The fact that Valerie did want to have that talk didn’t mean she was going to put a nice face for someone who managed to hurt her more than a lot of people in her life have, and she wasn’t going to just wipe that like nothing. There’s a difference between being hurt by just anyone, to being hurt by someone you actually cared about. In that second option, it hurt hell of a lot more. And for quite a long time, Valerie did care about the girl walking around the room in attempts of explaining her sh!tty behaviour. She cared a lot, even too much…
The way Anna admitted to using Valerie as a tool to hurt Jessica, a means to an end, like she was a bloody toy, well… It hurt. And frankly it made it a whole lot harder to believe it when she told her she did in fact start caring at some point, and even fell in love with her. It was hard to believe, it made no sense to her how you use and hurt someone you love just so you can achieve your questionable vengeful goals. That’s not what care is. Hell, this isn’t how love works.
But as Valerie watched her and listened, she could sense the honesty in her words, the same painful honesty she felt from her back in the lock in. “God Valerie… I didn’t think I’d ever see you again and it just… hurt too much to say goodbye. Do you get that; how much that hurt for me?” She remembered it, and frankly, now that she knew the whole story, it hit so damn different.
Valerie looked away slightly biting her lip with a barely noticeable sigh as the girl apologised for her past behaviour, could she really forgive her just like that? This wasn’t another Delilah, because frankly she had no legit acceptable reason for her ongoing resentment against the girl, but it was just there. Anna on the other hand… well, she actually acted to deserve it. But at the same time she seemed to have changed in a way, and Jessica seemed to forgive her but that wasn’t really surprising at all, though… Valerie just didn’t know.
“I want to forgive you, I really do…” she admitted, which was honestly true. As being with Daniel, as well as growing closer with Jess, Anna was going to stay a part of her life whether she liked it or not. “But it’s not that easy. I appreciate your apology and I really wish I could just put it all aside like nothing ever happened, but I can’t do that. You really bloody hurt me Anna, It’s not just the idea of being played with and ditched time after time, it was worse than that, because at the end of the day I found myself catching feelings for a person that never existed. It wasn’t really you, and it wasn’t Jessica either. That just hurts like a b!tch” she admitted, letting her know what she felt and just why she couldn’t put it all behind them "I just need time I suppose… "
@benitz786 Annd Jess and Dan mentioned
@novella Delilah mentioned oop