keep that culinary grade matcha away from me
I also havenāt been to starbucks in over a year
Yeah
Damn
jez and kai
never thought Iād see that one
but mannnnnn do i wanna see how they had their one night stand so bad
noice
best wayyyy
but iām lazy half the time so i use an electric when iām not feeling it
I donāt trust myself with electric whisks
I always make a mess
EhŁ« fair.
Lol.
Iāve never made a messā¦yet.
How much is it?
Itās such an interesting combination really. Like they donāt seem like they ever wouldāve had any impact on each other, but they did.
I mean, really it happened twice
One night together, at 2 different points in the timeline
Like, both times Jez slept with Kai, Jez was at a point in her life where she had felt alone and lost.
The first time, when she was still depressed and hurting after losing her baby with Jordan.
The second time, during Christmas break senior year, when Dan hated herā¦

How much is it?
Not too bad I think for a 30 g can like 15$ with 8 dollar shipping fees
but itās always out of stock

I mean, really it happened twice
One night together, at 2 different points in the timeline
okay
TWO NIGHT STAND
damn
ļ¼āæā Annie after senior year (Part 1) āāæļ¼
OKAY iāve been meaning to do this
TW: grief
You need to capitalize and UNDERLINE my love
What am I supposed to do, if thereās no you? ā Soon Youāll Get Better by Taylor Swift
Fck that hit me
The way Annieās life looked right now, calling it ālivingā would be an insult to the word itself.
No because this line
10000/10
holy fck
my poor baby
Weeks crept into months and she had retreated entirely to her bed.
Her days had blurred together into long, dark and empty periods of time that had no purpose and seemingly no end. Even tears couldnāt grant her some relief, as they soon ran dry. T
My baby
It had swallowed her whole, leaving only a shell of her former self who was deprived of every ounce of energy and feeling.
ANNIE
Justin and Kyra had checked in, though usually their own grief would unintentionally enable her further.
They are her siblings through and through
Her father had been persistent, with his words of love and encouragement from the funeral and after that.
HES TRYING
But all that came through was a reminder of her biggest mistake, the pain she had caused him and an inability to forgive herself for that.
Stop heās forgiven you
youāre his baby girl
Annie had been a disappointment, and he was the prime example of that. So she listened to his attempts to get through to her, with a forced smile and a surface-level acknowledgement of them.
, her phone dead and neglected, collecting dust under her bed.
OPEN IT
rickyās calledā¦ a few timesā¦
The world outside her door had become a foreign and distant concept. Time had stood completely still, and she couldnāt see a way out. The tunnel she fallen into was suffocatingly dark, with no sign of a light at the end, and there wasnāt anything she was going to do to change that.
Okay also this
10000000000/10
holy fck the writer you are
āWell, this is a sight for sore eyes,ā A voice pierced through the silence that the room had become accustomed to. The tone was assertive, bordering on judging
thatās paige for you
āOh, no, no, weāre not doing that,ā
GO OFF
love you paige
āAnnie, when was the last time you ate?ā She asked, her expression resembling something of concern for a moment.
no fr
r a moment. Until she stood still for a moment and truly inhaled. āOrā¦ showered?ā
āWhat day is it?ā Annie finally asked, her throat dry and scratchy. āThursday,ā Paige answered without missing a beat, their exchange stalling once again awaiting the barely-responsive Annie. āActually that doesnāt help,ā She mumbled through a sigh.
I can literally imagine this scene playing out
paigeās annoyed looks
annieās pure depression
er, āCome on,ā She huffed, taking Annie by the shoulders and pulled her to sitting up. āWhat are youā¦-ā She started, but her words faltered. Before she even had a moment to process, and protest, Annie was hauled up onto her feet by Paige with unexpected determination. āYouāre showering. Now. Then getting out of here,ā Paige insisted, pushing her out towards the bathroom. This was a lot of sudden movement for Annieās liking, leaving her blinking in confusing and holding onto her doorframe to steady herself. āAlright,ā She muttered, her voice coarse with misuse,
Love how paige can pull her out of this
She pulled off the hoodie and sweatpants that had basically become a part of her for the last few weeks before stepping under the stream, allowing herself to become immersed in the water. S
those need to be burned
n it was as if Paige could see what she was doing, because as soon as Annie went to reach for her worn in hoodie, a sharp knock at the door interrupted her. āYou better not be putting back on those biohazards youāre mistaking for clothes,ā Paige warned her, causing Annie to freeze mid-motion
PERIOD
ew
Open the door a little,ā She was instructed, and Annie listened, unlocking and letting the door swing towards her slightly. Then the opening increased, to make room for the folded pile of clothes P
I love paigeās sisterly love here
They were clean, the sweater that was actually once her favourite was now tainted with the faint scent of detergent, and lacking in the worn-in comfort from her tattered hoodie that she had clung to for weeks. But her unease regarding her clothing soon took a new form when her gaze landed on the bathroom mirror. Staring back at her was someone she hardly recognise
my love
Eventually, Annie found her way back to Paige. āThere you are,ā She said upon Annieās entrance, with a softened tone that was unusual for Paige.
well yeah
even paige has a heart
pace. āThatās not happening,ā Annie declared, definitively before going to lie back down. āYou go, tell me all about them. Or something.ā
you think paige is not gonna drag your ass?
āā¦ Annie?ā She was suddenly able to single out Paigeās voice amongst the many. It was firm but still patient, and sufficed in drawing her back to the present, turning to her expectant face. āWhat?ā Annie responded, her voice distant. āI was asking you what you wanted,ā She explained. The words were slow to process, but then the pressuring eyes of the barista came into focus for Annie, her mind eventually caught up with the situation. The question was simple, and finding it difficult it made her feel even more out of place. āOh. Nothing, thanks,ā She answered, shifting in unease. āI could have guessed,ā P
SIGH PICK SOMETHING YOUāRE A SKINNY STICK NOW
YOU NEED FOOD
āYour mom would hate this,ā Broke the silence, itās unexpectedness jolting Annie and drawing her attention. Everyone had danced around that subject, and so for it to suddenly be an opening line was unsettling. āGiving up and hiding away. This isnāt what she wanted,ā
she really would
āWhat did she say in her last speech, at that award show?ā She asked, though not anticipating an actual answer from Annie. Not that Annie would have known the answer, as she never revisited that speech after Sadie had died. āāWith ends come new beginningsā, she believed in turning the page. Because there are so many pages and entire chapters left for you, if you would just get that book out from under the bed,ā Paige paused for a moment, leaving Annie to process this.
She left that message for annie
. āYou need to try, Annie,ā She continued, āSadie may not be here, and I amā¦ Iām so sorry for that, but the least you can do is try to honour her wishes. She wanted more for you. If not for you, do it for your dad, Justin, Kyra. For your mom,ā
They all need her in their lives
e. āHowā¦ how do I do that?ā Her throat had tightened, so Annieās words came out a whisper, but was enough to break the silence. The gap between where she was and where she needed to be had felt insuperable, and every day that passed she was pushing herself further and further away. āItās not gonna come overnight, you donāt have to rush or ignore the pain. But if you can just do something, even once a day, to try and move forward. To get up, to open your windows, to look after yourself a bit more,ā Paigeās gaze softened, and it was look Annie hadnāt seen on her face before. āThere are still people here who love you and want to see you living again, and theyāll be here for you. Iāll be here for you.ā
Urgh so cute
she pushed herself to open her laptop and watch the speech that Paige had referred to.
She was confronted with her motherās face; her smile, her warmth and the joy in her eyes that Annie had been deprived from. The tears came almost instantly as Sadie spoke of finding light in the darkest of times. Annie let herself cry, and feel the grief she had been shutting down for weeks in all its intensity. It didnāt make it go away, not even slightly. But it was a start.
Oh sadie
my baby
@benitz786 I hope I did Paige okay
You did perfect
urgh
sister love

OKAY iāve been meaning to do this
oh GOD

No because this line
Iām sorry

HES TRYING
I KNOW BUT THIS IS A NEAR IMPOSSIBLE CASE

Stop heās forgiven you
She hasnāt forgiven her

rickyās calledā¦ a few timesā¦
how many

holy fck the writer you are
STOP

thatās paige for you
knew it

paigeās annoyed looks
externally unsympathetic
what Annie needed

ew
sorry

even paige has a heart
does she

she really would
ffs
who killed her off in the first place hey

She left that message for Annie
she knew what she was doing

They all need her in their lives
hard for her to believe

You did perfect
ahhhh thank you
ok today goal to actually write Annie pt 2

Why must it be so much harder to write dialogue between 2 of your own characters than it is to write between one of yours and one of someone elseās
Real
I scrapped so many miscs for that reason

I have a weird relationship with matcha. It tastes like grassŁ« but Iām obsessed.
It does
And I donāt like grass
Like
Iām not a leaf salad girl either
Iām not a rabbit I donāt wanna eat or drink something thatās tastes like a backyard