{ Fck off Trevor… I mean, Hello new friend }
but don’t be pssed off if I hate your husband cause even if i can’t say love ya, i love you
”I’d be concerned if that wasn’t your reaction. It’s nice to finally meet you … Jess has told me many great things about you.” Firm handshake, big friendly smile, and a positive attitude, that’s all Dorian somehow had to do so he doesn’t end up looking like a jerk. Not that hard, is it? Wrong. It was hard, very hard. The moment when Trevor looked away to… Jess eating pizza? Dorian couldn’t really tell you what was happening because his gaze remained on the guy in front of him, that was the moment when his smile completely disappeared only to once again be forced when their eyes met. What was so special about this guy, huh? Dorian couldn’t see it and he was pretty sure he wouldn’t ever because there was nothing to see. The only thing he was good at was at ruining moments which he only proved when he took a seat in between Dorian and Jess… Uhm? There is plenty of space on the side, what are you trying to prove? You just look pathetic now and Dorian’s thoughts could be visible on his features as long as Trevor and Jessica were busy and weren’t paying attention to him. Like when they were fighting over pizza and Trevor was saying something… Was he talking to Dorian? Okay, pay attention… You can make a mental list of reasons why this guy sucks later.
[color="lightsteelblue”]”Yeah, we’re on.”[/color] Great… Dorian completely forgot he agreed he would spend some alone time with the guy to get to know him. Sometimes you just have to say no but now it was too late. If only it wasn’t… and if only he didn’t have to smile while talking only for that smile to falter when the attention wasn’t on him. Wow, this sucked… This really, realllly, really sucked. Watching Trevor wrap his arms around Jess and kissing her cheek sucked. Not being able to eat pizza because he was just so disgusted sucked. That was enough. ”Hey, I’m tired so I’ll… Leave you two to catch up. Jessica can show you around,” usually you say that before getting up but no, those words… mumbles left his mouth right before he opened the door of his bedroom and disappeared. Locking the door behind him. He doesn’t want to be bothered, okay? But not like… anyone would bother him or spend the night in his room now.
Was Dorian being a little unreasonable? Yes, he most certainly was. This guy invading his personal space was nothing but nice, he even made breakfast… So there was no need to be so uptight. Was Dorian going to listen to that? No. He can act in any way he wants because this was his place and he was already being so generous by letting the lovely couple stay with him. That was more than enough. Can someone explain to Dorian why Trevor also had to be at his practice? Was his apartment not enough? Will there be a time of the day when he can be alone? Will - Wait… ”Huh?”
Standing in the kitchen and minding his own business as he should when they all got back to Dorian’s place, he completely forgot… Hoped this wouldn’t happen. His hangout with Trevor… Just… perfect. Wonderf- Okay, look… Maybe Dorian actually had that mental list with reasons why Trevor sucks but it wasn’t really a list. Not a fair one at least. That was just a result of his jealousy because of Trevor… If this was a different situation, he wouldn’t have a single flaw if you ask Dori, and if things were different, if it was a different time, if they all had different lives, Dorian wouldn’t mind going out with the guy. But that wasn’t the case… Trevor was here kissing Jessica, making breakfast for them all, going out with them and Dorian hated every single minute of it. Just as much as he hated Jessica for rushing them out and making him go hang out with her boyfriend. Not hate but… You know what I mean.
It’s easy to talk to people and make friends, that’s when… Dorian wanted to. He never had a problem with that but sitting alone with Trevor in the backseat as they were on their way to a club was a completely different story. Dorian could talk and make this not awkward but why would he? Whatever he had against the guy he wasn’t going to let go off and make this possibly very long night actually enjoyable. No. He liked this… He liked staying silent and just looking out the window completely zoned out, ignoring whatever the guy was saying before realizing the car has stopped. What was waiting for them when they got out was what Dori enjoyed the most and what he really needed right now - a distraction and some time away from Trevor. Fans and girls, nothing better than that, if only that was the only thing he had to spend his night on… But pretty soon they found themselves inside and that was the time when Dorian had to act nicer if he wanted the night to end.
And for a while everything was going fine if we ignore his nervous and almost forced laughs… He’s just not that great at playing pretend but it didn’t seem like Trevor noticed. As I said, everything was going fine before their talk about girls and Trevor dragging him towards a group of girls that supposedly sent them drinks. Another thing Dori didn’t have a problem with was talking to girls, that was kind of like his specialty but… As surprising as it might sound, now that was the last thing he wanted to do after Trevor’s stupid talk and words of encouragement. He didn’t NEED YOUR FCKING HELP. Now the guy’s gonna take credit for whatever happens next.
And what happened next? Would you be surprised if I told you those girls knew who they were and one gave Dorian her number? What was her name… K… Kendall? That must be it. Dorian’s not that good with names when he doesn’t care, and at that moment he didn’t care which was a little odd considering he loves when things like that happen. But now, with this guy he, for some reason, didn’t like, forcing that friendliness was all he could focus on. Forcing… He wouldn’t like to admit this but after a few drinks (yes, it was needed in this situation, don’t tell anyone) forcing wasn’t needed. Trevor was…. Fine, he even made Dorian laugh. You know how I said if things were different they could’ve been good friends? It was the truth, but things were not different and it only took one statement to completely change Dori’s mood. A ring. Propose. Wait a damn minute…
Now why did his mood change so quickly? Because his best friend was getting fcking married, and that’s exciting. Not. It’s just shocking when you wanted to do something like that and now you see someone else preparing to… When you still have a ring somewhere at your place. The smile he had on his face immediately fell as he was just staring at one spot in front of him, a glass in his hand which was now frozen. So don’t be surprised that it took him a while to give Trevor some kind of a reaction… A forced one. [color="lightsteelblue”]”Wow… My best friend is getting married. Wait… Wow. Yes. Congrats.”[/color] Forced words followed by a forced smile. He’s been doing that quite a lot around him, hasn’t he? Well, whatever happened next… Dorian wasn’t really following, he wasn’t listening to his new friend, he just finished whatever was left in his glass before adding, [color="lightsteelblue”]”Hey, are you tired? I’m tired. I’m suuuuper tired. Yeah… We should,”[/color] A goofy grin on his lips, without even finishing that, Dori just grabbed his jacket and started walking towards the front door. ”Leave,” a mumble leaving his lips that were now formed in a frown, not even taking a moment to look behind and check if Trevor was following.
Morning. What a beautiful fcking morning. It was supposed to be beautiful because when is Dorian’s day not great when he goes to practice? Never… If we ignore this morning, of course, after not getting even an hour of rest. After having a few drinks the other night. After spending that whole night awake in his bed imagining all the ways he could react when his best friend tells him she’s engaged. Could he really once again fake being happy? Could he… Stop that from happening? So many thoughts going through his head as he was just standing in the middle of the field, before he heard someone cursing him out… Or just calling his name, Dori wasn’t really listening. [color="lightsteelblue”]”Sorry,”[/color] he mumbled, still trying to figure out what he was supposed to do. Jessica is leaving today and a part of him didn’t want to say goodbye in a nice way and just stay here all day because facing her would just be weird. But part of him wants to go back and… Finish what he wanted to do before Trevor arrived… Yeah… He was going to do it… He was. He is going to be selfish. [color="steelblue”]”DeLoug-”[/color] ”Hey, I’m not feeling well. I’ll… See you tomorrow, yeah?” Apparently that was his coach, now standing right in front of him and without a problem Dorian ignore him and just walked away. Only one thing on his mind…But if only he knew that would be a big mistake.
Walking in his own apartment first of all - the music was too loud and he was going to get complaints once again, second of all… What he saw next will forever be stuck in his brain and he would do anything to unsee it. It would’ve been fine if it was anyone else, Dori would even joke about it, but this…? But this? This we do not tolerate. [color=“lightsteelblue”]”Get out. Get the fck out.”[/color] Stopping the music, Dori almost shouted with obvious anger in his voice as he turned his back to the couple and was leaning against the kitchen island. Look… It’s not easy seeing someone you… care about like this. [color=”#9f694b”]”Fck… Dori… I’m so sorry we didn’t mean to.”[/color] Who tf do you think you are? You don’t get to stay in his apartment, in which you weren’t welcomed in the first place, and fck his… best friend, right there… The first thing someone would see when they walk in. No one here likes you, so just shut up. [color=“lightsteelblue”]”Don’t call me Dori and get your fcking sh!t and leave.”[/color] Was that clear enough for him? For them? I think it was, I think they both know what leave means. [color=”#5b5b73”]”I’m sorry Dori. One thing led to another and…”[/color] Or they don’t. Trying really hard to be calm, Dori turned to face Jess with… an annoyed and serious expression he wasn’t successful at hiding. [color=“lightsteelblue”]”And you started fcking on my couch? Seriously Jess?”[/color] [color=”#5b5b73”]”Momentary lapse of judgement love-”[/color] [color=“lightsteelblue”]”Having sex on my couch isn’t a fcking momentary lapse of judgment Jess… just fcking get dressed and get out,”[/color] cutting the girl off, he let his voice get higher at this point really not caring if Trevor would hear him, if his neighbors would hear him because this… Hurt. [color=”#5b5b73”]”Just turn around my clothes are here. Look… I’m sorry…”[/color] Oh, honey… He’s seen you without them, what are you trying to do? [color=“lightsteelblue”]”Just get a fcking hotel room if you were going to do that god. You’re not even supposed to be staying here.”[/color] [color=”#5b5b73”]”What’s that supposed to mean?”[/color] [color=“lightsteelblue”]”What does it sound like?”[/color] With his arms crossed over his chest, there was almost a pity look on his face. [color=”#5b5b73”]”So I’m allowed to sleep here but Trevor’s not? What the fck Dori. I swear to god the misogyny in this room. If any of your fckign guy friends were here fcking their girl, you wouldn’t be acting like this. So what’s the difference?”[/color] [color=“lightsteelblue”]”You’re not just my friend, Jess. For fcks sake, think about someone besides yourself for a second?”[/color] [color=”#5b5b73”]”You’re right, Dorian, we’re best fcking friends. So what the hell does it matter?”[/color] [color=“lightsteelblue”]”YOU’RE ALSO MY FCKING EX JESS. IT’S NOT THE SAME.”[/color] And there were a few things I wanted to say before you started packing to leave but that can’t happen now. [color=”#5b5b73”]”… that’s… we haven’t been together for half a fcking decade Dorian… Who cares?”[/color] [color=“lightsteelblue”]”I care. Just… leave… just fcking leave Jess.”[/color] [color=”#5b5b73”]”Why are you even here right now I don’t…”[/color] ”Because I wanted to say goodbye. Just… goodbye Jess. Go. I’m going for a fcking walk and when I’m back, please be fcking gone.”
With those words Dorian left his friend, left his apartment, slamming the door behind him. Was he being a little overdramatic? No… At least he didn’t regret all the things that left his mouth, things he said and didn’t really think before saying them. It was never a problem for him to play a bad guy because… What was the point of not doing that? Do you think he didn’t notice the ring on Jessica’s finger the moment she walked over to him? If he wanted to express how he felt he was going to do that, what was there to lose? Absolutely nothing. Maybe he hyped himself up over something that could never happen and only ended up disappointed but… that was his own fault. That’s what happens when you want something to happen, when you get your hopes up and think you can change everything… Nothing goes as planned. That’s what you should take out of this story, kids. You want something? No, fck that.
Dorian kept walking until he reached the first bench. His face in his hands for a few moments before he pulled out his phone and scrolled through his contacts. What was he going to do with his life from this day? I don’t know, we’ll see what Kennedy has on her mind.