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Part 3

“but if I’m careful, then it won’t be as exciting,” I said with a chuckled whine. “Besides, I can take a hit,” I said showing one of the bruises on my shoulder from earlier today. “And if I was careful, I wouldn’t be sitting here right now, would I” I added.
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Archer
I shake my head when he shows me the bruises. “Ok fine fair but in the future please try to be a little more careful.” I say as I move a little closer to him. “I don’t want to find you dead on the side of the road one day is what im getting at Genosta.”
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I shrugged with a chuckle. “Don’t worry, you probably won’t” I reassured him. “I still have time” I added as I let out a yawn and stretch. “before you ask, no I’m not tired, usually the cold keeps me longer awake so the warmth right now makes me drowsy” I tell him
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Archer
I smile. “Hey its ok you sleep if you need to.” I smile as I hold his hand and watch the movie. “Im glad I Probably won’t find you dead on the side of the road.” I roll my eyes at his use of the word probably this boy was going to be the death of me at this rate.
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“I’m just saying probably because you’ll see that if I say you won’t, at some point you are and you’ll tell me ‘but you promised’ and all I can do is scream that it wasn’t my fault but you won’t hear it, which will just be more frustrating and I won’t even find peace,” I said with a shrug. “Also, I don’t need sleep, I’ll get it later,” I said.
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Archer
I laugh that was the first time I had ever heard Genosta go on a rant. “Wow you’re ranting at me now but, I have one question if I find you dead how are you planing to argue with me?” I ask as I giggle “And I mean it just sleep if your body is wanting it I don’t care Genosta its really fine.”
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“I have my ways, I’ve done it once, I’ll do it again” I just said slightly jokingly. “But I’m sure as heck going to argue with you when I’m dead, so be prepared for me to annoy you when I’m dead” I chuckle. “I’m not tired Archer, don’t worry” I tell him.
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I giggle at his dark humor. “At least ill still get to hear your voice Genosta even if it is arguing with me from beyond the grave.” I say as I hold his hand a little tighter like he would just vanish with us even talking about this. His comment about talking to people and being dead before concerned me a little because I couldn’t tell if that part was a joke or not. “Ok I was just letting you know that if you were you didn’t have to stay up for me.” I smile as I turn to look at him
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I nodded but noticed him frowning at my ‘done it once’ comment. I just poked his cheek. “Don’t think too much into it"I told him but his respond was squeezing my hand.” Sure"I then askwered to him
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Archer
He poked my cheek and I shook my head blushing a little “Hey Genosta.” I retaliate as I smirk in mock anger. “Ill try not to.” I whisper as I hold his hand. I still worried I would just loose him I felt really attached to him already. (Can his actual eyes be seen through the mask?)
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I nodded. “Just making sure” I said and focussed on the movie for at least a few minutes. For a moment it was just silent except for the movie which felt peacefully.
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Archer
I smiled as we watched the movie and held hands this was nice I could see this becoming a usual thing and I even wanted it to. “Genosta this is really nice and I am glad I get to spend this time with you.”
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I kept my eyes on the screen as I felt embarrassed about how often he said it. “You might have mentioned that a few times, yes” I joked instead because I wasn’t sure how to respond to it without it being mean or awkward.
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Archer
I didn’t know what about what I said made him feel uncomfortable but I could tell he was now uncomfortable and I let go of his hand as I got up. I headed to the bathroom knowing he wouldn’t ask if I went to the bathroom.
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I let out a sigh as Archer walked off. I paused the movie and looked outside. Nice going, A-hole, for once someone actually wants you and you’re acting like a downer - I thought.
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Archer
I took a minute in the bathroom to actually use it and collect my thoughts then came back out. “Sorry Just had to go to the bathroom.” I say as I come back and sit down by him. He was looking outside. “What are you looking at?” I ask softly as I grab his hand again.
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I decided not to address my suspicion and shrugged while he grabbed my hand again. “Nothing, just waiting for you” I said as I started the movie again. “Sorry, btw, I’m just not used to being wanted so I don’t know how to properly respond to it” I then mumbled.
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Archer
“Hey its fine I just thought I made you uncomfortable and you were going to run off.” I mumble as I lean my head on his shoulder as the movie starts again. “Well that changes with me you will always be wanted now and you are always welcome wherever I am.” I say as I nod
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for now… - I added in my head but didn’t say it instead I just rested my head against his. “Thanks, it will just take time, bare with me” I added before I continued to look at the screen.
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Archer
“No problem I am patient I can wait.” I smile when he lays his head on mine. I liked this and hoped he continued to warm up and not push me away.
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Even though I wasn’t used to this, I just let things happen. the holding hands and being close was already less awkward for me than at the beginning. it will just take time - I thought.
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Archer
He seemed to be coming around slowly and that is all I could ask for. He would need time I knew that but I was also willing to give him however long he needed. I was willing to try this.
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at this point, Archer was silent as well. It wasn’t a bad or awkward silence, just a silent where we didn’t need to break it with needless talking. A silent that felt safe and fed the drowsiness.
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Archer
My eyes felt heavy and this was nice all cuddled in close holding hands. I was trying to watch the movie but I was tired and I knew I wouldn’t last long before I fell asleep.
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I glanced over at Archer, who started to nod his head while he was slowly falling asleep and I chuckled. “Same goes for you, you can sleep if you want” I whispered.
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Archer
“I wasn’t sleeping.” I mumble as I sit up but stay cuddled in close with him. “I will sleep when I get tired but im not tired yet Gensta.”
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I chuckled and patted his head. “Sure” I just said kindly and turned back to the movie. Honestly, I also started to become sleepy, but I didn’t feel comfortable sleeping in my human body.
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Archer
“Genosta you want to sleep as a bird don’t you?” I ask as I hold his hand and yawn. “Its ok you can if it is more comfortable but do you need anything different to sleep like that?”
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I was surprised he mentioned it but nodded. “Yeah, maybe we should call it a day” I said and joined his jawn. “You should also head to bed, you can’t lie to me and say you aren’t tired” I told him
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Archer
I smile knowing that he wanted to sleep as a bird at least for now. “Ok fine I will head to bed but even though you are sleeping as a bird you will stay here right?”
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I nodded. “yeah, I am, don’t worry” I said. “Goodnight” I said and changed into my crow form. I then flew to the blanket and sat in it like it was a nest. I then turned my head back and fell asleep.
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Are we allowed to just make a time skip later? I mean it feels like we’re the only ones posting atm.

also he's so cute when he's sleeping

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Archer
I smiled he was cute even sleeping in bird form I smiled and went to my bedroom leaving the door open incase he needed anything from me.
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I think that would be ok

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I slept through the night and when morning came, one of the windows suddenly flew open while it was snowing so the snow was blowing inside. I tried closing it but one of the handles needed a trick to close it because it was a bit crooked and I assumed Archer probably knew how to do it so I walked into the bedroom but after trying to take him up for a few minutes, I didn’t have a result yet.
I decided to turn into my crow form and hopped onto him. I then but is nose to wake him up.
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if you want you can make Genosta turn back and tell Archer about the window.

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Archer
It had gotten so cold I was cuddled in lots if blankets. I felt a bird and smiled as I woke up. “Genosta what is it?” I ask as I rub my eyes and sit up as I try not to bury him in blankets. I quickly realized why it was so cold. "Its that stupid window I mumble as I get up to close it. I grabbed a towel off my floor I would have to jam it shut. “That window sucks honestly.” I say as I pull the handle hard and stick the towel between the frame and the window. “That should keep it closed but there is so much snow that came in.” I say as I sigh.
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I chuckle as Archer got up and started whining about the window. I changed back and followed him. “Sorry about waking you up but yeah…” I said and looked at the snow. “Lets get as much as we can and throw that in the sink, then put some towels down so the floor doesn’t get too wet” I suggested
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Archer
“Yeah I have a broom so we can broom it together.” I say as I get the broom from the kitchen closet. “No it’s ok I get why you woke me up it was cold and that window was blowing snow on you Genosta.” I say as I broom the snow up. “It sticks you have to pull the handle down and to the left and if its windy out jam it closed or it will just keep opening.” I say as I laugh and trip realizing I hadn’t even put my glasses on and was wandering around the apartment blind.
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I took the broom from Archer. “Good to know, next time I’ll close it before waking you up” I joked before I started cleaning the snow. “You…uh…should think about wearing contact lenses, you look good without your glasses” I tell him while I stayed focussed on cleaning up.
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“I have contacts but I don’t wear them unless I’m working on the computer. I mean I guess that is pretty often though so …” I say as I laugh and rush to my room to get my glasses. “My eyesight kind of sucks but it is manageable as long as I have glasses or contacts.” I say as I help him clean the snow up
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I nodded. “Still it suits you to not have them, your eyes pop out more” I mumble. “Not that it doesn’t look good with your glasses on!” I quickly add while most of the snow was now gone. I grabbed the bucket we used to put the snow in and carried it to the sink of the kitchen. “Or should I keep it in the bucket so you can have an cold shower” I joked.
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Archer
“Good God Genosta Im poor but not poor enough I need to shower in melted snow and it is cold as hell.” I say as I laugh and mop up what was left on the floor with a towel. “Thank for the compliment on my eyes I wish I could see yours I bet they are a really pretty color.” I spoke absentmindedly not even thinking of the words than had just come out of my mouth.
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I think for a bit. my eyes… What color are they again? - I thought. Yesterday I didn’t look at my eyes so I don’t know for sure. “Uhmmm… I actually don’t know about that” I chuckled.

I then turned to him. “Dude, ice water is amazing for getting energy, it’s healty too, we should go ice swimming sometime” I said.
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“Its ok Im sure that your eyes are amazing Genosta.” I say as I giggle and shake my head when he talks about ice water swimming. "Do you not remember when I laid in the snow our first day and came home practically freezing. “I do not plan on doing that again.” I say as I laugh and toss the wet towel in the laundry. I wanted to hug him really bad for some reason but I didn’t know how he would take it.
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I chuckled. “What you prefer a jacuzzi instead?” I asked. “Why don’t you take a few greens from someone’s bank and we can treat ourself to a sauna’s and jacuzzis” I said with a shoulder wiggle before pouring the snow into the sink.
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“Honestly yes I get cold pretty easily if Im being honest.” I say as I smile at him. “I can but I don’t even know where a sauna and Jacuzzi is around here.” I yawn as I rub sleep from my eyes, “I have money in an account overseas I can draw from. Its stuff I’ve already taken it increws interest and there is quite a bit in there right now.”
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“There is a spa just outside the northern side of the city, but uhmmm” I said and turned to Archer. “I thought you would understand I was kidding” I said and pointed at my mask. “water and swimming trunks aren’t really my forte"I explain.” Only with a wetsuit I’m okay with swimming" I added.
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“Oh man yeah duh.” I say as I nod understanding him. “No im not taking you to do something you can’t enjoy. But we can do something together today Genosta.” I say as I smile and grab his hand again. “I mean that I have enough money that we can go do something fun for a little while today.”
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I nodded as I leaned against the counter. “Sure, sounds good, what does one do when enjoying the day as two?” I asked jokingly. “But jokes aside, no idea what we could do” I laughed.
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“I don’t either but lets eat breakfast then find something.” I say as I smile and lean my head on him. “I mean I am sure we can find something. What kind of things do you like to do?”
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I think for a minute. “What about laser tag?” I suggested. “I’ve never done it before but it sounds cool” I suggested. I wasn’t sure if it was a fun idea, but I couldn’t think of anything else at the moment.
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Archer
“We can go check it out if it is something you think would be fun.” I say as I get something for breakfast. “What do you want to eat for breakfast?”
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I shrug. “I eat almost everything, you can just make me the same as you” I said and looked around. “By the way, where did you put my clothes?” I asked as I couldn’t find them.
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Sorryy!!! I thought I had responded to this, next time you can send me a reminder after a day!

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“They had blood on them and they re in the wash now Ill dry them after we eat if that is ok.” I say as I get pan out and two eggs. “How do you like your eggs?”
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I started to laugh. “Did you just ask a bird how he likes its eggs?” I chuckle as I looked at him. “Sunny side up, please” I then aswered so he did get that I was joking.
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“Oh thank goodness you were going I didn’t even think about that Genosta and yes I can do sunny side up for you.” I smile at him as I cook.
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“to be fair, some crows eat remaining of chicken wings and I am still not sure that it counts as cannibalism” I said as I sat down on the counter next to him. “But I do eat chicken… Just not remaining from the trashcan” I chuckle.
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“Ok and I mean your not full Crown anyway. But is there anything you don’t eat Genosta?” I keep cooking and grab two plates. “Toast?” I ask him as I look at the bread and toaster on the counter by him.
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I shrug. “I eat almost anything, but I haven’t eaten most things in a long time. I usually eat berries and fruit because I could eat it as a bird and minimalize how much I need to eat. But as a human, I’m okay with anything” I said.
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“Well you can have whatever you want while your here in human form Genosta” I smile and finish cooking the eggs. “I get keeping how much you have to eat down but is that healthy for you I mean I know nothing about human animal shifters so im honestly just asking.”
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I shrugged. "Honestly, no idea, but the same goes for injuries and stuff. If I get injured as a human, I stay injured as a bird but it compensates. I got an nasty hit on my shoulder yesterday, and that made flying really hard, but as soon as it heals, my wing will be fine too"I explain.
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Archer
“You really should be careful Genosta your not invincible.” I sigh and give his hand a little squeeze as I hand him his breakfast. “If you don’t want to eat around me because you have to take your mask off you can eat out here and Ill eat in my room just let me know when your done ok.”
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I shake my head. “Don’t worry, I eat the same as I drink” I said as I cut a piece of the toast and egg and move it to my mouth where my mask opens up for me to eat. “I know I’m not invincible, but I’m not that scared about what happens to me because I’ve had the worse already,” I said and took another bite. “But thanks for worrying about me” I added
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“Ok” I say as I nod and sit beside him eating. “Yeah I worry because I care about you ok I don’t want to find you dead oneway because you got in a fight or something ok Genosta.” I say as I get a drink and keep eating. He honestly worried me sometimes.
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“I’m not actively trying to get myself killed, so you won’t have to worry about that, but bad luck and bad people tend to come to me like metal to a magnet” I said. “I don’t know why but people get ticked off by me whenever I do the smallest things even just a small bump or just existing sometimes when I just exist people like to beat me up” I said with a shrug.
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I lay my head on his shoulder. “I know your not just please be careful for me ok?” I ask as I smile. I was glad that he was willing to put up with me like he had. “I don’t know why they do that but still ok.”
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“It’s the mask,” I said as I just looked forward while he rested his head on my shoulder. “People see it as a weakness, they think those who hide behind the mask are weak and use it to prove to themselves they are strong. I can’t fight back because I’m not that strong and I can’t just turn into a bird and fly away because while I’m a bird, I’m more fragile and it would mean that in those few seconds between me turning and flying away, they could do more damage and I wouldn’t be able to protect myself” I said with a sigh.
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I run my fingers through his hair and sigh. “Genosta I know that all too well. People pick on who the perceive as weak. I was beaten before to and just know Im here no to fix you up after the damage is done ok. Your not in this world alone any more.” I smile and go back to eating.
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“Thanks” I only said before continuing to eat. In my view, it was weird to have someone who can help me when I get hurt because it’s something I won’t show. The only reason I ended up here was because I knew he was too innocent to take advantage of my wounded state and because yesterday’s weather wasn’t nice to hang out injured
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Archer
I was probably overwhelming him with the fact that I cared about him it seemed that he had never been cared for like that before. It made me sad but I had been there before too and I could understand where he was coming from even if I didn’t like it.
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I sigh and finished my food befire Archer did. I sigh and got up. “I’m going to try and see how my wings are doing so I can fly above you when we get to the lazer tag arcade” I said and as I walked passed him, I put my hand on his shoulder for a sec before ledding it slip off while moving on.
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I smile at him. “Ok but how are you going to shoot me while flying.” I blush a little when he puts his hand on my shoulder and lets it linger there a little longer than he needed to. I finished eating my breakfast and started the dishes. I should go shower soon. I thought to myself.
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“Its just to fly outside, during the lazer tag its dark and it won’t be as weird for me to wear my mask.” I said. “Its just until that guy that hangs around your house calms down a little” I explain.
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Archer
“Ok sounds good I’m going to finish cleaning up breakfast and then take a shower.” I say as I keep doing dishes. “What guy?” I ask confused
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“The guy and his friends that are the whole reason I ended up here.” I explain and shrugged. “This mask will probably catch their attention and I don’t want you to get wrapped up in it” I added.
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Archer
“Genosta stop it I dont care if I get wrapped up in it I can handle myself if it comes down to it.” I say as I run my fingers through his hair as he stands by me.
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“That I don’t question, but I prefer to avoid it if possible” I said. “Besides, it’s how I always travle, remember?” I asked and ruffled his hair a bit. “I’m not planning on dragging you down with me if I can prefent it” I said jokiny.
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Archer
“Well with me your always safe so just know that.” I say as I smile. He made me happy and he seemed to be warming up to the idea of at least friendship.
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“Thanks” I softly but genuinely said. I wasn’t used to those words anymore. The last words I was told were ‘I’m sorry’. “An I won’t let anyone hurt you” I said. “Not on my watch” I added but it probably sounded more like I despited people than something warm-heartedly.
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Archer
I smile and hug him. “I’m glad to hear that and I really mean it that I’ll keep you safe ok.” I let go as my smile widened. “Your not alone anymore. Never again do you have to be in this alone.”
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I akwardly hugged him back and patted his head. He then let go and looked at me looking very happy. I didn’t fully get why he was so happy to have me around, but when he told me those words, I felt a bolt go though me. It was almost like an ache. Something l couldn’t understand. “yeah” I was only able to mumble.
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Archer
I was glad that even little things like him patting my head made it clear that he was warming up to this idea. I smile and put my hand over his heart. “I want you to be happy too Genosta.”
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“I want you to be happy too Genosta.”
Those words hit me. I didn’t know why but those words made me silent. My shoulders fell as a lumb formed in my throat and I was glad my mask could hide my face. I was never told that before. My happiness didn’t matter, not even to my family. Yet he… He said it so simple. He said something no one else told me before, not even I was able to say those words to myself…yet he could.
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Archer
He seemed like what I said really caught him I tipped his face to look at me “Genosta I really want you happy even if that’s not with me in your life or whatever just be happy and smile for me at some point ok.” I say as I hug him again and head to the shower.

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I couldn’t answer to his words. No proper words came out as I hugged him back befire he left to go to the backroom. As I was left alone, I unconsciously walked to the window. Removing the mask I touched my decaying skin gently. those words…would they be real? - I wondered as I stared at myself in the reflection of the glass. I looked into my own eyes.

"I wish I could see your eyes, I bet they are a really pretty color. I’m sure that yours are amazing Genosta.”

Archers words rang in my ears. My own eyes. They were tired, they were red… They were glistening. They looked empty and sad but there was also an spark in them.

I let out a sigh and looked at the mask in my hand. Expressionless, always the same, split in half like my own face.

I smiled to myself by the idea that someone opened uo to this never changing face, that was hiding my every changing one.

I then put the mask back on. not yet - I told myself. don’t get your hopes up just yet, but maybe this time… I can one day - I thought.
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Archer
I took a deep breath as I looked in the mirror. I had never really been loved but I was hoping that this was a change. I was going to put my heart on the line again and if it hurt me then I was done putting myself out there for other people. I took my glasses off and got in the shower letting the warm water wash my insecurities away.
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I heard the sound of the shower water start and I paused while putting on my mask. As long as I hear the water, I won’t have to worry about him walking in, maybe it’s nice to take of this discuize, even for a little bit.

I sat down on the coutch and closed my eyes while leaning my head backwards in the back of the couch, my head facing the ceiling.

As I closed my eyes, I could feel it all growing, the numing feeling of the decaying and the buring heat of the burns are always present, but today, they seem less. They seem more in the distance…

The sound of the showers were fading so I placed back my mask.
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Maybe it would be interesting if Archer walks in and sees the decaying in his neck but not his face. He just sees the black skin a little.

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Archer
I walk out of the bathroom as Genosta pust his mask back on. “Genosta I dont care what you look like behind that mask it’s not going to change that I care about you. You dont have to show me now but I know regardless of how you look it’s not going to change how I feel.”
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I slowly raised my head and looked at him. I then sigh and lowered my head. "In all honesty, the more you tell me stuff like that… The more I want to hide it from you"I said softly. “You won’t like what you’ll see” I added and turned away,putting a hand on my left side of my mask, the same side as my curse.
“Sorry Archer” I tell him.
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Archer
I sit with him and hold his hand Genosta I know that you have been hurt before but I will tell you right now I mean every word Ive said to you and I intend to make sure that I do care about you more than you even realize." I say as I take a deep breath. “I like you for you not your looks ok.”
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I let out a sigh. “Which is why it would be hard for you to see me without it” I said softly and squeezed his hand as I noticed they were slightly shaking. “I can’t show you…because I don’t want to upset or scare you” I said.
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Archer
I run my other fingers through his hair as I try and hols his hand to stop them from shaking. “You don’t have to but when your ready I will be willing ok.” I say as I smile and lay my head on him. “Im not easily scared Genosta.”
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I nodded. “no… You won’t” I said softly. “It’s a different kind of scared” I added before I let out a sigh. “It will hurt you if I show you. I don’t want to hurt you” I mumbled.
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Archer
I give his hand a squeeze and take a deep breath. “Genosta can I tell you something that I have been scared to tell you?” I ask as I lay my head on him cuddled in as I smile and play with his hair.
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I nodded and looked at him. I wasn’t sure what he was going to say, abd from how things looked, he necer showed any sign of having difficulty talking to me about anything.
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Archer
“I have feelings for you maybe more than friends and Im sorry that Im going to ruin our friendship by telling you this.” I mumble as I try not to cry or get upset by what I was so sure was going to happen next.
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I looked at him confused… Surprised…
I didn’t know how to respond. I looked at him. His eyes… They look like mine were. “Your eyes… They look tired, almost red… They are glistening. Your eyes look empty and sad but there is also an spark in them…they are the same as mine” I tell him. “I’m sorry Archer” I added softly. “I didn’t see you were broken… Like me” I said and hugged him.
I then decided to say the thing I was never told “You are loved, you are cared about” I tell him softly.
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I was shocked by how he reacted. “My eyes always have been Genoata.” I mumble as I say as I hug him back. “Its not your fault Im broken so far your one of the few things that has started to hold the pieces back together. I want to hold your pieces back together for you too.” I say as I lean my head in cuddling into him some. “You are loved and cared about to Genosta.”
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I nodded as tears made their way past the mask. I wasn’t sure why, but I was both happy and hurt. I didn’t know why I felt this way but I just held him. “It hurts…being alone hurts, doesn’t it?” I asked. “I never realized it hurts this much” I mumbled. “You were also hurt” I said and sigh before hugging him tighter. “I don’t want you to be hurt anymore” I said.
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Genosta
I wiped his tears off the edge of his mask with my finger. I felt my own tears run down my cheeks. I was happy that he finally understood but I was sad that he was hurting even more than I was. I cuddle in closer as he holds me and I hold him back. “It really hurts bing alone.” I mumble as I lay my head on his shoulder again. “I don’t want you hurting either. I wish I could take all your pain away, even if it added to mine.”
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I nodded and removed a tear from his cheek. “I don’t want you to take my pain” I tell him and sighed. With shaking hands I removed my mask. As we were still hugging, he wouldn’t see right away but I felt now was the best moment. Dragging it out longer would make it more painful.
“I don’t want you to feel this pain” I mumbled.
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I saw his face and gently wipe his tears with a finger. “I would take it in a second if it made you smile Genosta.” I say as I kiss his cheek and cuddle back in. “Your eyes are as pretty as I thought they would be. They look tired and like you’ve been crying but you have a little sparkle in them that suits you well.” I squeeze his hand tight. “Does it hurt you??”
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I gave him a weak smile. His touch I couldn’t feel, but the gesture left enough. “I don’t want you to take it…” I repeated. “I promise I won’t leave you” I tell him while holding his hand firmly. “I will explain it later” I said and put the mask back on before grabbing his hand. “Only when we go outside” I tell him.
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“I know Im just saying I would.” I say as I hold him close. “I want you to feel loved and cared about even safe Genosta.” I hold his hand just as tight “Im not leaving you either but Im still just scared about being left I have been left too many. times already.” I lay on his chest. “You don’t have to explain and you can keep it off if you want. Lets stay inside for a while longer then if outside hurts you.”
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I removed the mask again but shook my head with a sad smile. “Its not the mask that hurts. It feels the same with or without it” I explain. “But it’s muffled most of the time so don’t worry” I said before gently touching his cheek with my hand. “I won’t leave you willingly unless it’s better for us both or if it’s out of my controle” I promised him. “I… Think I wanna be by your side permanently as well” I said unsure. “I want you to snile like you did this morning and be as open as you are right now” I added now without any doubt.
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I cuddle in as I play with his hair as I take a deep breath feeling better as I hear his words. “Im sorry that it hurts Genosta.” I touch his cheek gently. “Is there anything I can do to help your pain?” I ask as I just cuddle close to him. “Im really glad to hear you say that your not going to leave me and its not going to be better for me if you leave me I will tell you that now. There is no situation where you leaving is better for me.” I hold his hand tight. “I will always smile and be open with you I just want the same for you though.”
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I shrug. “It’s a small price to pay for being here” I said as I put my hand on the one that held my cheek. “I think you already are, so don’t worry about it” I reassured him.
“I meant it in a way that if you want me to go, I won’t stay” I explain. “But only then” I added.
I smiled and rested my head against his. “The same goes for me, but I also want to see you sad or angry, I don’t want you to just look happy all the time, just be honest about your feelings, okay?” I tell him.
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I cuddle in honestly content and happy for the first time in a long time. “Genosta I like this a lot.” I mumble as I listen to him talking. “I honestly don’t think I will want you to go and if you want me to go just tell me ok.” I say as I rub my thumb on his cheek gently he made me happy despite any flaw. “Im not the type to hide my emotion well so you don’t have to worry about that ok but I want you to show me yours to I don’t want you always hiding. You can be venerable with me.”
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I gave him a gentle smile. “Me too” I said and just let him stroke my cheek even though I didn’t feel his touch.
But then I shook my head and gave him a bit of a sad smile. “You’re better at it than you think. Or else you wouldn’t have been able to smile the way you did while being this hurt” I tell him and rubbed his back. “You’re stronger then me” I mumbled.
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“You are strong, even if you don’t see it yourself” I tell him with a sigh and a smile as I held his hand. “I would be able to get used to it as well, it will take time though” I said with a chuckle. “You really are one of a kind Archer” I tell him.

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“Im ok with it taking time as long as you think you can get used to this. This is really nice.” I giggle as I smile at him . “I try to be strong but its not a strong suit of mine generally speaking. I kind of bottle things up and push them aside. Thats not strong that avoidance.” I mumble as I squeeze his hand. “Your one of a kind to Genosta.”

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I started to chuckle. “I sure hope so, I don’t wish my history on anyone, even my enemies” I said with a slight smile. “There’s more to being strong than dealing with your emotions, it’s how you move on that shows real power. You didn’t turn to hate the world, you didn’t stop believing in the value of your actions” I said. “I started wasting my life” I mumble.
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I loved even this little smile it looked really good on him. “Your smile is really cute Genosta.” I hold his hand as he talks to me. “Really I just was me I took things hard at first but I couldn’t stand living like that. It just made me feel worse. So I pretended to be ok until it hurt less.” I mumbled not to proud of myself. “You were not waisting it you just were waiting on me to show up so you could start living it with me.”
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I chuckled. “I don’t remember the last time I honestly smiled for anything, so you’re seeing something rare at this point, maybe not that rare later on” I said but then I shook my head. “I was wasting it, Meeting you was the only good thing I have donce since my second chance. I’ve done nothing with my life…” I said. And realized. “Maybe thats it…“I said softly, more to myself than to Archer while I touched my own cheek that was decaying.” That’s why it was hurting less yesterday” realized.
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“Well I will cherish it then because it suits you really well.” I smiled and played back on his chest again. “I hope it gets less rare I like when you smile Genosta.” I kept playing with his hair while we talked and cuddled. I was happy I had told him how I really felt. “Hey now you have a chance you have time just know now we can do this whole life thing together.” I looked up at him and smiled as looked in his eyes. He made me feel safe and content something I had been looking for my whole life. “Wait Genosta what do you mean that’s why it hurt less yesterday?”
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I smiled at him. “thanks” was the only thing I was able to come up with for his kind words. I really didn’t know how to respond to him. He gave me something I never had before and gave it to me like it was nothing.

I pointed at my decaying face. “I was talking about this. I got it when I got my second chance and it has been growing more every day. The past 2 days and today were the first time they didn’t hurt” I explain. “Maybe it is a judgement of how well I use my second chance” I said with a shrug.
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I rubbed my eyes as we cuddled and smile at him he was so nice to me and I was glad that he had any words to tell me when I complimented him. I knew it was something he was no where near used to at all. When he pointed at his face I tipped my head kind of confused. “If you don’t mind me asking what do you mean second chance Genosta?” I ask as I kiss his cheek. “I make you not hurt anymore?!” I was surprised but I was glad I took some of his pain away at least. “Maybe that means with me you are on the right path Genosta.”
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I think for a bit. I didn’t want to tell him about my past yet, for that it was too soon, but I didn’t want to lie either. “Oh…uhm…w-well it’s like it sounds… I…uhm…got a second chance to live” I explain while also being a bit taken off guard by the kiss. I then chuckle and poked his cheek softly. “It still hurts but you did stop the pain from growing” I said.
I then nodded. “Maybe, or it means that you make me happy and are able to give me a chance to live my life the right way” I then said honestly.
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“Oh ok I told you if you werent ready you didnt have to tell me Genosta.” I say as I smile at him and pull the blanket over us from the back of the couch. “I dont care how I did it I’m just glad that I could keep some if the pain at bay for you.” I was glad that I could help him even if neither of knew how.
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I smiled. “Don’t worry” I tell him. “What I just told you, I wanted to tell you” I said as I rested my head on his shoulder. it honestly felt good to sit without my mask for once, it felt lighter in many ways. “thank you Archer, I really mean that” I tell him.
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I smile and hold his hand close to my heart. “No problem and Im glad you feel safe enough with me to tell me about at least that.” I smile as we lay there. “I think your handsome despite anyone telling you different.” I lay my head on his chest as we just cuddle. This was what I had wanted for so long and it felt better than I could have ever imagined.
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I smiled at his words. he was so kind and accepting it was nothing I had ever had. “I know I keep saying it, but I do mean it, thank you, Archer, you have no idea how much it means to me to hear this from someone,” I tell him honestly and rested my head on his own, feeling his soft hair tickling my skin. “You’re not too shabby yourself” I then said in his ear
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Archer
I giggle when I feel his head on mine. “You are still welcome Genosta.” I say as I play with his hair. Genosta didn’t seem to realize he had done just as much for me as I had for him and I was happy that we could be there for each other. I smile “Are you sure im not too shabby?” I ask giggling softly.
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I chuckled and felt a little impulsive. I looked at him and pushed him over so I was on top of him. “Yes, I’m very sure, maybe you’re even slightly better than shabby,” I said as I looked him in the eye. There was a boost of confidence that I never had before as I held his hands above his head and grinned.
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Archer
I giggle and smile up at him. his giggle was really cute. “I love you giggle its really cute and Im glad to hear it.” I say as I distract him by wrapping my legs around his waist. “Genosta what are we doing now?” I ask as I laugh and shake my head. Being honest though I didn’t care what this was I was still pretty content with whatever this was.
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I couldn’t help but chuckle. “It’s a sound that I actually thought I couldn’t make, so feel honored because you’re the only person who can hear it right now” I tell him as he wraps his legs around my side.

I start to laugh and shake my head. “I really have no idea” I tell him sincerely and try to move down slightly because his body is longer than mine and I could understand that this was not the most comfortable position, but while doing this I put my hand on a piece of cushion from the couch that sticks out and so sinks, causing me to fall down and pull Archer with me.
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I smile at him. “Well I like it and I think it really fits you.” I laugh and wrap my legs around his waist. I panicked when Genosta slipped and I tumbled with hi. “Crap are you ok?” I ask as I look up at him still laying on top of me and giggle even though it hurt a little to hit the hard wood floor. “I hope I cushioned your fall.” I meant that only partially joking. I didn’t really want him hurt from us messing around on the couch like kids.
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I chuckled as we felt on the ground. “oops, sorry about that” I said and then sat up but stayed on him. “You were a great cushion, which leads me to the question, are you okay?” I asked with a grin before laying down on top of him with my arms crossed on his chest and my chin resting on my arms. “If not, I’m happy to work as a comfort blanket” I said. “soon we can start our own sofa” I joked.
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Archer
I giggle and wrap my arms around him. “Genosta it’s ok don’t worry too much.” I let him lay on me honestly not caring much. "My back hurts a little but I will be ok.’’ I smile giggling as I play with his hair. “You can always be my comfort blanket.” I smile and pull him closer. “No one but you gets to lay on me. It would really hurt me then.” I kept looking in his eyes and realizing just how fast I was falling for him.
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I smiled and moved a few hairs away of his own. “Well, I will, when it comes to you” I said and got off of him. “Besides, if you did hurt your back, I don’t want to make it worse” I said and helped him up before making him sit back on the couch. “At least lets keep things comfortable,” I said and pulled him close to me.
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Archer
I smiled and leaned into him. “Ok and I will always be you comfort blanket too so I am here for you.” I say as I smile and kiss his cheek. "This is nice and my back doesn’t hurt too bad maybe bruised but definitely knocked the wind out of me when I hit the floor.
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“I might take you up on that offer some time,” I said with a grin and suddenly he kissed my cheek. I wished I was able to actually feel it, but even just the gesture was enough to catch me off guard.
I frowned as he said that. “I didn’t mean to hurt you, I’m sorry,” I said and made him turn around. One good thing about me getting used to getting beaten up for being different is that I knew a thing or two about releasing some pain. “Don’t freak out or think it’s weird, I just want to make sure you’ll not feel pain for a day” I said and started rubbing his back a little.
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Archer
I smile as I blush a little. “You can’t feel my kisses on your cheek can you?” I ask as I realize he had the same reaction when I kissed his cheek now as when I had done the same thing earlier. “I know you didn’t it was an accident and its ok. Im not mad or anything at all Genosta I know we were just messing around in the heat of the moment. Stuff happens.” I smile as he rubs my back. “Thank you that feels really nice and I appreciate it.”
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I let out a sigh and shook my head. even though he was blushing, I felt bad that I didn’t. “Maybe one day…I hope one day” I said softly before I gave a hesitant kiss on his back as I continued to rub his back. “Good,” I said and looked outside where it has started snowing heavily again. “Let’s move the laser tag to a different day” I suggested.
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Archer
“Hey its ok Genosta its not your fault and im sure I can find something you can feel.” I say as I giggle and smile when I feel him kiss my back. It made me feel pretty loved that he did that. “Thank you for rubbing my back and yes good Genosta.” I saw the snow out of the corner of my eye and nodded. “Yeah probably the best idea its snowing pretty hard.”
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I let out a sigh and stroked his cheek a little. “I just want to know what it feels like…I want to feel your gesture not just imagine it” I said but smiled when he reacted positive on my gesture. “Of course” I tell him. “But what are we going to do while staying here?” I asked.
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“Well can you feel this?” I ask as I turn around to face him as I smirk and kiss his neck. I wondered how he would react to that and I then laid my head on his shoulder. “We can do whatever you want movie games anything is fine with me it just looks cold and like it would suck to travel in right now.” I say as I wrap my arms around his waist.
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His gesture threw me off and I could feel my face heating up, but that was the only thing I could feel. I shook my head before he rested his head on my shoulder. I leaned my gead against his and held his hand. “Well at some point, we have to go out because I don’t know if you’ve seen the fridge, but it’s pretty empty” I said. “How about I cook for us tonight” I suggested. it’s been a while since I cooked - I realized.
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Archer
I sighed softly when he said he couldn’t feel when I kissed him on his neck. “Im sorry I thought that would work.” I admitted as we cuddled back in on the couch. “Yeah I know I need groceries I think if we wait a little bit the snow might let up some.” I was hoping so because Genosta was right the fridge didn’t have much in it let alone hardly enough to make a meal. “I would love to try your cooking as long as your comfortable cooking that is though, Don’t feel like you have to cook to earn your keep or something here just stay here with me.” I say as I smile at him.
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I gave him a bit of a smile. “It’s fine, I know you meant well” I tell him. “Everything that’s black, has no feeling” I explain. “Don’t you think it will be kind of fun to try and concur the blizzard since there’s a store at the corner of the street” I chuckle. “I want to cook for you” I tell him. “I can’t guarantee that it will be edible but I want to try” I said.
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Archer
“Well I can find a place for kisses then that you can feel not everything is black handsome.” I say as I smile and lay on his lap. “You are going to have to let me actually find my winter coat before we go out in that even if it is just to the store on the corner. It looks really cold out.” I complained a little as I got up and walked into my room. “You can come in here so we can still talk while I find my coat.” I say as I smile and stand in my doorway. “Well what do you want to make? I would suggest simple if you are a little rusty in the kitchen.”
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I chuckled and followed him into his room where I flopped down on his bed…a real bed…
“Hate to say it, but that’s classified information” I said with a grin. “But I promise I won’t put anyone weird in it” I joked, and for the first time it was an actual genuine joke about my past. I just looked at his back while he was looking for his coat. “We need to get you a nice warm layer of fat so you won’t be so cold all the time” I joked.
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Archer
I giggled when I heard him flop on my bed even with my back turned. I smiled at him and he looked so content. “Oh come on give me a little hint at least.” I whined dramatically a bit as I dug in my closet for my coat. “You better not put weird stuff in it Genosta if you put like worms in it im going to be a little mad.” I crossed my arms still being dramatic and trying so hard not to laugh. “I wouldn’t know what that’s like I have always been pretty thin heck even underweight at times.” I admitted in full seriousness as I avoided eye contact. “Genosta if your comfortable you can stay in here with me tonight I mean its probably been a while since you have slept on an actual bed and its not great but it is better than the couch.”
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“Your hint is that if I make it right, it’s going to be amazing” I chuckle and was both relieved and disappointed that he missheard someone for something “Nah, I know I’m a bird, but worms aren’t good at all so I won’t do that to you” I said chuckling. “Well, you should, don’t get me wrong, you look handsome as you are now, but a little more extra of you… I mean, you won’t hear me complain” I chuckle before looking around the room. “I can try, but don’t look at ke weird if halfway through the night, I change back into a bird” I point out.
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“Well then I hope you make it right Genosta.” I said smiling as I pulled out my coat and put it on over my hoodie. I needed to turn my heat up it was even cold in the apartment. I heard him chuckle and looked at him a little confused. I had clearly missed something but I had no idea what it was I had missed, “Good because I really didnt want worms for dinner.” I say as I sit beside him and smile as I hold his hand. “Ive just never had the means to do that growing up and there is some other stuff involved.” I mumbled when he talked about me gaining weight and how I was handsome as it was but he wouldn’t mind a little weight on me, I kissed his cheek on the side that wasn’t black and smiled. “Its ok little birdy if that ends up being more comfortable its ok. You can still stay in here with me.”
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I smiled as he kissed my other cheek and even though I wasn’t fully able to feel it, I did feel it a little and it made me blush. “Well, you’re perfect the way you are, I just want more of that perfect you” I joked with a wink and a smirk. I then jumped up. “Thanks, but I’m staying with you while we are going out” I said as I grab his arm and drag him out.
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Archer
I smiled catching his blush it made me happy to see him a little flustered like that. I giggle and cuddle into him. “Well I want more of the perfect you too but Ill survive with what you’ve given me.” I say as I giggle and hold him tight. I whined a little as he jumped up and I sighed as I stood up too. “Ok fine lets go lets go but I was talking about you sleeping in my room tonight.”
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