I got shocked at first, but then realized what he meant. He meant to say he forced it to happen, and it didn’t happen instantly. “Well I could also turn myself if I tried to make myself angry or way way too excited, but I never tried turning myself on purpose knowing wherever I turn nobody around will be safe and with the strenght and speed I gain from it nobody is safe and I would never try turning on purpose. I have night terrors whenever I turn just from imagining all the terrible things I could’ve done while in the form, so no, I never took the time to learn if I can turn by myself.” I looked away saddened, but a thought occured to me and I mutter to myself “overly excited” as those words heavily influenced my train of thought and suddenly, only a bit excited I turned to Asa “Brother, do you think consuming drugs would make us turn quicker? Maybe if we take drugs in a safe enviorment we could see the effect of it on us, plus learn a lot more about ourselves.”