Willow was unsure about sharing her secrets. She couldn’t possibly let anyone know about her, yet the situation called for it the most. She couldn’t let herself stay silent while the rest shared their deepest secrets. Even if she did, though, she just couldn’t believe that anyone could truly understand her. If anything, saying them out loud might as well make things worse. A mysterious, strange girl, that was what Willow was known for. To open up to people who never paid her any attention before, it was more than strange. ‘Interesting things to say’ was correct, yet she held back.
But one thing was certain, she could never mention what she talked about with Fern. Her absence had to be passed off as a coincidence, or maybe she could take the blame for it all. If only the killer hadn’t acted while they were out of the classroom, things would’ve been much easier. Now they’re forced to…
She took a deep breath, grounding herself in the moment. Jennifer said, she would share her secrets if Willow shared her own. She didn’t have much of a choice anymore, there weren’t that many people left.
But as she was about to speak, Hazel stood up and took the turn. As she lifted her shirt to reveal the scar, Willow’s heart skipped a beat and her eyes went wide. She couldn’t bring herself to move, nor speak. She could only hold the pencil in her hand, hovering over her notebook full of poems. To have the courage to share something so tragic and terrifying, Hazel was much braver than Willow. While she could barely confess her minor secrets, compared to life threatening illness. She avoided looking at Hazel, at Jennifer, at anyone while they continued to talk. As they all comforted the girl and expressed their concerns, Willow could only continue to sit in silence. She didn’t know her that well, only seen her around, but she felt as much shock as she would for a friend. Closing her eyes, Willow attempted to tune out her surroundings again. It was beginning to become unbearable, just how much more despair were they going to face?
It felt like eternity, as loud chatter filled the room again. First the death of a teacher, now an illness that could cost Hazel her life. And it wasn’t even certain that the rest of them were safe. Willow’s heart began to beat faster, as a dark thought filled her mind: nobody would survive that day. It couldn’t have been a coincidence, to call in that specific group, many of which aren’t even deserving of detention. She was afraid of what plot might be taking place behind their backs, and as irrational as it sounded, she couldn’t shake the thought that someone was after her. After their whole group.
When Alissa took the attention away from Hazel, asking the rest to share their secrets, Willow knew it was her turn next. She couldn’t hold back anymore, not after the rest shared pieces of themselves just to ensure the others feel safe.
Willow took a deep breath again, steading herself. She unclenched her jaw as she loosened the grip on her pen, turning to Hazel.
“I’m sorry, Hazel.” was all she could say.
She turned her head to Alissa, then Jennifer. “As I said, there’s nothing special about me.” she continued. “My parents are both lawyers, quite the honored profession. After I graduate, I’m expected to follow in their footsteps. Yet, I…” she trailed off. Willow knew what was to come next. She would have to open up to such a large group, and possibly add to the burden they were feeling. She didn’t want to make it seem like she had it worse than the rest, her problems were the least of her concerns. Making it sound like it wasn’t a big issue was what she was meant to do as well. “I want to study psychology, um… Maybe become a poet, whatever fate has in store.”
She looked down at her desk, avoiding everyone’s eyes for what she was about to say next.
“Fate doesn’t always work out in our favor, unfortunately. My dreams would have to be put aside, I’ve accepted it. A lawyer is what I’m meant to be, otherwise there wouldn’t be so many obvious signs pointing me towards that.” In fact, it felt more like they were forcing her.