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What If? - Jezebel never met Jordan

Such a strange world…

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She had to do everything perfectly.

Anything less than perfection was unacceptable…

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Jezebel needed some form of affection, she needed to know people liked her. She had to be the nice, smart, interesting, popular girl. She needed everyone to know her, to like her. Whatever it took, she needed the attention, because that was as close as she could get to the feeling of being cared about, the feeling that she craved.

She neeeded Dan in her life…
Then Jordan was supposed to help show her what love really was

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Even if it wasn’t real, Jezebel could feel wanted. She had the looks, the people, and even the titles. The title of homecoming queen in her junior year, and of course prom queen as a senior. She had everything a high school girl could want, but it still wasn’t enough to earn her mother’s approval.

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When she graduated, for once Jezebel made a decision knowing it wouldn’t meet the approval of her family. She didn’t want to go to medical school and become a surgeon like her grandparents. She wanted something different, settling on graphic design, with some marketing as well.

She needed to take a risk for herself for once

Though, even she probably ended up telling herself that it was a mistake and she should’ve done what her family wanted…

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Her mother would say cruel things and wouldn’t always be there for her, but it was fine. Her mother loved her, right? Her past boyfriends, even toxic, said they loved her, so it was fine, right?

Even the toxic boyfriends at least said the words her mother wouldn’t

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Everything he would say in those moments of passionate anger would hurt, just like in the way her mother’s words would hurt her.

He said a lot of the same things to her that her mother did…

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Then, when the fight was over, when he calmed down, he would go back to Jezebel and say every apology he could

He at least apologized to Jez… her mom never did that…

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She always did something wrong, and she had the bruises to prove it. It started off as he would sometimes grab her arm too tight, but then came the first time he hit her, and that first time was far from the last. When he was upset, she became something for him to take it out on. If she had so much as a hair out of place compared to what Ryan wanted on anything, the physical pain was as harsh as the emotional pain.

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“Oh it’s nothing. I’m just a bit of a klutz with a knack for getting myself hurt really.” Jezebel said in a nonchalant manner, as if saying it like it was true would make it fully true.

She got so used to making those excuses… she started to believe them herself…

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This man she had just met had done more to protect her than anyone else in her life ever had, and whether he knew it or not, he truly was saving her life.