while she was asleep Jordan had gone to talk to Dan. A nightmare, one with far too many connections to reality to dismiss as just that. In her sleep, she couldn’t escape her overwhelming fears. That is, until she woke up to Jordan checking on her because she was crying. No matter how tired she was, being awake didn’t lessen her crying, which only made it harder to possibly sleep. Jezebel pulled him close, letting out a quiet “I need you” between sobs. The one thing she could do was say what she hadn’t told Jordan earlier. The bag she had brought with her, with the box from Dan’s, wasn’t part of it. It was a bag she had tossed just a few things into before that dinner. Simply a clean shirt, a toothbrush, her diary, and a couple other little things. Just the bare minimum she needed that she could grab before running out of her house for the last time. “I… I can’t go home…” When Jordan picked her up as she walked from Daniel’s, she didn’t know what to do, she just knew she couldn’t go home. Really, she didn’t have anywhere she could go. “My mom… We got into a fight, and she… she kicked me out…” The day began with the funeral for Candice, but soon after she had gotten home came the worst fight with her mother she had ever had, which led to her mother kicking her out, all followed by Daniel himself that night.
“Hey… hey… shh” Jordan said, rubbing her back, then kissed her forehead. “What… happened Jez? I know things can get tense between… you two sometimes but…” Jordan paused, he knew well, better than most how her relationship with her mother could be, but this time, there was no going back. The fragile relationship between Jezebel and her mom had finally broken too far for Jezebel to even try to hold the pieces together. “You don’t… have to tell me anything Tink… but you know I’m here for you right? Just like you were there for me that day in the park… you’ll always…” he paused, taking the time to cup her face, and look her in the eyes. “Always have a home here.”
Jezebel looked at Jordan, her eyes full of tears. “Thank you, Jordan.” Jordan being there for her, and saying she would always have a home there, like how she was there for him that day in the park years earlier, meant so much. She appreciated him being there more than anything. “Jez… you never… ever have to thank me.” Jordan whispered.
Jezebel didn’t want to burden Jordan with her problems, but she would have told him soon anyway and she needed the comfort. She stopped, looking down for a moment, taking a deep breath before bringing her eyes back to meet his. “This time was different… it won’t get better between us… Because I’m pregnant…” she answered as to why her mother kicked her out, only crying even harder as she continued. “And she said I shouldn’t keep it… it would be a mistake, like she made with me.” She was scared. She felt alone, she didn’t know what to do, and she was terrified she couldn’t take care of herself and the baby, especially with the memory of being pregnant two years earlier fresh on her mind, and everything her mother had said to her made it all worse.
Jezebel knew the news would be a shock to Jordan. It was still a lot for her, so it must have been that much more for him to process. He had just come back, and they hadn’t even had the chance to really figure out where things really stood between them, and there she was pregnant with another man’s baby. He could have reacted in any number of ways imaginable, but he was as comforting as someone could be, because that’s the kind of person Jordan would always be. He wiped her tears, listening to her, resting his forehead against hers. “Jezebel Sloane… don’t ever… ever think that… you are the farthest thing from a mistake.” She had spent so long, feeling like her mother’s mistake, like a reminder of her grandparents’ disappointment in her mother, but there Jordan was, placing his hand on hers, telling her she would never be a mistake. “That day you found me in the park… I was… Jez I was starving… I was…without you, Jezebel Sloane… I don’t think I would have survived past that day.” Jezebel held his hand, her grip growing slightly tighter, not even knowing what to say, as he spoke and took a deep breath after telling her something so serious. “Because of you, I’m here Jezebel. So you are the furthest thing from a mistake and this baby… no matter where he or she came from… has you as a mother. And no child of yours could ever be a mistake because you, Tink, you created it.” He kissed her cheek and smiled then hugged her. “And if you think you’re alone in this, Jezebel, you’re absolutely crazy because you can never… get rid of me”
Jordan’s words brought a small smile to her face, despite her tears. She held him closer, feeling cared about in a way she hadn’t been in a while, feeling safe, and he even said she wasn’t alone. She had felt so alone, but with Jordan she wasn’t. “I don’t know what I would do without you. I’d never get rid of you even if I could.” She held Jordan close, taking in the comfort he provided, before trying to wipe her eyes. “I’m just scared… I don’t know what to do…” she admitted, though Jordan most likely could tell without her even saying it.
“I guess then… that it’s a good thing you don’t ever have to find out,” he said, taking a deep breath. “It’s not something you’re going to figure out in a night Jezebel… especially not a night like tonight. But look, Jez, it doesn’t matter what you choose. Whatever choice you make, no one is going to turn their back on you. I’m not going to turn my back on you.”
There was very little that Jezebel was certain of at that time. What she did know was that Jordan had done so much for her that night. That day in the park, he had nothing and she was there for him, to be what he needed. Then in that moment, at a time where she had nothing, there he was to be everything she needed. He took care of her, and so much more.
That one night, just before the end of winter break, Jezebel hooked up with Mikel, and it just so happened that she had gotten pregnant because of it. She wasn’t interested in Mikel, all he had really been was the guy she kissed at that first party just to complete a task, even if he was going to be the father of her child. She didn’t want to be in a relationship with Mikel, she just needed him to know about the baby, and for the baby to know about him. She needed Jordan. She wanted to be with him, even if her child wasn’t his.
@benitz786 - Jordan, and Dan also mentioned
@Madilfill - Mikel mentioned at the end too