In real life, Andy had his share of good luck at some point in his life, it lasted for a while, and then it slowly started fading along with the dying breaths of his beloved wife. Kaya on the other hand, was his life, she was the lighthouse in the dark to guide him away from falling apart. She kept him alive, she kept him sane, she was his rock. And every day holding that little kid in his arms, he just sat there and felt grateful, because without her he wouldn’t have made it this far, at least not like this.
But there was a thing about Andy’s life, even when he was happy, he knew that sooner or later it will all get ruined somehow. He just never thought it would happen now, please just not now.
It was worse than the heaviness he felt in his heart the day all these years ago where Ziah died, it was worse than the day Jessica got stabbed, it was worse than all of them, because this time, she was a part of him, blood of his own. And in the middle of a normal day, he felt like a knife pierced his heart, something was wrong.
You know the way twins feel each other’s pain, they feel when something’s wrong, and when one of them dies the other one is just half a person forever? Well, they may not be twins, but Andy and Kaya shared the exact same connection, on certain levels, not always. But this time, he just knew something was wrong with her.
Call, try again, voice mail, straight to voice mail. If there was a worse time not to answer the phone, he’d pick it over this one, but there wasn’t, he just didn’t know how much that was true.
Turns out he was right after all, who would have thought he’d lose her this soon? Was he cursed? Probably. He managed to get through the deaths of his closest people, from his dad to his wife to whatnot, but now? Now he was just all alone. None of it mattered, his heart was just broken to a million little pieces that could never be connected again. This was it, the last straw to break him. The light behind his eyes was lost, forever.
Too bad Jessica never got to meet her. If she was here, it all would have been better, even now, he wouldn’t have been so alone.
Ah did I forget to mention? Remember the day she got stabbed? Well… let’s just say she didn’t make it to the next one.
She was and always be a huge part of Andy’s heart, his nugget, but when she’s not here… it’s not the same. Not her, not Ziah… who was there for him anymore in this world? Anyone he ever got close to just ended up dead. Until now, he just pushed through so Kaya was happy, but now… there was no point, there was no Kaya.
Turns out “America’s bad boy” wasn’t just a figure in a bad dream, turns out life actually kicked him all the way down, to a place where he no longer cared, to a place where the worst of things were the ones to give him life. Drugs, alcohol, anything. Anything to make him feel alive again, something to numb the pain, something to stop the numbness. Nothing but a shell of a broken man. Guess Daniel was right when he said nothing could come out of him but trouble wasn’t he?
There was just a single broken Andy, at the verge of his greatest downfall. And the way down is long as hell.
@benitz786 Jess and Dan mentioned
@Littlefeets Ziah mentioned