Jess looked in his eyes as she finished her words. It wasn’t the first time she had… in a way broken up with someone. Though Jessica’s relationships didn’t usually go past a couple of dates so breaking up wasn’t usual for her. Perhaps it was self-sabotage - dating people that Jessica knew it would never work out with. Hell; she had only slept with three men in her life. All three of them she hadn’t dated. Mikel, to who she had lost her virginity to had been a friend she went to the night of her disappearance just wanting all of the hurt to… go away. Which then turned into a casual thing; something she quite enjoyed actually. Theodore who was… an accident. In every way. And then Dorian… who… as of right now was a mistake… though one she almost didn’t regret. Women were a different story. She had a few more relationships with females that she felt something for; but again - pushed herself away from them before it ever got too close to. Three men; none which she had any potential with and that made Jessica feel safe. Distance was protection against any hurt that could happen and it was something that stuck with her.
So out of her countless dates with men she knew it would never work out with had she been dating Kai so long? Honestly, he was likely her longest actual relationship and she did like him. There was something about him just… beneath the surface that she craved to see more of. That she enjoyed. And she hadn’t yet self-sabotaged it. Though, in retrospect, she didn’t need to… something blatantly clear with his next words.
“I’m sorry about the other night. Something came up, and that’s no excuse for what I did.”
A soft sigh left her lips as she folded her hands across her chest - listening to his words. Part of her wanted to forgive him but another part, a part that held more authority over her than her heart - her brain - was holding back. And she was almost glad she did as he continued. “We’re good if you go out with me after we leave here…”
“We’re good?” Her mind went to those words as she raised an eyebrow. He truly had steamrolled over everything she just said and told her that they’re good. Right; because after spending the last 40 seconds explaining why they weren’t good; a half-assed apology without even a semblance of explaining what happened and a we’re good was going to cut it? Well Kai Azure; I’m not sure if anything surprises you but this will. And his sentence after the we’re good only got worse. Stating if she’ll go out with him but following it up with a confident after we leave here - almost like he expected her answer to be yes. What the hell.
At that point; Jessica had just closed her eyes and tried to tune him out as he said something about food trucks and ice cream which she could only guess was his way of finishing the half-assed excuse she was given. But that was the problem. As much as she enjoyed her time with Kai when he was being real with her. When he was dancing with the little girl; or responding to something she said that surprised him. It couldn’t compare to the uncertainty she felt every time he pushed her away leaving her with nothing but a piece of bs thing he called an explanation - which was usually an “I can’t talk about it” colored with flowery verbage.
“You know…” Jess smiled; opening her eyes to meet his eyes to meet his once again. “Give me a second,” Jess started - looking around the room until she saw a girl she recognized - walking over to her and asking the girl to come with her. “Kai, this is Tina, Tina this is the guy I heard you talking about in the bathroom that one time the one you thought was cute,” Jess smiled; seeing the girl blush ever so slightly. “So Tina; Kai’s free after the fashion show if you want to go get some ice cream with him? What do you say?” Jessica asked, “I’ll leave you two to talk,” she finished - giving one last look towards Kai which basically said - “We’re done; don’t follow me,” and walked away - back towards where the models were gathering; thankfully guarded. So Jess gave her name and walked through to the back of the room. Out of sight; out of mind right?
@Littlefeets - you done f*cked up